:(

i just hate being unhappy at least once every single day.

and it just sucks even more to be unhappy on top of being worried. so worried for the first time, that what im worried abt might just become real.

but then again maybe im not worried.

im scared.
fucking, scared. ok?
:'(



i wish u nv said such things to make me think like this. im scared like hell and im sure no one really knows how it really feels like to have someone close say this to u and bring this fear to u all of a sudden.


im scared abt things becoming real, about my worries becoming real.
does anyone understand?
no.
i know we can pray and hope that things will be ok, like always.
but it doesnt take the fear away. im still scared.


there can be a hundred things we've quarreled over, and another thousand things that i said i dislike abt them.
but i would never, never, want to lose anyone to anything.



when this fear comes to u, and it seems this close to becoming real, u will understand how this feels.