mylife.myworld

2011-08-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really wish u can tell me what I want to hear.

[x] 1008

2011-08-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

its been a long while, blog :)

things happened, things passed, i got my final semester's results, did well, graduated, went through jittery job interviews, and am finally into my 3rd week of work :)

super quick summary, yes. lotsa details in btwn events, some happy, mostly not really, and i dont really wanna remember them again so lets just forget it.

really happy that i got to graduate with my dear :) its something that we get to share again, and we went through the process of job search and employment together too, shared experiences that we both appreciate :)

and im thankful to be working with 3 other psych coursemates too! at least i have company right from the start :) social support is so important. working life would be so lonely without them!

work has been good so far. am enjoying it and still learning lotsa interesting stuff. much more for me to learn though! hopefully will absorb enough before im assigned my first case :)

yup guess thats all for now. after so many things that happened, i really wanna learn to remind myself of the happy things that happened each day. i dont wanna dwell on unhappy things. :)

for today, i got to observe another school visit and got news from my senior that i'll be able to observe court tmr :) another welfare task assigned for me on sat, and im looking forward to that too. cant wait to experience so much more :)

[x] 1007

2011-06-23T17:41:00.001+08:00

u're supposed to be made of stronger stuff. not sitting here crying like some piece of shit over stupid things.

[x] 1006

2011-06-23T02:41:00.001+08:00

:(

i just hate being unhappy at least once every single day.

and it just sucks even more to be unhappy on top of being worried. so worried for the first time, that what im worried abt might just become real.

but then again maybe im not worried.

im scared.
fucking, scared. ok?
:'(

i wish u nv said such things to make me think like this. im scared like hell and im sure no one really knows how it really feels like to have someone close say this to u and bring this fear to u all of a sudden.

im scared abt things becoming real, about my worries becoming real.
does anyone understand?
no.
i know we can pray and hope that things will be ok, like always.
but it doesnt take the fear away. im still scared.

there can be a hundred things we've quarreled over, and another thousand things that i said i dislike abt them.
but i would never, never, want to lose anyone to anything.

when this fear comes to u, and it seems this close to becoming real, u will understand how this feels.

[x] 1005

2011-06-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

Don’t start your day with the broken pieces of yesterday. Everyday is new day. Each day is a new beginning! Every morning we wake up is the first day of the rest of our life. Be thankful.

- Danny Millers

[x] 1004

2011-05-27T09:31:00.003+08:00

had an impulse to do another manicure ytd so i went ahead for another session although i just did one last wk >.< bought this coupon some time ago and its a salon i've nv tried before so just thought i'll try it out. discounted but still a bit waste money but but, i wont be able to do funky stuff to my nails next time when i start work!! :((( so yah i thk i better do whatever i like now hahahahahah :P

the colour din turn out the way i had previously visualised them to be so, i wldnt say im 100% satisfied with the result. but it was okay i guess.. love will grow btwn us de~~ hahaha.

that said, i dont thk i'll go back again cos i thought customer service from that place could've been MUCH better. >=( here's why.

1. an ADITIONAL $5 charge for doing alternate colours!! *its usually no additional charges at the other salons i patronised* hello, the same amt of nail polish is used can?
(but i complied anyway cos i really wanted pink and gold. too overriden by impulses. tsk.)

2. NEVER think tt u're so awesome with ur skills that u can trim ppl's skin even if u look away at some distraction for a while.

3. the result? she trimmed too much skin around 2 of my nails and der was kinda a small cut on each of them, and it stings too.

4. when u've caused "damage", PLS DONT DENY IT.

me: erm, its a bit painful here and i thk its bleeding..
her: *takes brief look* no lah its just red lah where got blood. 你不要吓我 leh.

mm isnt it more like [你] 不要吓我 instead??? its my finger, no? and anw it isnt supposed to be even red too.

(turns out it was really a cut and there WAS blood cos i could wash that bit of stain away after that. first time having myself paying for a cut at a manicure. naise.)

5. lastly, never tell a customer that she's weird.

>=(

i want alternate colours very weird meh???
HMPFF.

some other little-r things that i wasnt v happy abt but, shant get tooooo whiny so here're just the stuff that got me more.. dissatisfied.

not going back there again :)

***

met peiwen for kungfu panda 2 at cck after that!! yayyy happy happy to meet my saisai again! :D had a nice time catching up before and after the movie and i thought the movie was pretty gd too! its still as retardedly funny as ever hahahahaha. my favourite! XD

so many other movies that i wanna catch. haix. pok alreadyy!!

[x] 1003

2011-05-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

oh mann im just stoning around.

im tired, but somehow im just stubbornly staying awake and duno for what also cos im not doing very meaningful things. its like during study time, u complain and complain abt how u wanna rest but cant. den once holiday sets in, u can rest all u want but u just dont wanna "waste time" slping so u continue torturing ur body. why ar?

im so guilty of that >.<

right. i have this whole list of stuff i wanna do in my hols. i shall start checking off the list tmr.

and my table isnt packed yet even after exams have ended for so long =x

ahhhh!!!

i will do it tmr too.

[x] 1002

2011-05-25T20:35:00.003+08:00

the happy things that made my day:

#1 not-bad interview at mcys! i really really hope i'll get thru this round as well :)

#2 met my dear boy after my interview! he has an event in the evening but came over earlier specially to accompany me :))) so nice hehe.

#3 compliments. they do make people's day sometimes :P

#4 DONUTS!!! somehow i had a sudden craving for them after my interview ended. went to novena sqare BUT DONUT FACTORY WAS GONE so i was super duper DUPER sad :((( tried my luck at neighbouring Square 2 instead and IM SO HAPPY THEY HAVE DONUT FACTORY THERE!!! so i bought 3 :D *nom nom*

(no i dont care if i explode from the sugar and calories)

#5 received a postcard from joyce!!!! heeee super happy to receive sth that a fren sent from afar~~ its a small but heartwarming gift to me :) and i of course appreciate it tons!! makes my day too :)

[x] 1001

2011-05-20T20:10:00.002+08:00

nv blog for very long le.

im just getting more and more unmotivated in life. i dont feel the drive to live each day fully, to enjoy myself while im young and while i can, i dont feel ANYTHING for everything anymore.

it sucks.

send me a tub of happy pills please. promise i'll appreciate it.

[x] 1000

2011-05-06T15:40:00.002+08:00

either im letting the exam stress get to me, or its pms, or my somehow-changing temperament, or ALL OF THE ABOVE.

seriously, im so easily irritated and frustrated nowadays that im scared of myself. dont come near me.

as an only child what i remember all along was, im fine with being left alone at home cos im used to it and it really isnt anything much anyway.

but recently im just CRAVING so much for ppl to accompany me (biggest sacrifice: melvin) that just ONE day of being alone felt like it could kill me and literally "bore me to death".

XINYI WHATS WRONG WITH U.

i even get a bit upset when my mom goes out to meet her friends instead of "selflessly" staying at home to accompany her poor stressed-up daughter who needs plenty of TLC these few days.

:(

but i really dont like being at home alone. NOTHING TO ACCOMPANY ME EXCEPT MY STUPID NOTES.

AND NO DINNER.

AND NID TO EAT ALONE.

u know how sian anot?????

rahhh. >=(

2011-04-26T13:24:00.001+08:00

Too much independence is tantamount to detachment.
U'll only understand it when u're in the situation itself.

2011-04-26T13:06:00.001+08:00

'Self-absorption in all its forms kills empathy, let alone compassion. When we focus on ourselves, our world contracts as our problems and preoccupations loom large. But when we focus on others, our world expands. Our own problems drift to the periphery of the mind and so seem smaller, and we increase our capacity for connection --or compassionate action.' -Daniel Goleman

2011-04-17T15:26:00.002+08:00

U know what?

There's nothing to look forward to in my life.

Nothing much for me to be happy abt.

And I'm serious.

And my computer died on me last Friday. Thanks. Cos I have two more reports and two more presentations to go.

Come on life. Throw me more shit.

[x] 966

2011-04-14T13:07:00.001+08:00

Respect Women.

When it comes to women, I know only one way to treat them
-with respect. Not only the woman I love, but all woman.
In many instances, women tend to be relegated to the background in our lives.
But i disagree with this.

SPOIL HER

I can't say why many men seem to feel that
once love is confirmed, romance takes a back seat.
I am not sure whether it is our upbringing,
or we are too busy chasing the almighty dollar.
Either way, it's no excuse.

Call me old-fashioned but women are meant to be spoiled,
fussed over, put on a pedestal and adored.
Do you dress up for your woman?
Do you hold her hand for no reason?
Do you do the small things like open a car door,
give a morning kiss, buy a rose for no reason,
or most important of all, leave a love note on the pillow?
Making a woman feel good can be extremely enjoyable for the man as well.

You just have to remember that to women,
the little things are incredibly important.
The dinners are nice, the jewellery is nice, the home is nice
but it's the rose that will be remembered,
it's the love note that will be treasured and it's the morning kiss
that will make the best start to the day.

Having said all these, not all women are the same.
Some don't like to be fussed over because they need room to breathe.

LOVE & RESPECT

So, it is vital to take time to discover who your woman is.
If you don't know her, you can't truly love her.
More importantly, you can't respect her.
And every woman wants to be respected by the man she loves.

Respect is not only about how you treat her but how you support her,
encourage her and even take responsibility for some things so she has time for herself.
In fact, showing effort is the greatest form of respect.

Do you have it in you to respect a woman?
Can you let her go to become her own person or will she only ever be your partner?
Can you let her shine on her own?
And if so, how far will you go to help her shine?

Can you listen to her without trying to solve her problems?
(She can solve them on her own, so don't try unless asked.)
Can you open up to her about your work, life, friends...
anything that is important to you?
In short, she is more than your partner;
she would be your confidante and you, hers.

It isn't difficult. You just need to put all the personal egos aside.
If you are like me, you will believe that love does conquers all.
You picked your partner so support her, encourage her, love her
and most importantly respect her because without her,
life would be very lonely indeed.

-The Flying Dutchman

*re-blogged from siping :)

[x] 966

2011-04-12T22:31:00.004+08:00

its been some time since i blogged! again! hahaha.

time to take some time off for myself now~ now that fyp is finally finally OFFICIALLY over :):)

*yay!!! claps*

hahaha. it seriously is a HUGE LOAD off my shoulders.
but honestly, its been a very fruitful year as well :)

im sure everyone has whined and complained and said they hated fyp at least once before.

i, complained LOTS abt fyp (Lee, 2010, 2011). -----> APA format citation

but today, when we finally handed up our theses to "Dear Lydia" (our AMAZING coordinator who's been in charge of every big and small thing for my cohort for all 4 years), it really felt like sucha huge acomplishment and another milestone achieved in my lifeee!! i know its just "another thesis" that most ppl have done before, its just another paper in this huge wide world, but to us, its our FIRST research paper!! we finally finished itttt :):)

its been a very tiring year but we all went through it together. from the frantic start where everyone "fought" for the prof that they wanted to work with, to forming a fyp grp, finally getting confirmationfrom the prof that he/she will accept u, to churning out initial hypotheses and editing them many many times until the prof says they're gd, moving on to confirming research measures, carrying out data collection, doing all the (i still find them irritating) statistics, writing up the final portion of the paper, and spamming ur prof's inbox with drafts in the unrealistic hope that she'll respond immediately with comments so that u can quickly finish up ur fyp and get it over and done with!

and in the midst of all those, still trying to keep up with the modules we're taking.

it wasnt easyyyyy. BUT WE DID IT!!!!

12th April 2011. a day to remember! :)

i seriously feel VERY accomplished and felt that all the stress (and tears) i went thru were worth it :):)
(pls give me a gd grade too to make it MORE worth it! lol)

super grateful that i got my dearest frens and group mates ard to accompany me thru all these stages. i dont thk ANYONE can do fyp alone. if u could, i must say i really pei fu u. how can anyone ever handle all the stress and "omg i dont know if this is correct" without help from any frens!! i wld've just died at stats alone seriously :( so, big thanks to jingxiu michelle heidi my dear grp mates!! and those who've been there for me throughout the years like siping karen elsa daren and of cos my dearest melvin! :) what will i do without u ppl~~~~ :):):)

had a very happy post-fyp celebration with psychies this evening :) sad that some of them handed in earlier so they werent here to celebrate tgt today, but at least we had a gd meal after going thru the FINAL lap of fyp tgt! :):)

love u girls :)

[x] 965

2011-04-08T02:07:00.004+08:00

this reminds me so much of how i "battled" with my cat last time too. how she would "bite" and "scratch" me but it doesnt hurt cos her bites werent real and her claws were trimmed..

i dont have any photos of her cos i didnt have any camera/camera phones back then. so.. only memories left for me.

i miss her a whole lot. really. :( wonder if she's being taken care of now..

[x] 964

2011-03-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

SUPER DUPER SIAN.

got rid of LG (YAYYY) and here comes brand new dream phone HTC Incredible S BUT THE CHARGER IS NOT WORKING so cant charge means cant use means EQUIVALENT TO NO PHONE.

and i mean, NO PHONE.

-_-

words cant describe how utterly UPSET i am.

[x] 963

2011-03-24T21:25:00.003+08:00

oh well oh well. all i can say is that, if u cant understand, den there's really nth much i can do. no point getting mad over something that honestly cant be helped..

[x] 962

2011-03-16T23:57:00.001+08:00

fyp is DAMN. BLOODY. IRRITATING.

[x] 961

2011-03-14T19:45:00.006+08:00

i wanna go to somewhere after graduationnnnn!

is it too long a break to rest until august? sometimes i just wonder.. abt how long i shld rest. in busy singapore its almost instinctive to start work immediately after ur studies end officially.. if not "u'll have no money and no food to eat!" >.< but i just really wanna rest and stop chasing time for a while, do things that i wanna do, recharge my spirit, then restart my working engine.

like i always said, the next break is retirement leh.
so far away.

then again, a friend reminded me that, what if the job i applied for requires me to start work immediately and becos i said i wanna start in august, they gave the offer to someone else??

thats a valid point....
but argh. i haven even gotten any offers yet ha.

but seriously, what if nobody wants to hire me???? :(:(

ok im just blogging random stuffs. tired from attempting work the entire day (keyword: attempting) and just wondering if the whole of recess is gonna be truly all work :(

but thankfully its not! hahaha. am looking forward to meet up with my dearest peiwen gina and mich on thurs evening :) gonna meet up with my YC ppl on sat tooo! wonder how all the youths are doing. i miss their young and endless energy a whole lotttt :)

but can someone date me out for a movie pls??? its been eons since i last visited a cinema :(

(abrupt end. back to fyppppp)

[x] 960

2011-03-14T10:06:00.002+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/notes/jun-shiomitsu/japan-quake-as-seen-from-twitter-translated-by-me-so-quality-questionable/10150121176733830

was touched to tears from reading these twitters from Japan and knowing how well and gracefully they're responding to what seemed like the-end-of-the-world to us. we honestly have so much to learn from them. truly admirable how caring they still are to one another in times of crisis, and not even being selfish in the least bit.

god bless these people and i really hope the situation will improve soon or at least not deteriorate. its logical to expect some 7.0 magnitude afteshock but i really really hope it doesnt happen...

[x] 959

2011-03-12T22:32:00.005+08:00

terrible news about the japan quake!!!

maybe its becos i took trauma psych last sem. cos somehow i just "felt" a bit more about this disaster than those before... =/ its not whether its a gd-or-bad thing lah. its just... ahhhh i hope they recover from it soon and not toooo many people are impacted or traumatised badly! >.< rescue teams are putting in so much efforts and i feel a little useless sitting here and unable to do much.. lets hope the japanese (and other affected foreigners) will show their resiliency once again and recover soon! if u have a relative or friend currently in japan, i really hope they're safe and well! can imagine how worried all the family members are :(

Japan, jiayou!! gambatte!!

***
recess week has officially started! but i swear its not gonna be much of a recess (once again) cos we have two lovely project proposals to settle and our favourite fyp-s to savour~

more tiring times ahead but, im glad i managed to unwind a little this weekend! :) thanks to my favourite boy for keeping me company again during stressful times :) stressful period for him too! (and in fact, everyone.) dear must remember to jiayou with ur fyp ok!!! no more procrastination. ONE MONTH AWAY FROM DEADLINE is no joke! u dont wanna rush out a 10-au report in the last week~~ trust me! we write report tgt ok?? :D

yes im trying so hard to keep to my own deadlines tooooo >.< cheers to those who have more or less finished up! the rest of us will catch up soon~~ hahaha.

oh no work made me digress about why i loved this weekend :(

these 2 days were sweet!! hahaha. nth beats the company of ur loved ones in home-sweet-home :) and he sang a song for me too! a simple song with edited lyrics totally makes my day :):) thank u dear! i have more energy to continue now!! wahahaha XD

:)))

yay its gonna be a nice recess week!!
*lotsa positivity buzzing around now. lets see how's survival rate halfway thru the week lol*

[x] 958

2011-03-10T23:12:00.003+08:00

honestly i think i didnt do too well today :( and some of my competitors are really strong! so i really have no idea how things're gonna turn out... hope for the best i guess. and be prepared for the worst. :)

talked too fast for presentation. not sure if i answered the special question well enough. games was okayy. group discussion ok, group presentation not too sure. im not the type who's great at presenting sth spontaneously so, crap.

rahhh.
so much uncertainty.

but generally it was fun and the interviewers were nice and ppl were quite friendly too.

we'll see, we'll see.

ok interview over. back to work. fyp and projects await~~~

T-I-R-E-D.
sorry i hadnt been able to meet up with so many of u :( but i promise im really trying! X(

[x] 957

2011-03-05T11:24:00.003+08:00

hehehehehehehehehe i feel super super happy that i got through my first round!!! XD

okok mustnt be too smiley yet cos there're 2 more rounds to go. hopefully they'll be ok too!!

but, im really happy for now!! EUPHORIC!!!! XD

yay!

2011-03-01T15:13:00.001+08:00

nothing that is worthwhile is ever easy. remember that.

yes FYP u are damn worthwhile!!!!

[x] 956

2011-02-24T11:37:00.012+08:00

while i was at precious thots browsing through random cards ytd, i came across a hand-crafted wedding card and the message inside kinda touched me.
and it came rather timely too.
maybe i was a bit emo-ish ytd so i was more sensitive to the words but anw the point is tt, i find the words really meaningful. and im gonna share it here.

searched online and i realised what was in the card was just a short part of the full thing. the whole thing is rather long so here're just the parts i find like the most.

and no, i am not getting married yet.
just sharing something. about relationships.

***
Marriage is..

A commitment.
Its success doesnt depend on feelings, circumstances, or moods but on 2 people who are loyal to each other and the vows they took on their wedding day.

Marriage is hard work.
It means chores, disagreements, misunderstandings, and times when u might not like each other very much. but when u work at it together, it can be the greatest blessing in the world. Its a relationship where 2 people must listen, compromise, and respect..
and a union in which 2 people learn from mistakes, accept faults, and willingly adjust behaviors that need to be changed.

Marriage means talking things out, making necessary changes, and forgiving each other. It's unconditional love at it most understanding and vulnerable, determined to triumph over every challenge and adversity.

Marriage is a partnership of 2 unique people who bring out the very best in each other and who know that even though they are wonderful as individuals...
they are even better together.
Remember this as Wife And Husband.

We are not meant to go though life alone.
We need a partner who will forever remain by our side. Someone to lean on at times, remembering, as well, we will be leaned on, too....
Understand that there will be difficult times, and doubt may cloud your lives
It is then that you must trust each other the most and believe that love will sustain you.

Never hesitate to say 'I love you' or be the first one to say 'I'm sorry'.
Give a lot, overlook even more, and always expect as much in return.
Never look back or lose yourself, but see the special privilege of being a couple.
Never lose sight of what brought you to the altar in the first place: your special love for each other.
Cherish that always.

Together in marriage you will bring out the best in each other,
You will learn from each other and grow from your differences,
You will be 2 individuals living your own lives with each other as one.

:)

2011-02-22T01:30:00.002+08:00

im trying really, really, hard to be okay about it.

but its not working :(

[x] 955

2011-02-21T00:34:00.001+08:00

superficial?

[x] 954

2011-02-03T02:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!! :D:D:D

finally a short break from sch and all its related work and readings and presentations and our beloved FYP!! lets take these 4 days to breathe a bit~~~~~ hahaha.

had very very filling reunion meals with ntu fluties last sat, with aemi ppl on sunday, and another filling dinner with mel's family in the evening, and another one with my own family ytd so thats like 4 BIG MEALS to inspire some weight gain on me :D yay feel happy eating lots again! one of the very few enjoyable things abt cny nowadays isnt it! perfectly justifiable reason to eat more~~ :D wahahahah. enjoy all the gd food and have lotsa money rolling in everyone!! 新年快乐!!!!! :D

[x] 953

2011-01-27T20:47:00.003+08:00

mummy's toothache acted up reaaaally badly ytd night so i accompanied her over to KTPH to see the dentist. thank goodness her nurse friend knew the dentist and got her an advanced appointment so everything was pretty fast. cheers to auntie vivian! :)

anyhoo, wad we thought was a wisdom tooth-ache turned out to be just a bad decay so all mom needed was a normal tooth extraction. pheww to no need for dental surgery and also to a much, much lower cost. extraction and surgery is like hundreds of dollars apart ya knowww! >.<

but yup. glad everything's ok now, except for some residual numbness (the dentist gave her lke 4 shots of anaesthesia omg. cos her tooth was already painful before the extraction =x). i know its just a toothache but i swear its scary when u suddenly get a call from ur mom at 6.50am and she's telling u she needs to go the hospital. -.- not fun at all, okay.

rest of the day was spent snoozing at home (i got no lessons today. not i pon ok :P), then doing up more job applications. rahh hate the process. pls pls make my efforts worth it and let me know im shortlisted somewhere~~ *prays* haha. yes i really need a job. HAIX TTM.

and dear food god, whoever u are, pls bring my appetite back. checked my weight today again and realised i lsot another kg :(:( whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! duno why im still losing weight but i REALLY want to gain my normal weight back. i dont like being fat but i dislike being skinny as much too. just hope it isnt sth wrong with my health =/ we shall see.

[x] 952

2011-01-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

[x] 951

2011-01-22T22:44:00.013+08:00

we went to genting!!!! :D:D:D

yayy sleepy faces at 730am hahah :P

woke up bright and early at 5.15am on the 18th and headed towards boon lay shopping centre for our coach, and off we were to genting highlands!! :D

the coach ride was manyhours-ly long but luckily there was melvin, sleep, cleo, and mp3 to keep me company! :)

stopped over at the commonplace yong ping for a quick meal, and looookkkk there's a heart-shaped cong1 in our fishball noodle soup!! so cute! XD

my chopstick's pointing at it! :P

few more hours of coach ride and WE REACHED!!! swaku us werent sure where to check in so walked all the way to hotel lobby before realising we shld check in at the tour counter which we walked past.. lol so we walked back there again. ohwells~~ exercise after a long ride ish good! hahaha. got our room key after 1 hr and off we go to explore the mall! :):)

(the view from our room! :D)

wahaha look at the hugeee potato wedges!!! wish they were real X(

dinnered at shanghai-10 where there was NO ONE except us lol. food looks gd mahhhhh hahah duno why nobody. but anw, the food came and...

they're really not bad! :D:D dear's 酸辣面 was awesome-ish and my some-dumpling-拉面 was not bad too just tt soup was a bit bland. side dish 水煎包 (not in photo forgot to take =x) was yummy tooo!! thought it was like panfried xiao long bao but turns out its panfried BAO lols. nice nice! :D:D

did most of our shopping - or rather, his shopping, cos i didnt get to see anything nice enough :( - on first evening, and headed to the outdoor theme park next morning! :D:D but before all the roller coasters came, there was breakfasttttt!! XD

look at the HEAP of rice on his plate hahaha rice there free one~

yay and 吃饱饱 already it was time to PLAY!!! woohoooo many likes to short/no queues and good weather!! :D

photo at our first ride! :)

unfortunatelyyyy the attempt to warm up was TOTALLY -.-"" so much for haunted pirate train and for me anticipating some fake ghost jumping out at us from the sides.
NOTHING. THERE. WAS. NOTHING! >=( yes so it was just a ride through a dark meandering path and then back out again. boooooo :(

its ok. many other heartpumping ones ahead~~ haha.

dear took the go-kart! :D
p/s. i didnt take cos i had to take care of our bags. nice hor ;) lols no lah. save locker money arhhhh.

next up - CORKSCREW!!!

i never dared to take this when i was young cos i was horrified by the idea of being turned upside on a speeding roller coaster (see photo below). this time, i was half dragged by my bf so.. hahahaah. BUT ITS DAMN FUN I TELL U!!! ehh why we nv take again ar :( lol.

'nuff said. u gotta take it to know what i mean lol. fun fun!! THIS IS WARM UP!! XD

and after warm up we took G-FORCE!!!

tadaaaaaa the ride that pulls u high up into the sky and drops u from that height~ can literally feel ur butt lift off the seat one lol. took this during my previous trip and that time it was unfortunately foggy so i went up to see nothing and dropped VERY SUDDENLY lol. thank goodness this time the weather was clear :D if not i wldnt have seen genting from that height!!! XD

only one photo. smiles before the ride. cos after ride no more smiles le hahahaah kidding :P

went up to dinosaur land after that. nth much until we saw this reptile booth where u can take photos with a snake/iguanas and there was this SUPER CUTE ANGMOH BOY who was so engrossed with the baby python!! hahahah and he's SUPER CUTE becos he does the exact opposite of what ppl say. for eg, to get him to smile at the camera, the parents gotta say "now, dont look at the camera Sam, and dont smile~~" and Sam just looked at the camera and beamed! hahahaha suuuuper cute!! XD XD

anyhoos, here's the pic we took with the albino python!! awesome creature!!! XD
(yes i like snakes cannot harhhh *indignant*)

and with the baby python! XD so small!

heee hope ur first-time experience with a python wasnt too bad! :D

pirate ship after that!!! didnt know i missed this ride so much! love it when the ship swings down from ur side XD wahahahahahaha.

smaller roller coaster after that! :D small but still very 刺激. like like like! XD
and after that was another ride "flying dragon" but didnt really take photo for tt >.<

theme park time ended ard 3+pm for us so we went to ktv after that! hahaha. hadnt had lunch so we bought two prata sausages!! NICEYYYYY :):):)

(tskk stealing my food!! hahaha :P)

KTV!!!!

back to first world hotel for dinner afterwards~~
no prizes for guessing what we ate :P

hearts!

headed to casino after dinner! wahahaha first time entering casino and the experience was.... mmm not v gd?? lols. we didnt really like that place. first of all, the machines are so hard to use!! not exactly user-friendly :( secondly, the place was FULL OF SMOKE!!! super uber ultra mega irritating >=( and thirdly, WE DIDNT WIN ANYTHING LOL. we even lost away our last 62 centsssss :(:( ohwellssssss just for the experience hahaha.

there was a 4-man band performing at the small stage though, playing classic oldies songs. they're quite nice! all 4 of them can sing so they kinda took turns to lead and harmonise. instruments were just keyboard, electric guitar and some small percussion instruments. doesnt seem like a lot but what they played was really enjoyable to the crowd! we likeeee :):)

tiring day 2 ended and it was almost time to go home! i dowannnn :(:( dont wanna go home to a reality where fyp existsssssss LOL. ok tts gonna be some digression le so, back to LAST DAY OF GENTINGGGGGG!

weather was VERY VERY clear so we had a good view from the usually-fogged-up hotel window!

had free breakfast buffet cos of the voucher and no pictures sadly cos we were too happily gobbling food and taking more food before they're all gone lol. wish i can buffet breakfast everyday!! XD

(ok nvm thk i take back that wish hahahaha melvin just said i grew fatter today! =/)

checked out at 12pm and had 2 hrs to kill before departing. so we lunched at macs and entertained ourselves crazy with finger twister and our m&m keychains! hahaha the videos are super lame :P

yupp and it was coach ride back to singapore, and the end of our 3D2N genting trip! a short and simple trip yet so fun with the good company i had! :D thank u dear~~~ hope u enjoyed as much as i did! :D but yup i know u did :):) hehe yays!

soon after genting trip ended, it was FYP TIME AGAINNNNN :(

but erm i hadnt really touched on that heh. BEEN OUT SHOPPING TODAY!!!!! havent bought ANY cny stuf at all so went to shop at bugis today after accompanying dear for his audition in the noon! :D heeee hope he gets pass the first round!!! *prays prays*

anyhoo, me ish happy girl cos i bought so many things today!!!! kinda got all i needed for cny so yeppp shopping's done! :D finallyyyy. thank u to melvin for fighting thru the crazy weekend bugis crowd with me!! and omg bugis expanded SO MUCH i didnt even know!! for the first time, i didnt finish walking the whole place :( its so big now! but maybe its the crowd too bah. SO. HARD. TO. WALK. but all the efforts are worth it cos i got everything i needed :):) woohooo!

okok this is a long enough post already. i nid to slp now!!! sch starting in a day's time...see the word D-R-E-A-D-D-D-D-D-D ???? :(:(

[x] 950

2011-01-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

wooohoooo going genting real soon with my dearest!! :D:D
18th to 20th. cant wait cant wait!! XD

[x] 949

2011-01-14T18:15:00.008+08:00

i love i love i love!

i love the body shop pumice foot scrub that i got last xmas! :):)

i love my st ives apricot scrub!

i love my new hado labo hydrating lotion!! :D

i love all the discounts i got for my basic necessity items!

such as my kose mask white!!! XD

and i REALLY love watching HD shows like movies and national geographic channel on my new teeeveeeee!
p/s: love clear and pretty moving images ttm!!

XD

so many things that i love! life is good!! XD

and i'll love my parents a lot more if they arrive home right now with dinner! im so hungry :(

[x] 948

2011-01-13T22:46:00.004+08:00

wahhh long time since i blogged i think!! =x im just too too tooo lazy nowadays *nwah emoticon*

anyhoo, 2011 had a nice start! hope everyone else's was good :) i had my really-long-awaited ktv session at partyworld with dear and band ppl, registered my subjects FOR THE LAST TIME - yay! and :(( - , attended my first band practice after 28750374 years and finally played my flute after neglecting it for 3 months, wakeboarded impromptu-ly, and met up with my LONG-LOST GOLDIE TODAY!!!!!!

i am so so SOO happy :D:D:D

its been TWO LONG YEARS since we last met!!! how is it even possible that we finish catching up in two hours of lunch u tell me :( haha but at least we summarised our lives in the past two years for each other! now we have an inkling of each other's lives again~~~ :D cant wait for our double date!! havent met kenneth for years also hahaha all my long lost friendssss!!!

and im so happy i accomplished my next "biggest things in life" just ytd! seriously, which part of me looks like i will even TRY water sports??? =OOO lol but i did! and wakeboarding is really quite fun :):) but yeah, i wish i could stand longer!! NEVERTHELESS, i ish contented enough that i managed to stand for even 5secs :D

yayyy achievement!!!!! i dont care! im a wakeboarder!! :))))

HAHA.

but im not as much a wakeboarder as mr lee~ tsk. its the sports cells in him lahhhhh. im 100% sure none of my cells even register sports in their program lohh haha. so jealous he managed to stand like SUPER DUPER LONG!! like if he nv try funny things like waving one hand and all tt (as requested by instructor to try) we'll really be able to pull him all the way back to the pier! lols. yay good job dear! wakeboarder in the making!! just like me!! :D hahahahahaha.

and yihui and joyce are so good!!!!! ONE DAY i will be able to do tricks too :D ok tts if i continue lah hahaha no money for noww!

woooo happy wakeboarding day!! :):)

ok i suddenly feel super sleepy so i shall stop here and blog again another timeee. on a random note, i cant believe its MID JANUARY!!! the month is ending already zomg. sch can u pls dont start?? :((( somehow i dont feel like i've recovered from my exams although im one of the first few to finish....... rahhhh!! 老了. and i dont thk i got back the 2kg i lost too :(:( IM BECOMING DAMN SKINNY I DOWAN!!!!!!

feed me feed me. nom nom.

[x] 948

2010-12-27T00:11:00.002+08:00

birthday had been good, xmas was great, and boxing day was, tiring! hahaha cleaned up many corners of my house that was cluttered with a lot of my stuff (=x) and yay im happy to be using a neater table now too :)

and while clearing up and packing my stuffs, i found this little piece of folded foolscap paper with my name written on the outside...

it was the note from melvin when we were taking gv17! :):)

heee so happy to see it again! back then he was my "angel" in the angel-mortal game our tutor played. now, he plays a much more important role in my life :) haha kinda amazing how things can change within a short timeframe of a year isnt it! i really cherish this fate alot~ so glad i took gv17 that semester instead of during other semesters! XD hahaha. thank u for becoming sucha huge part of my life dear :) happy 9months!! ♥

[x] 947

2010-12-20T23:41:00.001+08:00

the last thing anyone should give anyone, is false hope.

im thankful my defenses were high enough. :]

[x] 946

2010-12-20T11:43:00.002+08:00

today is my birthday!! :):)

happy 22nd birthday to me :) im older le!! i know its a little laggish by 3 years but i cant believe im not celebrating my teen-s anymore :( how time fliesss!! but thats not to say im not embracing 22. i am! :) hopefully maturity does come with age. i am wiser from today onwards ok! :D yays.

[x] 944

2010-12-11T15:27:00.005+08:00

kinda hate myself for falling sick ytd and leaving some parts of revision til today. body why are u so lousy!

dont talk to me. im super duper full of complains nowadays. if u talk to me, be prepared to listen to my rants abt anything and everything.
suddenly life seems very lifeless, ironically.
i know u'll say its the exam stress. but seriously, most of it isnt because of that. its all accumulated. stuff kept inside for way too long.

u know, i realised im actually a damn unhappy person.
and i realised i dont like my life. at all.

kinda miss the optimistic and cheerful me. i have no idea when i've stopped seeing the positive side of things and when i've become sucha whiner and complainer.
i hope all these will end with the end of exams too.
but somehow, i feel they'll just continue.

sorry. random meaningless post. i should be studying.

[x] 943

2010-12-06T08:52:00.003+08:00

exam period pls quickly quickly pass. my body is surrendering alreadyy >.<

7 days to crazier stress;
10 DAYS TO THE GOOD OL' BREAK.

i cant wait X(

[x] 942

2010-12-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

whats with the sudden runny nose???

have been feeling lethargic and kinda fatigued since ytd..
oh mann pls dont let me fall sick at this time :(

i shld slp.

[x] 941

2010-12-02T21:26:00.005+08:00

me: eh.. 你肥了... :D
him: ... 还敢讲!!!

hahahaha xP

thank u for clearing up all my remaining food for the past 8 months!!
dont worry im sure the 42km this sunday will burn EVERYTHING ;) just run dear. just run.
:D

ilu!

***

went to sch today just for my 5 minutes jap oral exam -.-
exciting isnt it. travel back and forth total 2 hrs just for tt 5mins~~ woots. and i didnt even take 5 mins i oni took 4!!! rahhh.

but im glad it went rather well. :)
maybe just for the last part where im not sure whether i answered in the correct tense or not =/ but ohwells ITS OVER. and i s/u-ed wahaha dont care NEED TO GO HOME STUDY.

but i met sai sai for lunch today and im happy! :D long time no see her and. she's still the same!! hahaahah ok lame. yup yup hope things go well for u my dear girl! no news is gd news yeah! :D

ok my break time ish up. BACK TO MUGGING CIAOSS.

[x] 940

2010-11-30T10:25:00.003+08:00

still feeling kinda broken..

i need to stop ruminating.

why must something always happen before my exams??

fml.

[x] 938

2010-11-24T22:38:00.003+08:00

hmm i realised i hadnt been blogging abt my life's happenings for quite some time :( looking at how short-termed my memory is, at the rate im going im gonna have nth to look back on when i grow old!! >.<

i dont even know where i left off.
i just know that, EXAMS ARE COMING AND I FEEL SO DEAD.
the crazy schedule i planned for myself is gonna tax my poor brain to the max in these 3 wks so that i can finish revision on time and die in 4 consecutive days of exams.

its gd to end exams early and have a slightly longer holiday but its not that gd to have all my papers straight in a row. and becos i end so early, THERE WILL BE NO ONE TO ENJOY HOLS AND PLAY WITH ME :(:( everyone's gonna be still studying. i'll just hibernate and wait for them loh :(

anw, back to the point of not knowing where i left off cos my mind's been too boggled by exam preparation, well, life hasnt been thAt bad lah. (thanks to wise old freddie who reminded us abt positive reframing after lect tt day~~~ hahaha)

although i was informed tt jap final paper will include tihs composition writing section at the end (omg) and i suddenly have revision hw to fit into my already-tight schedule, jap class had really been fun the whole semester and i really love my very-interesting sensei who shares so much abt japanese culture with us and makes lessons super fun and interesting! and i've already s/u-ed so i shldnt worry too much too. :)

last lect of hp801 on mon evening, and yay im so glad i recorded the 2nd half of the lect where the exam tips were given cos the lecturer really said too much for us to copy down. and yay its the last lect! no more evening classes and feeling guilty abt not going~~ (ok fine i wasnt VERY guilty abt not going) jingxiu was telling me, how come u s/u jap then u go for every lesson, then this one (hp801) u nv s/u but u dont go at all. hahaha tts quite a point. but haiyah, evening lesson leh!! wait until 530pm so that i can go home at 830pm??? no no~~

but its not like i skipped every lesson lah. i went for first one, attended the first half for "a few", and i went for the last one for tips.
:]
okayyy pls let me do well somehow lol.

and although trauma psy was terrible cos freddie's trying to cram in like SIX LECTURES into the final 6hrs of class - sigh. - its still been fun attending his classes cos he's just one of the most entertaining profs around and he has so many interesting stories to share! it'll be the stories we rmbr more rather than the lecture content mannn lol. if he's my grandfather i think i'll be quite a happy grandchild :D hahahah. another wonderful prof from psy! XD

and im glad tt among alllll these stresses coming from sch, i still have my friends and mel who provided quite a lot of reprieve~~ thanks for bringing laughter into my stressful life! i hope i brought some smiles to u all and contributed to destressing too~ and thank u siping for the random hug after trauma lect! lols. it was really random. we were waiting for friends to finish asking the prof some qns and she just suddenly hugged me haha. but WE ARE NOT LESBIANS dont anyhow think. having friends ard to support each other in times of stress is really nice! :)

dinners with my dear after classes were also gd for stress relief~ although seeing him alr takes half the stress away (hehe), the food made things better! gd food makes ppl happier and when u're happier u can study better too! yay! :D

not sure if i'll still have time to blog soon~ but everyone jiayou for exams k!!!!! 3 weeks. just 3 weeks!!! gambatte!!

[x] 936

2010-11-18T21:45:00.007+08:00

i love having my girls around me :)

really glad that i got to meet simin woeilin and weijie today. i missed u girls so much!!! although it wasnt like daaaaamn long since the last time we met, it still felt like i'd been deprived of ur "aura"-s for eons :)) thank u for bringing some craziness into my monotonous week! u girls brightened up my day A LOT :)

3 cheers for besties and girl friends!
u girls are irreplaceable :):)

[x] 935

2010-11-18T01:42:00.002+08:00

i really wish i have a sister to hug right now.

[x] 934

2010-11-15T22:03:00.004+08:00

it was kinda rushed but the trip back to YC and meeting our counsellees again was, quite a nice one :) its the first time we went back since they renovated the place! the office's so spacious now :) and its really lovely when we're greeted with happy smiles and exclamations from the staff! i totally miss being in that environment :) good to see everyone looking gd, and the GP youths finally "graduating" from their 6-month program. hope they'll stay clear of whatever placed them in GP in the first place and take gd care of themselves! :)

and of cos, really happy to be seeing long-lost joy and gina too :):) sad that papa cldnt make it today! but im sure we'll all meet up again soon after exams :)

***

this was abt a week ago but still, i love dinners with my mom :)

see she looks so happy with her favourite sashimi salad from sushi tei! :))

hearts to life's simple pleasures :)
(yeah although the amt on the bill wasnt exactly "simple" but, u get the drift ;))

***

the inevitable feeling of happiness and warmth when someone u love prepares breakfast for u :) even if its just a simple half-boiled egg and spread bread, its still so full of LOVE XD

and i LURVE nutella tooo!!!!

***

been having this sharp pain (similar to the pain u get when u swallow a fish bone accidentally) on the left side of my throat for abt 4 days so my mom ~~forced~~ brought me to the doctor. turns out the culprits were 2 ulcers in my throat (ouch and yucks) and apparently the root problem was my sinus. cant breathe properly at night, use more of mouth to breathe, mouth becomes dry, easy to get ulcers and sore throats and throat inflammation. dont slp well, dont feel well rested, always feel lethargic in the day. check all of that mann -.- maybe tts why i alw get sore throat... rahhh. but at least now i know sinus is kinda affecting my life :( and getting ulcers in ur throat is not funnnn :( ulcers pls heal soon~~ unable to apply medicine on the ulcer so i was prescribed antibiotics instead. the pill super big loh! i hope i wont choke on it and die. non-drowsy med for blocked nose was also given to help ease my breathing a bit.. but did i mention? i've got a tolerance to the non-drowsy effect cos i took too much non-drowsy flu med last time so now non-drowsy is still kidna drowsy for me.. which means i cant take the med in the day or maybe even at nite if i have sth impt the next morning. cos i'll still feel the, u know, irritating blur-blur aftereffects =/ rawrsssss so ma fan!!! someone invent an elixir pleaseeeee. X(

[x] 933

2010-11-10T09:35:00.002+08:00

i feel really thankful that i have u by my side.
thank u for being with me :)

[x] 932

2010-11-08T01:02:00.004+08:00

a number of things happened this week.. but im glad all down-s became up-s in the end.
they make us stronger and closer tgt.
:))

***

celebrated shiying's bday on friday at old-school ginza mee-hoon-kuey restaurant!!! :D we used to always go there for lunch/dinner after our band pracs in our sec sch days~~ and always ordered mee hoon kuey and guo tie!! woohooo! it was really like reliving those days again :):) nostalgicccc~!

ah bond and i! :D

big "toast" to 4 cups of amazingly not-nice-drinks! (soya bean, barley, and orange juice, super diluted!!!)

shiying and her 小碗面 lols.

moving on to paradise inn for dessert! :):)

one slice of bday cake for our bday girl!

yay! we love shiying! :D

and the 6 of us! :):)

happy friday evening spent with my dearest ntmb girls once again! :):)

***

okok its about time to slp. hp801 test tmr!! 30mins for 40qns. pls wish me good luck!! pray that my pencil dont spoil i dont have to change lead my eraser wont drop until cannot find i will finish in time and most imptly i can do the qns!! >.< so scary. and to thk i napped TWICE today!!! rahhh.

its ok. my notes tell me one of the functions of slp is to intergrate newly acquired information. i shall go integrate more information now!!

i got study so... shld be can pass hor??
:D

[x] 931

2010-11-01T23:56:00.006+08:00

yayy another concert over! :D

am happy that the project's finally over and we can all have a breather now after the hectic schedules for consecutive weeks~ but sometimes the band songs just pop up in my head again and makes me miss playing those pieces :P lol. 职业病???

on a personal note, im happy that i finally plucked up the courage to try a solo this time round! its an achievement cos i've nv dared to play any solos for concert.... hahahaha. but yay i finally played one! hope i didnt sound like i totally fit into the halloween mood.. :P wasnt the best but im glad i didnt break down or suffer from severe anxiety like i always do in band room! >.< its like whenever we start approaching page 4 (thats where my solo is), my heart will beat faster and faster and no matter how much i practiced i'll still sound crappy!!! horribly sad feeling. but thankfully my nerves were not that bad during the actual! but yah its all over le and i was really relieved once tt piece was over~ hahaha. many thanks to chee weng and you wei for the guidances tooo! :D

and im super happy to be playing another concert with my favouritest frens again! :D euflomba and my crazy freshies who nv fail to make us laugh! hahaha. they're the ones who make tiring practices fun mann~ :):)

ok im really tired i need to slp to chiong for this wk!! its another tiring week to conquer. rahhh! but here're some photos first!! :)

*LIKE*
it was love at first sight. i wanna buy a similar purse tooo!!! :P
taken at yu yan's table when she was checking the accounts for ticket money~ very suitable wallet indeed! :P

with yiting during rehearsal! :)

the crazy year 1s :P

europe roomiess!! -1 though :(

part of euflomba before the concert! :D love the color~

cindyy-ee-ee-!!

cheryl! and her famous pose hahaha :P

mama! :D

the lao ren-s came back!!!! :D
hahahah ok so bad. and to think i'll be joining that club soonnnn *sobs*
but yay happy to see them all! (although at first it was daaaaamn stressful :P)

:)

and of cos,

:D
love the card, love the flower, love ur presence!! :):)

nice closure to the concert, and to a tiring week. now to chiong back to studies full swing!

ok. need to rest now.

[x] 930

2010-10-28T20:34:00.003+08:00

someone slap me for still blogging and uploading photos when i shld be rushing an essay due in 3days' time >.<

rawrs! super duper tiring day today can! well, its been a tiring week lah so its kinda accumulated from monday but still.... *zombified* headed to sch for my dear 1.5hrs of jap lesson, rushed off to shuqun sec for data collection from 2-5pm, and then finally back home..

okay actually it doesnt sound like a lot of things but i swear im furiggin drained from everything!!! yes its a sign of aging i know. but its really been real long since i felt soooo tired even when im bathing! its like every single action required dunohowmany kilojoules of energy.... (is that even the unit that energy is measured in?? aiyah. shui bian lah.)

the 3 hrs of data collection werent as busy as we expected, but it was nvtheless tiring having to translate the entireeeee survey for most of the parents =/ the first parent i translated for was, "ok quite interesting doing translation." second one, "oh mann is the survey ending soon." third one, "........." and subsequently u'll just wish parents wont come anymore :D each survey took abt 40mins i guess. nv thought translation would be so tiring.. but thankfully there were refreshments that were painstakingly prepared for us by our dear prof!!!! :D:D:D

i feel happy when im well-fed. im serious. especially when there're like HOMEMADE SANDWICHES in the cooler waiting for u to consume them, plus extra butter cookies, nonya kuehs, bananas, grapes, coke, mineral water.... omgggg chalet can!!! hahaha. really nice of joyce (my fyp prof) to prepare all the sandwiches for us! and can choose somemore!! got cheese, tuna mayonnaise (SLURPS), and smoked salmon!!!! tian ah how xing fu is this mann!! and the best thing is? they taste superb!!!!! especially with the fresh lettuce and tomatoes inside that crunch when u bite into the sandwich! zomgggg her partner is like SUPER fortunate can. lols. one of the assistants was saying she wldnt mind paying $5 to buy a sandwich from her everyday~ i wldnt mind too loh! :P really damn good. yum yum.

and so we thought the sandwiches could compensate us for the tiring hours we spent there :)

until joyce suggested that we meet up soon to discuss the introduction of our report.... :(:(:(:(

dont u SENSE more work coming in alr??? oh mann. data analysis, report writing... EXAMS....... *shudders*

ok i will do my essay fast so i got more time to slp before more things roll in. bless me!

[x] 929

2010-10-28T01:04:00.005+08:00

its nv nice to admit it.
but,
im really not good enough.
:(

i can try my best, but what if at the end, i still dont deliver the results, i still disappoint ppl, and i waste their time and efforts?

thinking abt it makes me feel kinda awful again but i dont have much time to sink into "depression" and worse still, let myself stay in tt state.. too many things to do, and really too little time. need to move on, need to continue working..

and its 28th Oct already.
happy 7th monthsary my dear :)

crazy schedules and deadlines so we wont be celebrating today.. but still, its another happy milestone we've reached tgt once again :) may there be another beautiful month to look forward to~

[x] 928

2010-10-24T23:11:00.003+08:00

many many things happened within a short frame of time again.
feeling somewhat overwhelmed but, >.<
i will survive.

recess week is gone like this!! i didnt really feel it :(
happy for those who went for an overseas trip during this wk!! hope the break was really a nice one for u guys~~
for many of those whom i know, recess wk was almost non-existent~~ lol.

mine was packed with fyp data collections, band pracs, ktv session, more band pracs, and a 10km run that ended off my short holiday.
not exactly the kind of "break" i wanted but... arghhh sometimes life just sucks >.<

but nike run was not bad! :D
im proud to say i finished 10km and survived!!!! *triumphant* lols.
i thk its the first time in my life that i ran 5km without stopping (continued the rest of the distance alternating btwn jogging and walking) so its like a lifetime achievement already! and i never knew 100plus tasted so damn awesome when u're so tired from running!! hahahah. i love water points XD

but anyhoooo, nike run was a success for us! :D gina, peiwen, melvin, and me! :D had breakfast at marina sq yoshinoya after tt and it was back home to ~~study~~ sleep~~ tiring day indeed!! muscles starting to ache now. i think my legs will break tmr >.<

okok. must aim for next achievement now that 10km is over.
i shall aim to finish one set of notes tonight and faster slp!!!!

my eyes are totally closing can -.-

but before i end....!!

:D
thanks for being with me through everything!! :))

wouldnt have achieved 10km so happily without u beside me! thanks for being there through all the trainings (although der werent a lottt of training runs but those few still count!), for accomodating to my tortoise pace, for pushing me on to continue running when i just wanted to walk all the way alr (:P), and for finishing my first ever marathon with me~ :D ur presence makes a huuuuuge difference dear! thank youuu :):)

many loves!

[x] 927

2010-10-19T00:15:00.004+08:00

hahahaha this is quite a hilarious and interesting read :P got it from siping who got it from fb. XD

"Singaporean Men Cannot Make It One Lah"

Singaporean girls like to use the phrase "cannot make it" to describe Singaporean men. They wrinkle their noses and act all surprised when you suggest, ever so gently, that perhaps Singaporean Male X might be a suitable mate. "Huh?? Cannot make it lah, he." A few years later they marry Singaporean Male Y, who looks and sounds exactly the same as Singaporean Male X.

Why are Singaporean men all so ostensibly "cannot make it"? I do not know the answer to this question, for I am reasonable. However, I do have suggestions for the men. To become a "can make it" Singaporean male (without having to resort to plastic surgery), one must achieve a certain level of competence at the activities I shall be listing out below. Ours is a small, closed society; the traits that mark one out for worthwhile reproduction are easily and quickly discernible, if one pays proper attention.

1. Must be good at computers and computer games

Strangely, being good at computer games appears to be more impressive to the average Singaporean female. If you are good at computers only, you are taken advantage of for most part. If you are good at computer games, however, you are a badass potential protector. Compare:

You: OK, upgraded to Windows 7 already.
Girl: Thanks so much! (thinks: the software did everything.)
You: You're welcome.
Girl: Can help me install antivirus?

with

You: ALL RIGHT 25 KILLSTREAK!
Girl: Huh?
You: Nothing. I just kicked your boyfriend's ass.
Girl: Orh. (stands over shoulder and watches very fast paced game and thinks: aiyah why my boyfriend so lousy.) Can help me install Windows?
You: Sorry not interested, I am aiming for 35 killstreak
Girl: (subconsciously registers lack of punctuation as sexy) Oh. Kill kill kill ... so manly.

As a general rule, the hierarchy is such: first-person shooter, versus fighter, real-time strategy, turn-based strategy and then everything else. MMORPGs occupy a value system of their own, but in general their gentle learning curve reduce street cred. Angry Birds and Bejewelled FTW for now though.

2. Must be good at pool

There is nothing else to do in Singapore. Get good at it, you will be spending a lot of time in these places. Don't just chalk your stick - chalk some victories while you're at it. Ah-lians will be watching.

Must-learns: jump-shot, English, doubles.

3. Must be good at one team sport

So that you will look good next to the other doddering dodos. Football obviously occupies top spot, but basketball and water polo work too. Volleyball is for girls.

Girls find it easier to come down to support team sports, because they can rationalize their conduct diffusely: "I'm here for the TEAM." Let them have this. You know what they're thinking when you're ... scoring.

4. Must be good at one individual sport

While girls find it harder to support these because you are alone and therefore very bo sei for them to come all the way down, the simple fact that you are involved in some sport somewhere is already very "can make it". Walk around with your lacrosse bag slung over your shoulder or your tennis shoes carelessly dangling from your backpack. When they ask about your sport, just make vague references and knowingly use terms of art.

Girl: Where are you going?
You: Oh, practice.
Girl: What practice?
You: Kallang ... today we're doing slice serves.
Girl: *tingle down spine* Ohhh.

Few other people will be able to challenge your authority, since these are individual, recherche pursuits. Exploit the opportunity.

To avoid: ping-pong, badminton (everyone thinks they can play these)

5. Must be musical

GUITAR for individual, DRUMS in a band. Girls are quite dumb one and they like to see action jackson. You bang bang the drum, they happy. You stand around and pluck a few strings, nobody knows what you're doing. Of course, if you are going to do the serenading thing, it will be guitar without question.

Tip: When serenading, pretend to be practising (when you actually practice sui sui at home already). Always choose a current song, so people will bite. If you play More Than Words for the 238645823648243234th time, people confirm lose interest one. And don't look at anybody when singing, otherwise they will feel that you are "invading" them. Don't "invade" anybody. Just let them listen to your ostensibly unassuming music. Confirm plus guarantee plus chop will have results.

6. Must be able to do math

A guy who cannot do maths is like an eunuch. He is not a man. In Singapore especially, even our girls are damn good at maths. So you better be super damn good, so you can explain to her how to divide her parts.

One better: PHYSICS. For some reason, applied stuff is harder for girls. So take physics and ace it. Then later on, toss in puns about how you two have such great chemistry, you want to explore the geography of her biography in a physical way. "Your body is a wonderland," you will coo. "Do you want to read my literature or should we just start making history?" Just don't show her your mother tongue.

7. Must have good sense of direction

A guy who has no sense of direction is a girl. The end.

8. Must drive and must be good driver

DRIVE. And for fuck's sake, practice that parallel parking thing. Girls always tell themselves that they are not lousier drivers, just more careful/cautious/whatever. But despite that ALL OF THEM STILL CANNOT FREAKING PARALLEL PARK. Become tok kong at this, heighten the gender difference, enhance the sexual tension. Ooh yeah baby.

By the way, European marques please. The Singaporean lady does not want to be seen rolling in a Hyundai.

9. Must be laconic and listen to her drivel

Ya. It helps. Srsly.

Singaporean girls think they are really interesting, and maybe they are. Who knows? We aren't really listening. But you don't really have to - just nod every 10 seconds. And then say, "Really ah." I just did this today. It is fricking awesome. You can abidicate responsbility for having a brain.

The bottom line is that by keeping silent, you allow her to project her preferred self-image onto you. She is interesting, so therefore you must be interesting, since you are absorbing her everything. How cool is that? I love lady logic.

10. Must know DIY

"I hammered her and her friend last night, we had a good screw. Talk about nailing two in one night! Of course I bolted the next day, but I will always be ready when their pipes need further unclogging."

Euphemisms aside, you must know DIY because other penises will try to undermine you with their own DIY knowledge. Especially contractors who overcharge. If you are fleeced in any DIY-related matter, you are not a man.

This is also perhaps the origin of the phrase "cannot make it" - a man who "can make it" can make ... things. With hands and tools. He probabaly also knows how to instruct the girl on how to rectify a swollen ball-cock.

11. Must speak dialect

My biggest regret, I cannot speak dialect. In lup-sup KTVs and Warrant Officer messes, I am the lowest of the low. With contractors, I am a freaking pony with "Kan Me" on my forehead. Why is dialect so important for the Singaporean male? Primarily, it establishes street cred. Denizens from below must look up to you before any female will find you worth apprising. Importantly, also, dialect is crass; crassness establishes contrast, and in contrast we find admiration.

12. Must not be below PES B

Or at least finish normal BMT like everyone else. Nobody really knows whether OCS or SISPEC is tougher, so you can elide that easily.

If you had a buay gan army life, try not to talk about it at all. Girls know one. They all have "a friend" who was a commando-officer-parakeet. They will compare you like they compare their Prada bag with the other girl's Miu Miu. Don't become an object!

If you were a star in the army, also don't talk too much about it. Girls just want to know that you were good, and that you were not a jellyfish. The rest is still for you to prove - funny, rich, smart etc. Prove it.

13. Must have "ambition" and "passion"

Most Singaporean girls have a vague notion that their man should be "successful" or aim for success of some sort. For themselves, they have less concrete ambitions. Use this to your advantage. However, only hint (not talk) about your plans. For instance:

Girl: So, what's next for you?
You: I've had several offers ... well, we'll just see where it goes. I have a pretty clear idea of what I want though.
Girl: What's that?
You: Haha, it will bore you. Let's not talk about me. Do you like baby blue or pink?

Once they know you have "plans", they will stick with you, regardless of what those "plans" are. Make sure you always have "an idea" of what you are going to do. When in doubt, obfuscate and pass off a successful person's life as your own.

14. Must say nearly every other girl is "cannot make it"

This is by far the MOST IMPORTANT ITEM on the list. Singaporean girls like a guy who has "standards". Secretly, the standard for every girl is HERSELF. This is not a cardinal scale, there is no relativity. Instead, on this mystery scale there is THE GIRL IN QUESTION, and then EVERY OTHER FEMALE ON EARTH. She will make cursory concessions for Angelina Jolie and Megan Fox (the latter usually grudgingly), of course, but DO NOT BE FOOLED. She just wants you to think that SHE is the prettiest and THAT IS IT!!!

If, however, you are unable to lie barefacedly, you might want to go with a less extreme approach. You must say that girls SHE LIKES AS PEOPLE are pretty. NEVER SAY THAT PRETTY GIRLS ARE PRETTY! Girls are unable to divorce looks from personality. It would be unwise to do so, therefore, in their presence. A good sample discussion would run as follows:

Girl: Do you think Girl X (ugly but liked) is pretty?
You: Yes, she has a certain je ne sais quoi that I find charming.
Girl: (pleased) Really ah? I think so too! Not like that Girl Y (pretty but disliked).
You: Oh, Girl Y. Cannot make it lah. Act cute buay cute.
Girl: (ready to give you blowjob liao) I ALSO SAY!

Have you ever noticed that girls thought pretty by other girls are really not pretty at all? And hot, sexy girls are almost always labelled "sluts", as if that were a bad thing? Important hint: Do not address the girl on these points. She does not want to confront her inner evolutionary demons.

Well, that's the list. A tall order? Yes, but a worthwhile endeavour, if we are not to lose all our women to the cast of The Last Airbender. We can make it one.

***

htht with weijie today :)
i like how we're both trying to maintain good contact with each other, and making the efforts to meet up every now and then to catch up amidst our own very hectic schedules. hope things will go well for u my dear girl! :)

***

its recess wk!!!

~~half the sem is G-O-N-E ohmylaotianye.~~

many many things to study, to catch up on, not much time left for entertainment sadly to say, sunday is nike run like SINCE WHEN DID 6 WEEKS FLY PAST im so gonna freaking die on that day can. -.-

its ok. i have melvin.
hahahahah :P
and my two besties gina and peiwen who can help to pull me along when im dead from running! lols. pls let me run at least 3km~~~~~~

ok its not much of a post but its enough blogging for today. nid to wake up in 5hrs for 1st fyp data collection :(:(:(

i can do it.

[x] 926

2010-10-11T23:29:00.004+08:00

sometimes, i get too focused on the negatives in my life, too focused on the bad feelings that i have, on what's making me sad, what didnt make my day, that i forget abt the good things that also happened during the rest of my waking hours.

today i shall make it a point to note the happy things down.
:]

woke up feeling the usual sluggishness on monday mornings, dragged myself to sch for jap class and adolescents lecture, and had a fun time doing up the video for our presentation :) my group's doing on gangs, and we were gonna make a video regarding that. only 5 of us in the grp, so each of us was assigned a different ah lian role lol. 1st time acting for a video and acting as an ah lian was quite fun hahaha :P quite a few takes for each scene cos we kept 笑场-ing or forgetting half our lines :P but all was done in the end and we finished the filming in one day! took us like 5 hrs in total for the filming and travelling to different places for different scenes. hopefully the edited video will turn out okay! :D enjoyed today's filming a lot. it was tiring running abt here and der, but it was fun acting out too. now we know being an actor really isnt easy~ and im happy to work with my fun-loving bunch of psychies too :))

yup so that was the 5 happy hours i had today :) shall hope for more tmr~

[x] 925

2010-10-08T02:12:00.000+08:00

[x] 924

2010-10-08T00:59:00.002+08:00

so endlessly flawed.

[x] 923

2010-10-05T01:08:00.004+08:00

taken from siping's blog :)

I LOVE YOU means, I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. That, I do not expect perfection from you — just as you do not expect it from me. That, I will love you and stand by you even …through the worst of times. Loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. Loving you when you’re down — not just when you’re fun to be with. ILOVEYOU means that, I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them — asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. That, I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough NOT TO LET GO. Thinking of you and needing you constantly. ♥

siping: im not sure if this is a quote or u typed it all by urself. its really nice nonetheless! and thank u for posting this up too. sometimes we just dont have the words ourselves to describe things, and need such quotes to help us express what we feel. this one absolutely speaks for me :)

[x] 922

2010-10-02T01:14:00.003+08:00

happy children's day everyone!!! :D:D

i believe everyone still has this child at heart~~ and how i wish i can still officially celebrate this day and receive chocs or sweets or sth! but i kinda still unofficially celebrate so i guess im fine with it lah hehe :P

another beezee week!!

long day on mon as usual cos lessons (supposedly) end at 830pm but so far, i've been leaving during break time so tt makes my mondays all end ard 645pm :D its still a target for me to stay for a full lecture but i shall really see how. usually i'll be dying to go home ard 330, or feel super hungry by 630pm so.... we'll see, we'll see :)

went back to my admiralty attachment place (YC) on tues evening to attend the commissioning ceremony! :D the event is probably nth much to the general public but to us at YC, we know how significant this ceremony can be to the youths and to their families :) feels gd to be seeing the youths again and feeling all their energy, and it feels even better to see them continuing in areas like emcee-ing and video-taking! not sure if its really a "legacy" left behind by YC Nite that time but, i feel really happy to see that the youths are continuing the "journey" from there and not just ending things when the event ended. i guess this is one of the satisfactions that we interns get :):) and of cos, happy to meet up with my fellow interns and staff tooo!!! we went crazy reminiscing our crazy 10weeks tgt and attempted to damage papa's ear drums again on the car ride back hahaha. but i guess he doesnt really mind tt once in a while :P:P love my interns!!

another long day with band til 10+pm on wed, and thurs it was the ntu public service networking event! :):) finally~~~ the day of formal wear and listening to talks and talking to potential employers... and eating quite yummy food :P hahaha ok i know the food's just a bonus. but i thk the event's quite fruitful! :) got to know more abt the benefits of working in the public sector, positions available that're related to psychology (esp at my beloved mcys lol), and also heard some interesting stories that the reps shared with us :) have yet to read up on the brochures i "collected" though.. hopefully i'll have time over the weekend! >.< but im glad i went for the event. informative indeed :))

and its weekends again! the semester is zooming by soooo quickly that recess week is coming in 2 wks' time which means that HALF THE SEM IS OVER !!!!

terrible news i tell u.

i dont feel like i've understood indepth-ly abt the stuff im takinggg :( during lect its like mmm interesting story! laughters here and there, understand understand, den i go home and keep the notes away and, yeah they kinda stay there. textbooks and articles are read but still..... i duno. its this weird feeling that i hadnt studied since sem started and it feels BAD =x suddenly i wish i have mid terms BUT ITS OK i thk i'll take that sentence back :P aiyah. i guess i'll study properly sooner or later. at least im clearing my readings now! :D:D

ok its sleep time. intensive band pracs starting already for the upcoming concert on 31st Oct at nanyang auditorium tickets selling at $8 if interested do let me know :D hahaha ok im off to bed. nightos!

[x] 921

2010-09-27T00:29:00.007+08:00

see, weekends are so filled with happiness :)

had a happy shopping session with jingxiu-san on friday! :D supposed to buy my black heels but ended up with 3 t-shirts instead lol. ahhhh i must learn to focus more on my task... but, i really need shirts!!! >.< hahaha anything lah. we were both happy! :D

headed to far east shopping centre to collect band hero for youwei [damn heavy the thing but thankfully der are kind souls around! :D thank u shop-guy and taxi uncle!!] and headed to his place for steamboat! wahaha for once im the first to arrive :P helped to set up the game a bit while waiting for the rest to arrive and then it was STEAMBOAT TIMEEE!! XD

was super, duper, DUPER hungry.

but steamboat was very yummy and happy and band hero was very fun too! :D
yays TGIF!

***

flute festival's here and we've booked a 2hr slot for flute maintenance today! so nice. its free service, but with priority given to muramatsu flutes :) had the chance to try out a range of muramatsu flutes tooo! they were arranged according to price (but got mixed up by us when we tried hahaha oops :P) and seriously they look SUPER ATTRACTIVE sparkling away at one corner of the room and tempted cindy and i to go over :P didnt really dare to try them cos they're freaking exp but we did in the end, and yay i finally tried platinum flute!! XD quite resistant and heavy enough to train arm strength i thk~ and expensive enough to exchange for a car =x so scary. as u try the flutes from left to right, the price go from $4k plus.. to $10k plus.. to $100k plus =x ahhhhhh!!!!

but they're really nice. check out those beauties!!

ENGRAVED LIP PLATE WHEN WILL U BE MINE??
oh santa wont u make my dream come true~~~ lol. $300!!

super chio engraved keys!!

oh my. i really love this one. think its the 14k gold flute. but i guess its superficial cos i oni like the design :P prefer the sound of the 24k one!!! uber nice~

fluties trying out sparklies~

and the "gods" helping us to service our instruments!!!!

they're really damn zai. not just in repairing but also in their playing. *worships*

really takes a lot of patience to dismantle the whole thing and adjust here and der and put it back and try out and all tt. i rmbr der was one oldyamaha flute tt took the guy suuuuper long to fix... initially sounds funny but he fixed it in e end!!! *thumbs up* :):)

halfway through, this rather famous flautist (who just had his recital performance the day before) came in with 2 other ppl, and tried out the flutes on display too. this flautist is my flute tutor's fellow "classmate", and one of the 2 others, is his flute teacher =| ahhhh shifu's shifu!!!! and their playing is really, WOAHHHHHHH. 果然高明. listening to the "free concert" as they test-played the flutes just totally makes us speechless lol.

went out to look ard the merchandise while waiting for our flutes, and had a small damage of $23 to my wallet balance :( well, at least they're not useless stuff. investment investment!! dear flute, u're gonna be reaaaaal shiny again vry soon!! :D

went back to the room and sadly, the 3 repair guys have gone for lunch. and my flute was just next in queue! :(((( had to leave alr so got chen yi to help me take it back afterwards.. ahhh totally cant wait to get my 老公 back!! XD

okok im suddenly very very slpy. long week ahead with fyp and networking event! >.< need more rest. koonz!

2010-09-25T03:36:00.001+08:00

When you’re down, please remember and think of all the happy small and big things around you and the millions of reasons that you should be smiling :)

- hjstory

this quote appeared at a timely moment.
thank u hjstory.

[x] 920

2010-09-24T02:14:00.004+08:00

its been a loooong time since i shopped with peiwen :)) miss this girl!! hee. had a fun time browsing clothes with her (all in search of my ideal pink blouse but somehow it ended up being a white one in the shopping bag instead), eating yummy little food with her at ion, having girl talk, and laughing at the retardedly cute notebooks at artbox :D thank u for the fun evening sai sai~~~ *wide wide grin*

oh noo got this girl behind spoil our lomantiku-ness!!
but still, :))

dad fetched me back from town after that, and he asked about how my formal-clothes-shopping went today. told him i only managed to get a blouse, have yet to find a nice comfortable pair of black heels, and am still contemplating getting a skirt. a surprise came when he told me that blouse will usually look nicer with skirt so i shld just get the skirt. "boomz" cos its like, he's asking me to buy sth! lols. surprise surprise.

but still, i was thking that, if my concert pants (:P) look fine with the blouse i bought, then der's really no need for the skirt already~

and true enough, when i got home and tried my formal attire, they really look ok tgt. yays! and yah becos its kinda the "first" time im wearing full formal, i was a little self conscious and kept checking in the mirror whether everything really looks fine, from collar to cuff to hair to how much my blouse is tucked in etc. hahah ok i know its retarded but, i really wanted to look "okay"!! lols.

den my dad came into the room, saw me looking at the mirror again for the dunowad-th time, and commented,

"镜子要破了啦"

tskk -_-

so. mean.

everytime also lidat one >=(
but he also said i really look ok so yay i shall believe that :D

now i really need my heels! >.<

shopping again with jingxiu-san tmr! cant wait cant wait :):)

***

a few issues came up recently btwn us, and its been a bit of a rocky ride this week. but im glad we're talking things out, and still staying strong.
or maybe stronger. :)

i really feel like i hadnt seen you for weeks.
:(

going crazy from all the missing already.
weekends, pls arrive nowwwww!

[x] 919

2010-09-17T21:42:00.006+08:00

omg just saw this from World Wildlife Foundation newsletter and its so shocking!!

Live tiger found in luggage

A two-month-old tiger cub was rescued by Bangkok airport officials in August after being found sedated and hidden with a stuffed tiger toy in a woman's luggage. The cub, which might not have survived the intended trip to Iran, was transferred to a rehabilitation center. Tiger populations in Thailand and throughout Asia are critically threatened by poaching and trading done to meet the international demand for tiger parts, live tigers and tiger products.

(full article)

angryyyy!!!!! how can ppl STUFF a tiger into sucha tiny luggage???? dont they realise there's NO SPACE and NO AIR for the poor cat????? grrrrr. these ppl ought to be locked in luggages themselves for 10days!!!! no. more than 10 days!!! >=(
thankfully the officers inspected the suspicious bag and rescued the cub. if not i seriously think it wldnt survive the flight [no space no air lotsa throwing around plus high pressure up in the air: how to live???] and even if it did, it probably wldnt have a gd ending with those wildlife traffickers.

wildlife traffickers and illegal poachers and those other related evil fellas should really be cursed til death. which part of endangered do they not understand??? yeah its very mean of me to curse ppl but it really makes my blood boil to know that ppl are killing dolphins, cutting off sharks' fins and throwing the shark back into the sea, skinning live foxes, STUFFING CUBS INTO LUGGAGES........ totally inhumane!! go and die!!!!!

ANGRY.

[x] 918

2010-09-16T01:07:00.002+08:00

if u watched 小娘惹 last time, this will be familiar :)

heard the song back on simin's car last week, and the tune got stuck in my head once again. just thought i'll share it :)

ahhh how can anyone have sucha beautiful voiceeee!!! XD

[x] 917

2010-09-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

been a while since i updated here. just feel like posting sth kinda-random for now. shall update properly next time~

u know, one thing abt studying psych is that sometimes u can just relate so easily to what u see on ur lecture notes, and u see/feel/sense how real theories can be, even though they can be "just theories".
the situations they describe, the trends that they see;
not everything i read is personally applicable, but there has been a few times where the printed words i see on my notes just reflect what im going through or have been through. in a way, it can be a little "wow" to see ur own "type" of situation being described in theory, but in a more pessimistic light, it can sometimes feel a bit weird to be described so accurately too, especially when it happens to be of a more negative issue. and today in adolescents lect, i found myself staring at those kind of words again. words describing the type of situation that may be rather prevalent in modern families, the type of difficulties that can be predicted from the situation, what possible consequences etc etc. sometimes its just so real in my world that i sigh secretly in my head, especially when u see negative connotations being linked to what is described. im not affected by being "described", but just cant help feeling bit gloomy abt these "sad" things happening ard the world, and in my world too.

the prof kind of held a little longer onto the point that because we're all part of the family system, we're part of the problem too, and also contribute to maintaining that equilibrium that everyone in the family subconsiously strives to sustain, even if the equilibrium is negative. humans are really thAt resistant to change, and although i know that this statement is true since forever, it just seems more prominent now that i also see it in my own life, when i take a step back and look at my own family too.

and this post probably doesnt make sense too because its kinda jargon-ish and random. just some leftover thoughts i have from today :)

spoke to my prof after lect too abt graduation stuff. she's really nice to talk to, and im glad i managed to clarify some things that have been on my mind.

to some very fortunate ones, graduation is nothing much. just another transition point in life.
to others, its a slightly more stressful issue because u start to see many points of reality kicking in, the new responsiblities u suddenly have after that hour of ceremony and throwing the graduation cap, the next path u will have to once again decide for urself, and hopefully it'll be a path that all other significant ppl in ur life also concur with. quite a few decisions to be made, and perhaps also another burden added on. **haha ok i know im not being my positive self today. dont thk sagittarians are 24/7 optimistic kay. can negative also one :P** i really just hope that, 船到桥头(真的会)自然直. that things will really be ok, that my worries are not that necessary after all. for now, just concentrate on doing well for my modules, and get that honours that i need.

in today's lect it was also covered that sg students are seriously way stressed over academics than their US counterparts. ha. who's gonna deny that? =/

[x] 916

2010-08-30T02:51:00.003+08:00

thank you sooo much for the beautiful weekend dear. really enjoyed myself lots :)

was honestly kinda sad that we cldnt have the original plan of fri-sat-stayover at ur place and having almost 3 whole days to ourselves (my mum fell down on fri evening :(), but u turned everything ard and made my sat, which is also our actual 5th mth, a very very happy day for me :) seeing u at my door on sat noon was already enough to make my day! my mood was instantly lifted when i saw u, although the image was blur cos i didnt have my specs :P and i was really happy when u surprised me with the eclairs too~~~ heeeee. i just love all the little surprises u give me and all the efforts u put in to cheer me up when u know i was down :) thank u dear. weekend was really awesome, and was a good closure to our hols too. although there were irritable mosquito bites added to the picture, the pretty flowers and scenery at hortpark, yummylicious dinner at modestos, and ur presence itself, made everything really wonderful and made me one of the happiest girls in the world. im so glad i have u! :):)

i hope u enjoyed ur weekend as much as i did.
happy 5th month my darling!
♥

[x] 915

2010-08-27T00:18:00.003+08:00

i totally dont want school to start leh :(:(

so sian. suddenly FEEL the sch-is-gonna-start-soon feeling today and its just -_____-

haix.

i felt like i wasted a lot of my hols away (excluding attachment). for one thing, i hadnt really packed my table since the sem ended (have yet to get a big box to store my textbooks in cos my cupboard ish have no more space desu).

and i dont really felt like i've officially started on fyp although we kinda did. heh. crapz.

i didnt get to get outta singapore :(

i didnt get to hibernate and rot!!!! for at least 2 days.

ok cant recall much abt what else i wanted to do but end up didnt do but its so saddening isnt it. der're just so many i cant recall now :( rahhhh. hols pls come again soon~~~ (yeah next one is on xmas eve. exciting.)

***

supposedly last day of work today, but took half day off cos my flu was making me vry groggy by lunchtime. went home napped a bit, and got out again for euflomba gathering before zhiyong flies off to korea for the next sem!

**so jealous. everyone's going overseas! especially korea!!! rawrs :(**

and funny cos the only 2 phrases he knows are annyeonghaseyeo and kamsahamida lol. i hope he at least learns how to say "help!" in korean too. just in case :P hahaha. but lucky he'll have a buddy to help him. female somemore leh *eyebrow smiley* lols. ahhh overseas exchanges are so full of excitement and fun!!! grrr i wanna go exchange toooooooooooo :(((

ok. no whining. must love ur own country and be happy where u are ok xinyi. at least i have all my loved ones with me back here :)

yup anws, dinner at al-azhar and had some form of buffet over der! youwei ordered enough food to feed all 12 of us as always~ and headed down to holland v's daily scoop for ice cream after tt! :D lotsa laughters during all the eating and squeezy car-rides (i almost merged with the car door on the way home) and yay just super nice to be hanging out with this bunch of bandmates again! :):) supersad that i cant join them for kbox on monday noon cos i have lessonnnnnn. miss singing with them loh! lol. but i guess we'll be meeting on sunday again to send zy off :)

and after tt it'll really be the start of school le!!

so irritating one :(

[x] 914

2010-08-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

now that gig's over and im less stressed, i can blog properly and happily! :D

headed to sentosa ytd to watch mel's vball match~ thank god the weather was good. no rain and not too sunny too! :D had a great time watching their games even though we got thoroughly sunburned in the end lol. thank u peiwen for accompanying me!! if not i'd have died of sunburn ALL ALONEEEEEE hahahahaah ok tts so evil. i dont mean it k! :P just kidding just kidding. thank u for going with me!! :D

left halfway thru their semi-finals cos i gotta get home earlier to rest for next day's performance~ walked ard vivo a short while and randomly saw this nice dress tt seemed suitable for gig so i bought it... :((( hole in wallet again haix. i wish for all the grass downstairs to turn into dollar notes tmr.........

anyway, its finally our YOG gig today!!! :)

really happy that its over cos its an instantaneous stress-reliever :P im serious. lol. but tts not to say i didnt enjoy the whole thing! i love my One More Stop even though im almost-always bullied in one way or another (>=(), and it was nice performing on the same stage as Quis and Lemon tooo! :D guess the show today was quite alright although there wasnt much of a crowd. thanks to all those who came down to give us ur support!!! :)) think the soundmen did quite a gd job too in balancing up the sounds cos the band really sounded quite okay on recording :) great job to everyone! and to my dearest bandmates for making the great music behind me tooo :D:D

ok how wonderful i cant even send anything thru yousendit cos the files are too big. rahhh. will send again tmr. oneeee byyyy oneeeeee >=(

time to slp! goodernights!

[x] 913

2010-08-21T18:42:00.000+08:00

slkdfjs;diha;sighfls
u have no idea how freaking scared i am about tmr.

X(

[x] 912

2010-08-15T23:05:00.006+08:00

"there's one person in your life, who tells you you look beautiful even though you look awful when you cry.
There's one person in your life, who knows you inside out and loves you completely for who you are.
There's one person in your life, who will make you his world from the moment he sets his eyes on you, till the end of time.
and that one person will still be there even when you hurt him time and again."

nice quote, gina!
i hope things will go really well for u :))

***

bday celebration for woeilin / ntmb gathering !!!! :D:D

as part of the present, our US-exchange girl was sponsored for manicure and pedicure today! great that she's super happy with her glittery-hotpink nails and glittery-purple toenails now! (she verbal-spammed us with how much she loves her nails throughout the evening)

super pink loh.
trust me, its pink-ier in actual. hahahah :P
but its really quite nice too!

and i shun bian did my nails also!! wahahahaha. i better not get too addicted to this kinda luxury treatment.... but im alr thking abt my next colour le oh noooooo!! >.<

headed to holland v for crystal jade xiao long bao dinner and buffet with the rest of the clique!! XD yum yumssss damn long nv eat xlb! XD think we broke our previous record by finishing abt... 17 servings of xlb today??? hahaha not sure if tts a lot but, we really had a LOT of meat today =x carnivorous definitely. lol. but we're all full and happy!! which is da best~~~ :)))

and woei lin brought us many gifts back from her US exchange and taiwan trip! :) thank u so much monster~~~~

yays look at all the goodies hahaha. hope u like ur 22nd bday present toooo! i know u already love the colour :P

chilled out a bit at coffee bean (after being chased out from e restaurant cos its the end of their buffet session #1), caught up a bit with one another, and took some photos! really been a long time since i met up with them~~

birthday ~~girl~~ monster! :)

happy eaters~~~

haha we took a pic of the old photo on our ICs. guess some of us changed quite a bit? lol.

:D:D:D

yays meet up for kbox soon k!!! :D

[x] 911

2010-08-14T02:07:00.002+08:00

I AM GOING TO EAT THIS TOMORROW!!!!!!!

in 9 hours time. U WILL BE MINE!!!!!!!!

super hungry.

[x] 910

2010-08-13T00:15:00.001+08:00

love every word in this song :)

[x] 909

2010-08-12T01:05:00.001+08:00

[x] 908

2010-08-11T23:13:00.006+08:00

caught salt over the weekend and woots think its another nice show! have always loved angeline jolie-movies :D she's always so cool! XD hahaha. love all the fighting scenes even though its not exactly realistic that one girl can beat allll the FBI agents in a building lah lol :P nice to watch anyways!

met up with dearest peiwen and gina on mon too~ happy to be just eating promotional-price sandwiches and dessert at MOF with them and just catching up with one another again~ blissful! :D girls we gotta meet up more often yeah!! :)

kbox with my 2 girls and dear on tues toooo. been a million years since i sang at kbox! XD can the $8 promo pls dont endddddd hahaha. hope everyone had a gd time! :)

and band today was.. quite alright. mr oura didnt come :( just ran thru some random pieces, and heh think my sound today was bit weird. ohwells i hope sat will be normal again haha. and so sad tt we wont be having yiting ard for the next 3 pracs cos she'll be away in hong kongggg! :(( ting ma we'll miss youuu! buy back goodies from hk too okay!! lols :P

***

had the entire long weekend spent with my baby :)

but why do i still miss him like maddddd.
rawrs.

[x] 907

2010-08-06T12:24:00.004+08:00

i suddenly miss everyone a lot :(

my sec sch ntmb girls, my jc sistas, my ahgold from pjcsb, my psychies, my ntusb bandmates, my care corner interns, and even the noisy pri 5 kids from woodlands primary.

i would love to meet up with every single group there to just hang out, have a meal, catch up on each other's lives, or just enjoy each other's company like how we so frequently did when we were uniform-students before we moved on to the next phase in our lives.

i miss hanging out this entire bunch of people, but why do i have so many things in my life.

if there's a de-clutter button, i would select that.
but then again, i dont wanna lose the things that i currently have now too.
band life, jamming life, time spent on making money, time spent with my darling, the minimal time spent with my family, time i wanna spend letting my body rest and recharge its engine before it runs for another semester again.

concerts, gigs, performances, all the obligations that i have. committed because i love music, but sometimes its love-hate too because i also wish they'll take up lesser time but i know thats almost impossible.

squeezing out a few days in my week to work while i still can. even though the pay isnt sky-high, at least it can help top-up the pathetic amount i have in my account. i wanna not-work and just enjoy the remaining of my hols too but im desperate for money because i already have a near 40k debt waiting for me to clear when i graduate. to think im even considering taking masters/post-grad studies? think i can just throw that thought aside le. seriously. 40k is no joke... and i hate being poor and broke all the time. i can chiong for work all the way, but that will mean taking out meaningful things in life, and i dont want that to happen because life, or at least, MY life, isnt all about money. i dont wanna make it all about money and in the end succeed as a person with lotsa dollar notes but with nth else in my life. i still want gd relationships with my loved ones, i still wanna play music til i grow old and cannot play anymore, i still wanna enjoy the things around me while they're still here, and not look back and regret the fast-paced life that i lived in the sole pursuit of money and clearing debts.

but i really have a huge debt to clear, a big final year project to finish, and a few more exams to tackle. how am i gonna make enough money to clear even half the debt before the interest kicks in 1.5 years from now?

i really dont know.

can i say sth childish?

life sucks.

[x] 906

2010-08-06T11:44:00.002+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can learn to appreciate them when they are right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

- Marilyn Monroe

got this quote from bestie's blog some time back.
think its a meaningful one :)

***

not working today cos mom's leaving for thailand this evening! wanna say goodbye to her before she spends the entire weekend away from me~

its weird how i suddenly feel very worried abt her trip there. think its the terrible nightmares i've been getting consecutively for the past few nights =/ in all of those nightmares, either ppl died or i lost someone.. so maybe now im scared of losing my mom too >.< ok yah i know its stupid to project what happens in nightmares to real life but, its really quite scary after u've been waking up feeling terrified for the past few mornings..

mummy, pls stay safe in thailand ok???

[x] 905

2010-08-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

NODAME CANTABILE!!!!!!!

♥♥♥ !

hahaha. its sucha magical show~~~ i rmbr feeling that same motivation after watching the first part. and now after watching part 2, i feel inspired again! XD its sucha beautifully musical movie that makes me wanna play orchestral music again!! *zooms off to practice flute*

lols ok im kidding. cant really play flute at 12am rite :P
but im not kidding abt the inspired part! XD

wahahaha. sometimes really envious of those who are able to pursue music as a career... although im not sure if i'll be that into classical music if i were given the chance to learn since young, i think its still sucha privilege to be able to further any kinda studies in it! unlike the usual academic-ish stuff~ music's just so special :))

ok yiting! im going to go for every band prac from now on! make sure u see me until u sian ok!! hahahaah :P

***

feel accomplished too cos i went for a run ytd!!! XD

finally putting those muscles to gd use~~ haha many thanks to my dear for pulling me out to run toooo :D (i reckon he thinks its still better to prevent me from getting fat in the first place hahaha :P)

must run more must run more!

i wanna say im very determined to train up my stamina *for the benefit of my flute and singing* but im afraid i wont be tt determined in the end (again) lol. but i'll still keep my fingers crossed!!

hopefully i'll see some improvement soon. i wanna have "3 lungs" like anneson and miki!!! hahaahah :P

ok enough excitement for a day.

back to telemarketing work tmr~~~ i hope i'll be able to persuade at least one customer >.< wahaha. wish me luck!

[x] 904

2010-08-01T19:08:00.003+08:00

warning: MAJOR update (aka loooooong post) on happenings in the past half a month.

not tt my life is very interesting but yeah, just an update for the dear frens who wanna know what i've been up too while i kinda-MIAed this july :P
many many things to blog abt!!

16th Jul' 10 : end of 10-week attachment at Care Corner!

really sad that its the end of my attachment cos its been 10 amazingly TERRIFIC weeks that i had there!! yeah kinda sucks that it isnt a paid attachment and to some it may even be a stupid option to volunteer my free labour. but it has really been all worth it and it's definitely been one of the best experiences i've ever had in my life! :D nv once felt like im reporting to work even though i officially am, because everyday is just filled with fun and im greeted with lotsa laughters (and retardedness :P) from my fellow interns and staff every morning! :) many times, its the people u're working with who make the difference between "work... -_-" and "work! :D". im glad to say i've been really fortunate to be blessed with an entire team of wonderful interns and staff who've been very supportive, fun to work with and play with, and who made every weekday of my life so awesome in my days at the YC. not to mention, the experience of counseling and youth work that comes along with it which made me learn so much along the way :) its been one of the best 10 weeks of my life!! and one of the uni summer holidays i'll never ever forget :) thank u guys! u guys really rawkkk ;)

and here're some photos from those fun fun days!! XD

favourite pastime: table soccer!!!!

monster training PT day!

sports event @ RP~

interns day out! tcc @ keppel bay~

recceing for GP camp!

our usual spasticity at YC :P

and many more fun shots from last day!

with the lovely teh si peng!

our papa sam~~

joyjoy!

little miss gina~

crazy connie~

and everybardi!! :D

its uniform day!
the photographer, the geena from MGS, the reservist guy, the smarty PJC student, the tutor (i didnt have time to find my pjc uniform! >.<), and the very studious NJC girl.
wacky interns!!

homecooked farewell lunch by rachel (one of the staff)! XD

interns from YC and FSC unite!

my evil supervisor >=(

hahaha no lah. he's a great guy! :D wonderful supervisor even though he kicks us hits us bullies us and calls us names :P lol. "hey apple!"

mementos from the staff! very glitteryyyy~ :)

mementos for interns by interns! :P

and from our beloved papa! :P hahahaha

yep many many beautiful memories from the 10weeks indeed :)) gonna miss everyone!!!!

***

was sick for the week after attachment ended (phyllis says they're withdrawal symptoms haha) but thankfully recovered well enough for USS on sat!! XD

24th Jul' 10 : Universal Studios!!

many thanks to dear's company for the tickets! wouldnt've gotten the chance to go there if not for that hahaha :P (where got money to buy tt $72 ticket!!)

was good that the weather was cooperative! not sunny, no rain, just cloudy cool weather :) and it was like back-to-childhood when i stepped into the place!!! although it wasnt an overseas experience, it did feel very out-of-singapore cos of the design and all. wooots felt like a tourist mann!! hahaha :P the place itself wasnt that big of course, just a loop of abt 5 different zones? but i'd say its not bad lah. sad that the big roller coaster isnt opened yet! but then again, even if it is im also not sure if i'll have the guts to take it haha :P the indoor roller coaster at the egypt/revenge of the mummy zone was awesome though! really gets ur adrenaline up with all the darkness (and fake mummies) inside and not knowing when the car's gonna go downslope or wad. very exciting!! XD took the ride 2 more times after that with mel's intern frens just for the sake of a nicer photo hahahaha. posing for the camera while going downslope was funnn XD

not many other rides i thk.. just this smaller roller coaster outdoors, shrek 4D show, this steven spielberg special effects studio thingy, and the waterworld performance which soaked the back of my shirt even before i sat down lol. initially wanted to sit in the first row but we realised 1st 3 rows were the 'soak zone', and next 3 up were 'splash zone' =/ yeah kinda got soaked even while walking down (the performers there were really merciless with their water 'machine guns' lol) so decided to go back to dry area :P nv bring clothes to change so cant get too wet! haha. the performance was good anws! love all the explosion effects and stuff~~

and of cos, company was good :) splendid day out with melvin! XD
wahahaha ok enough of words. photos!

:)

random shots from the streets!

starting off with madagascar zone!

(yes ok im going to dye my hair soon alreadyyyy!)

on to far far away~~~

ogre house!

but not opened :((

the small outdoor roller coaster! not bad ;)

cuteee!

waterworld!

dont worry the boy seemed quite happy to be soaked hahaha

and the show begins!

one of the more boomz shots tt i managed to get! :P

:D

moving on from waterworld~

makan timeeee!

DAMN GOOD.

very nice pizza!!! XD

eat full full liao go to egypt!

the awesome indoor roller coaster!! XD XD

:D

more random shots~

i kinda like this yellow car :D

yay new car for him too!

the shop sells funny hats! hahaha

and a final shot with madagascar penguins standing in a corner of the retail shop!

haha ok shall just upload these from USS. they're nv ending :P but fun day out indeed! XD

***

27th Jul '10 : 4th month celeb!

we are 4 mths old! hahaha. was also the day we finally watched despicable me after being so hooked onto the various trailers online :P like this one! XD

lol i cant get enough of their laughters! super contagious la!! hahaha. love the minionssss XD

dinner at pasta de waraku after tt! :D

yummy food~~~

and happy us! ♥

happy 4th month dear! :D

***

29th Jul '10 : back at YC!

headed back to help out with the primary school workshop with siping! :) nice to see the kids again although they were kinda more rowdy this time round~ hope they enjoyed the dodgeball and captain's ball games! :D

table soccer-ed a bit with siping and CJ after tt, had our debrief for the workshop tt day, and gina and sam arrived at YC! :D super happy to see them again~~ but joy and connie were missing! >.< hahaha. we'll meet up again next wk! :D

and here're the photos we took after finding this pair of funny specs in the office :P

ahahaha ok its lame i know :P
was laughing so much at how superfunny gina looked when she just wore the specs tt i cldnt smile properly for the photo lols. miss the internsss!!!!

***

31st Jul '10 : Gelare fan day, inception, jamming, and bday celeb!

woots i love ice cream and i think ice cream loves me toooo! XD

slurpsss. and its $4.90 only! XD

wahahahah. im like totally fattening myself up huh... somemore i had cornetto mcflurry plus fries the previous nite!! >.< oh nooooo. okok i will run soon!!!

watched inception after tt and woohoo another nice show albeit bit complicated! hahaha. have yet to catch sorcerer's apprentice and airbender and salt... hehhh i sense many dollar notes flying away =x

jamming after tt and then meeting up to celebrate kevin's birthday! supposedly to ktv after dinner but had some change of plans so in e end went back earlier with peiwen instead~ shall ktv another time! :))

***

anddddddd yes. TODAY. finally! :D

rainy weather and very perfect day to stay at home and just slp the hours away~~ but no haha :P met up with sai sai to get her contact lenses done at queensway and subsequently gina joined us for lunch too! suuuuuuper long nv see gina already >.< hope things will be ok for u my dear! we're meeting up again real soon~ hope things will be much happier for u then! :):)

had the impulse to do manicure just now but apparently the prices are more exp for weekends so... -.- maybe i'll manicure tmr instead if i still have the mood haha :P really lotsa nwahing these 2 weeks!! nwah until i feel kinda useless already... =x ok ppl i will use the time to sing more and flute more and jiayou on my fyp cos i hadnt been touching tt since the last meetup with prof.... ahhh actually i have many many things to do!! >.<

but yay at least im done with updates:D

this is tiring mann lol. ok i kinda deserve it for not updating for so long :P promise i wont neglect my blog for too long next time! wahaha. need to nap now!

[x] 903

2010-07-24T00:05:00.002+08:00

~~hates~~
dislikes.

- the cold weather i wake up to every morning.
- being unwell for almost 5 days -.-
- feeling everything's so screwed up.
- feeling detached from the world :((

dislike.

but luckily, things dont feel so screwed up anymore. at least for now.
pls, shun shun li li all the way can?
:P

anyhoos, many many apologies to weijie for delaying our meet-up and eclipse for soooo long :( i still owe u the starbucks treat!! thank u for being a flexible fren and being ok with watching the movie at home instead :))

apologies to dear for my moodiness these few days toooo :(( been a little rocky but i hope things will be better after a (hopefully) exciting day out at universal studios tmr!!!!! XD yes im DAMN excited!!!! lols. yay yayy!! and many thanks to him for dropping by to get me dinner today even though its been a tiring post-recovery week for him too. u're very much treasuredddddd :))

hahaha. and now that attachment is over (will blog this tmr or sth), i have more time to catch up with the other impt ppl in my world! :) hope i wont be so detached from everyone anymore~~~ :D

yeah xinyi is BIA!!! (back in action)

[x] 902

2010-07-22T11:13:00.004+08:00

gloomy morning.
feeling worse than ever with my flu and fever back.
i wanna get better..
or maybe i dont.

it hadnt been the happiest of weeks.

for my bestie,

keep holding on,
cause u know u'll make it through, u'll make it through.
just stay strong,
cause u know im here for u, im here for u.

see you later babe. just hang on a bit more til evening arrives ok? :] *big huggsss*

[x] 901

2010-07-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

yeah i do have loads to update on.
but i guess its mainly work.
anyhoos, will do that when im all well again :]

til then, take care everyone. flu bug flying around~

[x] 900

2010-07-05T22:23:00.003+08:00

yet another awesome sunday spent with my darling :):):)

jamming was cancelled so i thought it'll be ok to ask mel to chloe's bday celebration, cos we'll be able to hang out after tt without me having to rush off for jamming :) chloe's as cute as ever, and the food was quite ok. sad tt lots of the closer relatives couldnt come, so its just the few of us der. ohwells. the company i had was good enough :))

headed back to mel's place for a short rest, and coincidentally, his parents and grandparents came back shortly after us, so yep. meet-the-grandparents. hahahah but they're really nice (and cute) grandparents, i'd say :) took a short nap, and then dinner with his family. quality family time, and good food! :)

his dad sent us back home, and very coincidentally again, met my mom at my carpark and since she was meeting my godparents, we allll went to meet them at the coffeeshop. so it was meet-the-godparents for mel haha. so many meet-s today. kinda "scary" lol. but anyhoo, tts not the pt of me wanting to blog today..

:)
im really thankful for allll the caring ppl i have around me!

feel really blessed that i have sucha superb bf who rushed down to join us for lunch even though it meant meeting lots of my relatives (aka foreign ppl) and possibly feeling weird. thank u mel, for everythinggggg :)

feel blessed that his family treats me like one of their own, and for taking good care of me when im around them :) maybe they didnt do much literally, but i can still feel those kind of parental love from them somehow, and it means quite a lot to me too :) feel blessed that his father is so nice too, sending me all the back home from yishun to clementi everytime i have dinner with them. and i feel even more blessed when his grandparents are also so friendly to me! they're just the cutest grandparents i ever met, really. his grandmother is like, so cool. can speak english chinese hokkien and its like, i can mix eng and chi when i talk to her and she understands me perfectly and even talks to me in the same manner. how often do u get to converse so easily with a 80-yr-old grandma nowadays?? haha. and his grandpa is just, aiyah damn cute lah XD hahaha. really happy to know them today, and i feel even more loved and accepted when his grandma told me to go over to their place when i have the time :) (i definitely will!) its probably nth much again but, i feel some kinda love tooo :)) *okayy awwws lol*

blessed to have a loving godfamily too, and a godbrother who remembers his promise of buying chocs for me haha. that one casual sentence had been so long ago tt i myself wldnt have recalled it, yet he rmbrs. and even bought me 3 bars of chocs plus 2 boxes of dou sar bing when he got his first pay! haha sucha sweet godbrother i have~ :) shall treat my entire godfamily to a gooooood meal when i get my first proper pay too!!

haha yup so its been a really blissful day spent with many families :P
and of cos, with dearest bf alongside me through the whole day totally rocks too :))
the day ended pretty late with my mom and godparents chit-chatting over supper til 11pm, but i'd say it ended off the weekend pretty well. gooots! :D

***

sports carnival at republic poly today was quite a success too! efforts spent last friday doing up all the logistics stuff were worthwhile when u see the kids enjoying themselves at the station :) it got really tiring after a while though, but we still managed to stay crazy even after the event ended haha :P had a drink at starbucks, and the most sleepy of the lot (including urs truly) headed home first. yay half day on youth day this year. happy!! XD

okay i suddenly dont feel like blogging anymore hahaha. til then!

[x] 899

2010-06-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

feel so loved having you send me all the way from home to work, and holding the umbrella for me as we walked from the train station :)

they're just small, simple acts, but they make me feel loved all the same :) thank u mel~~~

and i found out sth new abt him ytd too.
he really can transform into a 5-year-old when he's dead bored!!!! hahahaha.
poor pink bunny and woodstock. :P

but ytd was really retardedly funny lahhh lols. i love my mel XD

but its a busy week this week so i guess i wont be able to see him for some time... :( missing session is gonna commence very soon dear~

***

am so happy for siping tt her shaun's coming back to sg in 2 days' time! i cant imagine not seeing mel for an entire monthhhhh >.< thats pure torture can. hahaha. yay siping's gonna be all smiles~! XD

have been feeling really tired recently too and i dont know why =/ am i really getting old? metabolism drop like mad? accumulation of tiredness then become fatigue? im anaemic? not enough sleep? not enough food? not enough water??

heh.
sore throat's starting. it better be gone when i wake up tmr...
and my eye was soo itchy today i really thought its gonna fall out >.< thk its my contact lens...

okay im starting to get very random. prep up for tmr's presentation and off to bed i go!

[x] 898

2010-06-27T23:49:00.008+08:00

:)))
i love my boy.

♥
happy 3rd month my dear!!
keep the sweet moments coming.
i promise i'll never get enough of them :))

***

3 things made today a happy day!

#1 - meet up with my long-lost weijie!!!

its been a godzillion years since we met and its so nice to see her at ah hock for traditional bread-and-egg breakfast again :) glad to hear things're going well for u at work dearest girl! im sure u'd've improved a lot more the next time i see u~~ :) jiayou in every aspect of ur life k?? u're doing great :) and u know u have my support always! :D

#2 - nwahism with melll! XD

we love nwahing.
sundays are meant to be for nwahing, so pls dont scold me for procrastinating on planning my sem timetable and fyp research :P

(at time of blogging, both are already done so, yayy! XD)

dear reached my place ard 3+, slacked ard while i finished mopping the floor (i got do housework one okayy! *gives zhuai face*), nwahed a bit on the sofa with the fan blowing straight at us veeeerry comfortably, and finally got our butts off the couch and headed to west coast park! for more nwahness :P heeeee i really love the park on sundays!! so many families, so many kids, and lotsa kites decorating the beautiful sky!! :D if u see it from another angle, its like an alien invasion of kites. they're just swarming up the wholeeee sky and can drop down any moment!!

hahaha okay me and my retarded imagination :P
anyhoos, a happy 2hrs spent at park! think i gained some weight from the mcflurry+fries combo and extended hrs of sitting down and not burning anything..

headed to west coast plaza to meet my mom for dinner and very coincidentally met the rest of his family at the same restaurant too! hahaha. small world~~ but yep this kinda made it the 3rd happy thing today! :D seeing our parents smile at each other~~ haha ok it sounds kinda silly but, its gd to know tt they're not like, not seeing eye to eye on first impression eh?? :P

ok its time for me to slp. new week tmr!! hope it'll be gd! XD

[x] 897

2010-06-27T14:00:00.002+08:00

***

threw a tantrum yesterday.
i deserve to be spanked. for being so childish.

or for letting pms get to me. pffffft.

[x] 896

2010-06-22T20:36:00.007+08:00

finally made a trip down to ICA last weekend to renew my passport but will hafta go down again to collect it... ma fannnnn -.- pffft.

roamed around city square mall (farrer park one not johor bahru lol) to see see look look and then headed to changi airport cos dear and i had nth to do and gotta kill time until 8pm in the evening :P popeye's at airport was good! absolutely love the scone and mashed potato and cajun fries and fried chicken~~~~ pls pls open one branch at clementi soon!!!! XD i promise (to a certain extent) tt i'll be a regular customer of urs!!!

and met up with psychies in the evening!! XD yays super long nv meet up with jingxiu and elsa and i miss them lots!!!! sorry siping i see u everyday so im unable to miss u tt muchhhhh hahahahahahah ok im so irritating :P dont worry siping i still love u!! lols. ok i thk i a bit siao already.

photos!!

nando's chicken!!
at parco bugis junction opposite ajisen ramen :)
pretty menus they have there~ :D

:)))

this starter is super super nice!!!
SLURPPPPPPSSSS.

and i love the extra hot peri peri sauce!! flamingly good! XD

(special guest! :P)

:D:D:D

had a great "chicky" meal at nando's chicken and updated each other on our respective internships! so nice to hear abt all the different clients we're now interacting with and all the interesting stories that happened at work~~ i wonder how the others are doing! ppl like karen, daren, michelle... i miss all of them tooo! >.<

dear had his velocity challenge on sunday but i wasnt able to go down to support him cos i had fyp meeting :( glad to hear he completed the whole course successfully! if its me i think i would've given up 1/4 way or sth :P anyhoooo, finally had out first fyp mtg in the hols! wonder when we'll be able to meet joyce~~~ but anw, glad tt we accomplished a little sth before we dismissed ourselves :P walked ard raffles city with jx for a while before heading back home! wahahahah vry long nv evening time go home alr... many many gatherings recently! >.<

had this yummylicious dinner at this coffeeshop near my hse that evening! my mother introduced me to good food once again! lols. weird tt i've been staying in this area for so long and i nv knew there's sucha nice western stall!! will definitely go back~

and thank god i had a full happy meal the evening before cos monday was 魔鬼训练 at YC!!!! X( had to try out all the monster trainings for ourselves before we can even ask the youths to do it so we gotta go through it too.... heh. and here we are!! surviveddd!!!!

still alive (but not really kicking) after 3minutes of bridge, 3mins of leg raises, 4 laps of duck walk along basketball court, 200 jumping jacks, 100 pushups....

-_______________________________-

definitely a record-workout in the history book of xinyi.

after-training bonus: ice sticks treat! :D

yay we are happy again! hahahaha.

really killer but, accomplishment indeed :)
great job interns!! WE ARE SO DAMN STRONG.
lols.

had a gd dinner at dear's place after that! :D so nice to be eating yummy homecooked food and watching soccer with his whole family~ very family indeed :) but feel so bad for delaying their dinner til 730pm cos i ended so late! >.< slacked around until 9+ before it was time for home-sweet-home and fyp research and rest....

and woke up with a huuuuuuuuge body ache today =/
well of cos. look at when's the last time i even had a jog......
*gulps*

still wishing for the muscle ache in my thighs to miraculously subside before tmr! really super hard to walkkk. not to mention climbing stairs or even sitting down zomg x_x

but muscle aches aside....

I FINALLY GOT MY NEW PHONE!!!!

LG MINI ISH MINEEEE!!!

yeah kinda sudden rite?? i think so too. but i dont care also hahahaah :P *gives big bear hug to new phone*

yayyy!! :D

its currently happily charging on my bed and im also happily wishing this LG phone wont give me so many problems like what legends say~~~~ lol.
but frankly speaking, the design is really so sleek and pretty!!!
love it a lot :D
time to shop for new pouch (its abt time too) and screen protector!! XD

*ends entry excitedly*

[x] 895

2010-06-18T22:35:00.011+08:00

another week passed!
time really flies nowadays. lotsa happenings these 5 days!

on work:

absence of devotion session on mon and tues makes me appreciate that 30mins everyday much more, and yes i miss it a lot. its really like the only time i get to rest my mind, to clear it of all troubles for a while, and an opportunity for me to pray for the ones i love, for the things i wish to occur smoothly for that day or week. its a rather spiritual time that i as a free thinker dont usually get, and i appreciate having this practice as part of my workplace culture :)

event of the week: YC IDOL!!!

had lotsa fun organising things with the interns (although i didnt really do much also =x) and i enjoyed the performances put up by the youths, and how the event encouraged the rest of the youths further. its a feeling that hard to describe here, but in a nutshell, i think the event went well and yep, cheers to our last-min-planning skills too! hahaha :P

and our highlight of the week......

MIKA CONCERT!!!!!

many many thanks to the organisation for the free tickets to the concert~~ although it was by this singer whom i initially have nv heard of, i got addicted to a few of his songs the day before the show (didnt wanna go to the concert without knowing NONE of his songs!) and now im addicted to many more of his songs because the concert was just A-W-E-S-O-M-E-N-E-S-S!!!!! love his catchy tunes and amaaaaaazing vocals and backdrops and uber-cool band members (drummer had afro hair!!) and basically just everything from the start til the end of the concert! :D

will share his songs next time. photos first!!

confetti!!!

artistic backdrop!
and interesting kilt haha :D

check out the afro drummer! XD
\m/

<3 !

the very nice flower backdrop in 2nd half!!!!!
really super a lot of flowers loh. see until i 眼"花"缭乱~~~~~~

hahahaha ok lame sorry :P

spot mika!
(p/s even the piano was flower-ed!!! so pretty!! XD)

junkapella!

finale~ :)
*cheers for the awesome concert!!! woohoooo!!!!!*

yup and that were some of the bits and pieces taken from mika's concert on monday :D
tired out from the whole day out but work continues as usual for the week~
and today was really fun :P

slackish with no one in the office again but us interns, and headed out for lunch at cwp jack's place! and somehow on the car journey there we started addressing sam as our "papa" and irritated him all the way there haahaha :P four psychos in the car and one poor social worker. how sad is tt!! lol. poor papa. so kind of him to play along and said we're actually his illegitimate children with different mums and we all have no birth certificates because he had no time to register us HAHAHA. seriously damn funny and im so gonna have abs at the end of intern!! lols.

and so we had our "fathers' day" celebration at jack's place just now and continued irritating sam all the way back to YC after tt. car journey to raffles city after work (ended work early today cos its volunteer appreciation day! XD) was also abs training but not as intense because we're tired out from laughing the entire day :P

haha i guess its been a tiring yet fun week for me! once again, i love my fellow interns :D

on life:

health hasnt been all that great, and on thurs i was finally tired enough and flu-ish enough to take half-day leave from work. it felt superb to take an afternoon nap XD and especially when u know everyone else is still workinggggg hahaahahahah ok i'll stop being evil. really dropped dead on the bed when i reached home and was in deep slp all the way until my phone rang at 5+, calling me up for dinner, which was with dear and parents :)

and tt kinda marked the 4th day i met him this week. woots meeting everyday! hahaha. compensation for last wk's shortage of meeting him i guess :P but still, time doesnt ever seem to be enough for both of us. somehow, i still crave his company a lot and feel like i can never get enough of this special person. ahhh honeymoon period really rocks hahaahha :P

and today on the way home from raffles place, siping was telling me abt how i frequently use the phrase "i have no time". hmm guess its kinda true huh? although i'll still say its becos i really have things on etc but.. or maybe its just a bad habit of mine to pack my schedule like sardines~~

ok i actually have the intention of blogging a lot more for this part but i suddenly feel super duper tired. shall update again soon. gdnights all!

[x] 894

2010-06-12T00:57:00.003+08:00

yay feeling very happy!!! :D:D

maybe cos of slackish today, maybe cos of taking many happy photos, maybe cos of meeting up with happy friends (not happy tree friends) and maybe cos i just love fridays :D

or maybe its cos of the coffeee and tea (major infusion of caffeine) today =x

today was really slackish. my client didnt turn up for the session (sobsss) so my morning was free and my anxiety was for nth again.. maybe if i stop myself from feeling anxious, the clients will turn up :D

haha alrights lame stuff.

lunch at cwp breeks (yay student price!!) and once again, another hilarious 1+hr for us~~ office just us and winston today so it was super slackish hahah. waited for sp and gina to finish their counseling at 4pm, AND WE'RE DISMISSED FROM WORK!!

went for coffee at railmall after tt, chit chat a bit abt session 2... and off we go.

05s06 gathering!! not many turned up but it was quite an ok gathering bah. didnt go for aemi gathering cos just nice clash :(

took many photos tooo! hope they're nice :))

and saw the UBF photos!! yayyyyy nice nice. :D:D:D shall upload when allll photos are in! XD

ok shit im really feeling damn high. seriously think its the caffeine. AHHH IM CAFFEINE SENSITIVE TOOO?!?!?!!?

***

ok i decided to upload some photos that i've already gotten to "spice up" my blog cos recently v little photos
and also since im so super UNsleepy now -.-

flautists of Band Brio!!

not in this photo but i think its really nice! XD
(yah its becos im not in the photo tts why vry nice right. tsk. i knew u'll say tt >=( haha)

flutes at backstage! :D

and photos taken before the concert!!

practising in the dressing room before rehearsal. hardworking hor??

we love the lightbulb-mirrors! so broadway~~
but they're damn hot. melted someone's instrument case =/
ok lets not mention sad stuff so much.
yay lighting so nice!!!

erm ok retarded shot taken at underpass to esplanade hahaha. 天天向上 indeed~~~

many more such photos comin' up. stay tuned!!
hahahaha. ok im still high. HOWW I NEED TO SLP SOON!!! X(

[x] 893

2010-06-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

first counseling session ytd! nervous and kinda jumbled up my own thoughts when it started, so the conv was kinda "messed up"? but things went smoothly in e end and it was nice to hear she thought counseling was fun today :) will improve for nxt session!

band last nite was =/ frustrated at the sound and at how some ppl can really just turn up for the last prac and expect to be applauded for during the concert next day. how ppl can totally ignore tuning problems. the headache that i got. the bad breath i had to tahan..... *i swear its super gross and im REALLY glad its all over now =/*
very tired too. briefing after tt and ended around 1130. holy cowwwww.
got home and slept like a pig.

concert today. rehearsal time saw many new faces. amazing how they even had the face to turn up. i mean, why join UBF when u KNOW u wouldnt be able to make it to most pracs and u'll only be coming back from overseas on concert day itself and will be sight-reading the pieces? if really can play professionally then ok loh, but apparently tts not the case cos it turns out u're just messing up the sound even more.
thumbs up for mr oura's comment. "disgusting right??"
haix. percussion. clarinets. horns.

not i want to say but, the problem ppl seemed to be all from "this certain sch near my house". they really think they're high up there and no nid prac etc huh? and still can laugh when they cant play a single note out when prof ho asked their section to play.
sigh.
this event was supposed to bond the 3 bands tgt. i think it more like separated us even more. seriously, it was b-a-d.

anyhoo, had lotsa fun during all the waiting time in the dressing room! learned a new hairstyle from cindy and valerie (she's gonna lend me a book on tt!! so excited and cant wait to read it!!) and "mass makeup" session before concert starts was fun too. girl-time rocks :D many photos taken today, and lotsa fun and some retarded shots taken with ntu fluties. cant wait to get e photos! heee. ntu bandies really make my day~~~~ and it takes the torture from all that noise away :P

concert finally over! really happy :)

came home and mom told me she saw ntu's president when she left the concert hall, and he actually spoke to her. hoho. i study ntu 3 years i dont even know who's the ntu president and there my mom is, TALKING to him. amazing. hahaha :P

ok im dead tired. work tmr.
heard from sp that one of my counsellees turned up for counseling today =/ did i send her a wrong sms? oh mann.
counseling tmr too. haven prepared anything. i feel so dead.
wonder how were things at work today! wonder how was captain's ball. heard sam sprained his ankle! hope he's ok =/
YC "photoshoot" tmr. wonder what spastic things we're gonna do! lol :P

ok sleep. really sibei tired.

[x] 892

2010-06-08T23:02:00.007+08:00

i seriously have no idea why i feel so tired today -.-

the only taxing thing i did today was probably erm, table soccer??? haha. proper warm up is important. once u are, attack!!! goaaaaaal!!!!!! *cheers and hi-5s with partner*

lol. did i mention we're a crazy bunch there at YC?
:)

and this crazy bunch was reading my blog in front of me this morning lahh haha. a bit of a weird feeling but, hi? :D *waves feebly* welcome to my full-of-rubbish blog! lols.

anw, had a very ~romantic movie date with gina~ (hahaha) at cwp after work! watched killers and i think the number of "omg"s we said during the movie can be considered uncountable~ :P its like so awful to have to be wary of EVERYONE around u cos anyone can be a killer! quite a not-bad movie i think. and katherine heigl's still ever-good-looking :)) ashton kutcher's quite charming in the show too! XD

and we bade each other goodbye with a "cya in a few hours' time~" lol.
another long day tmr! must rest early!
but i still wanna blog >.<

***

dad told me to consider LG GC900 Viewty Smart Phone!

the specs are not baddddd but, the phone doesnt seem very "me" lol. i dunoooo! heard quite a few bad reviews abt LG so i wldnt say im thAt keen on getting a LG phone... but apparently its within budget so BY RIGHT i should consider... hmms.

but then i heard abt Samsung Galaxy S!

looks not bad (sorry but phone design is really quite impt to me :P) and specs quite ok too. shld i shld i??? have yet to check the price though. rawrrrr. i wish starhub is just downstairs >=(

i have until the end of the month before the voucher expires. think, xinyi, think!!

***

ok im tired and i shld rest for a long day tmr. i will slp by 11.30pm!!!

(oh no its 11.31pm already.)
byes!!!

***

i changed my mind.

I WANT IPHONE 4!!!!!!!!

this is a crazy, sudden, intense feeling for a phone that i have yet to see and touch but just want so badly. tsk. weak spot for sleek designs and gorgeous looking phones. plus the features are great!! (so is the price lah but, can i dont care abt tt now??)

*adds stars and sparkles and glitters around picture*

im gonna dream of u tonight :D

[x] 891

2010-06-06T23:12:00.001+08:00

just heard from pw that the shirt devin got for me is with her.
really thoughtful of him to get shirts for everyone :)

i wish im as nice as other people.

[x] 891

2010-06-06T22:34:00.004+08:00

<3

had a well-rested saturday spent fully at home, and a lovely sunday spent with love.
prince of persia's niceeeee :) the female lead's just gorgeous to look at and i love how the film ended too :)

it is said, that some people's lives are linked across time, by an ancient calling.

suddenly feeling very sleepy. shall blog in point form and head to bed.

- durian pancake at AMK hub was good. can be improved though, but it did satisfy my durian cravings so, im happy :)
- homecooked dinner at dear's place~ happily-full and finished off with 4 slices of watermelon hohoho. break record.
- im really damn full.
- it is so damn ma fan to apply for passport online. the requirements for the photo is just.... >=( later do so much liao they still reject how?? rahh. shld've done at ICA tt dayyyyy.
- can i ignore the passport issue and just slp???

rawrrr. sleepy xinyi = angry xinyi.

first counseling session tmr. ahhhh so scary! >.<
i hope we'll get through it well~ *prays*

nights all. nid to slp.

***

[x] 890

2010-06-05T15:50:00.002+08:00

hadnt dreamed for a very, very long time, and i finally had one last nite.
dont remember the contents of it much but, there was u :)

still missing him a lot. rawrr!
>.<

enjoy ur day at sentosa dear!
heartts.

[x] 889

2010-06-04T23:27:00.007+08:00

love the music through the earphones :)
(laptop speakers really suck)
super-love the basslines!! XD

Do As Infinity - Desire

Tokyo Jihen - 能動的三分間 (Noudouteki Sanpunkan)

***

its been a lazy day at work today, with the morning zooming past, us laughing our abs out once again during lunch and post-lunch nwah-mode which extended all the way til 5pm. but one thing that i rmbred from today is what was shared with us during devotion today, about putting margins into our lives.

rmbr how we used to draw margins at the side of the page for workings etc when we're in primary school?
this line formed the boundary for our work back then.
similarly in life, we can draw a margin and set aside spare space and time.
this buffer is the one that gives us time to think, relax and enjoy life, and can even be a "free slot" for last minute appts, like listening to a friend in need. it can strengthen relationships, because relationships take time. when we're always hurrying and worrying, when we're overloaded with activity, we can only think of ourselves. we're in survival mode, just trying to make it through another day. the margin provides the time to sit and talk with our loved ones, to listen and enjoy one another, and to provide the comfort we each need.

honestly, that is something i think i need.

"when you're overloaded with activity, you can only think of yourself.
you're in survival mode, just trying to make it through another day."

this sentence struck me hard because it applies in my case so well, that many times im already thankful that i have enough time to complete all my work and to-do stuffs and catch a pathetic 5-6hrs of slp, that i dont have much time and energy left for the ppl around me. is this common? hahaha but anyways, its time to do sth abt it and not wait for terrible consequences to occur before i notice my negligence towards the impt ppl ard me.. i hope i'll really be able to give more time to the ppl ard me from now on! *crosses fingers* :)

***

i see a blue moon tonight! :D

dad actually asked me if i wanna change my handphone!!!

usually i have to plead and beg and go on my knees and strike some form of bargain with him before i get to change :(
ok im exaggerating lah, but u get the drift.

and YAY i got my eyes on this!!!

HTC HD Mini~~~ :))

should i really get???

with the voucher that dad has, it should be much more within budget... and after the short chat with jane, im more motivated to get it!!

C a r n a g e says:
HTC MINI.
`xinyii says:
hahaha
ur fren has it??
gd???
C a r n a g e says:
lim peh has it ---> LOL THIS IS SO JANE
not bad.
`xinyii says:
REALLYYYYYYY
how much u buy??
C a r n a g e says:
23
AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHA

23!!!!! can i buy at 23 too??? hahahahaha. i can wish and wish and wish and it wont happen~~ if 100+ i'll be very happy le! :P

still considering! or any other phones i shld consider???

***

hadnt met melvin for damn long le :(( MISSES!!!!!

and i miss my one more stop too :( sucks that our schedules ALL clash... can only meet on jam date i guesssssss *sobs* booo. unless we're all turning up for streetfest tgt! :D

i miss euflomba full-strength too. TOTALLY horrible tt we're not even meeting for dinner before band pracs cos so many of us are working and cant rush down in time :(((

and i miss hanging out with my ntmb gang and jj gang and aemi and istas tooooo! rawrrrrrrr. look at what i've missed out in this entire mth >.<

gonna catch up with everyone soon!! cant take it anymore!!!
lol.
nights all :)

[x] 888

2010-06-03T23:33:00.004+08:00

random: woahhhh this is post #888!! huat ar!!!

(back to normal)

rach saluted us early in the morning for conducting a baking workshop the day immediately after camp ended. well, it wasnt like we had all the options in the world lah (:P) but yeah, i guess it really needed a lot of our energy to do this after a tiring 24hrs the day before. kudos to the whole team for making the workshop a success!! :D

was initially feeling a lil messed up cos john wasnt here to help with the demo-ing part and i was kinda "left alone" as in-charge =x frankly speaking, i was really scared tt the whole workshop will screw up and all the cupcakes will be chao ta-ed and ppl will be bored and maybe there'll be no more tmr for me! >.< thank god i have dear siping, joy, gina, connie and sam to help me out with each table and with the logistics and organising etc. wouldnt have been able to survive the 3hrs without u guys!! thank u so much~~~ :)

really glad that things went rather smoothly after we started, and seeing the youths enjoy the whole process of making a batch of cupcakes tgt and learning sth new today and telling me they had fun was really heartwarming! :D having the whole grp sing along to the songs that some others were playing on the guitar was like so nice too! totally love the camaraderie and the entire 3hrs spent baking with this whole bunch of ppl :) they made baking so much more fun! wahahaha. now i cant wait to bake again!! :D

(woohooo so cute hor! XD but this one obvly from net de lah :P)

yayy tired today but ended on a happy note :)

met peiwen after work for dinner too! ONE THOUSAND YEARS NV SEE THIS GIRL ALREADY!!! im losing touch with all my frens :(:( feel so saddd. haha hopefully der'll be enough time for meetups soon! suddenly in the mood to organise outings with all the ppl i know but my own schedule is like... =/ sigh. i'll try my best!

maybe i shld start with the ones nearest to me.
WEIJIE!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!! starbucks just called to tell me they miss our presence there leh~~~~ hahahahaha :P meet up with me soon k girl!! i place my order first. i wan java chip!! XD

[x] 887

2010-06-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

its been awhile!

last weekend had been pleasant! and yes, it was that one special person who made it great :)

was actually a little sad tt it'll be a home-alone weekend for me cos my parents both went to malaysia on sat morning, leaving me in the empty hse for 3 whole days :( yes im more or less independent and can survive the 3 days well on my own but, its just different when u compare busy/doing own things/neglect family mbrs to zero presence of family in the hse. somehow, i still need that human factor within the 4-walls i call home. so being left alone can feel really sucky :(

and its been 2mths since i last touched my flute and as expectd, my tone sucks. desperately wanting to get back the original tone quality isnt easy cos of work in the day and the inconvenience to others when u practice at night. time is so limited :( first practice with my flute on sat and even i myself cldnt stand how i sounded. hurrrr i seriously wish for a miracle on next thurs! >.<

so yeah, mood wasnt all tt great, but thank god i had gd company over the weekends! :D thank u dear~~ original jogging plan got scraped off cos nwah-ing seemed like a much better alternative just before supposed-evening jog :P cooked dinner ourselves too! (dont worry my kitchen is still intact) lotsa quality time spent with my love makes the weekend seem extra pleasant~ :)

back to work on monday, and had camp ytd til this morning. seriously shagged out but i think the efforts are worth it, and the experience was good.

the group that we're in charge of was the "quietest" group, so initially there was some difficulty in warming them up to each other and getting them to open up more to each other. from all the checkpoints that we went through from admiralty to sembawang, we could see the group becoming closer and more chatty, and also got to know our counsellees better as we spoke to them. i guess the turning point for our grp was at the most challenging checkpoint, which was actually a low-element obstacle consisting of a row of tyres hung on ropes and the grp's supposed to get from one end of the row to the other. being pushed out of the comfort zones for some of them and challenging them to take the first step in trying something they've nv tried before made the whole team work tgt to help each other complete the station. encouraging each other, helping each other to hold the tyre firmly so the other person can step on it more steadily, supporting each other so they wouldnt fall, and even plucking up the courage to get up on the first tyre for one of the girls who was so afraid initially. the observing process was interesting, because one can see so much more beyond the actions the youths were doing :)

and yes, the grp became closer after that. challenges rock. hahaha :P and thanks to someone, me and sp had to complete the station after they did lol. and im surprised it seemed so easy this time round compared to when we tried it during recce-ing! i thk i wldnt mind trying it again because now i see the fun after overcoming the challenge. but no tt doesnt mean u shld purposely invite me to do tt again lols. still recovering from muscle aches.....

anyhoo, the other game that made their individual characters stand out more was the candle war that we played. the competitive game between the 3 groups brought out the characters of individuals not just in our grp, but also others. from the game, we saw who were the ones who were more easily aggressed, taking the game more seriously than others, bearing more grudges, even harping on the game even 1hr after it was over. but that wasnt our grp :P maybe im biased to some extent but, i saw so many gd points about the youths in my grp through this very simple game of candles and raffia strings. the small boy who didnt seem to be able to articulate his feelings as well as others and who always kept quiet, was the one who fought til the end and didnt complain even though others had played the game unfairly against him. the "leader" who knew many things were unfair against the team, and the girls who even had their hair pulled during the game, also were willing to let the issue go, because they all recognised that at it was just a game. "ok so u won. wow u're great at guarding ur raffia string mannn." lols. in my opinion, being able to let go of all the unfairness and not taking the game too seriously is a sign of maturity at that young age. and im really proud of my team for their team spirit during the game, their encouragement to each other, and for how they chose to see things in such a positive manner post-game. they're a quiet, slow-to-warm-up bunch of teens, but are strong inside. feel really lucky to be part of this group! :D

well thats abt all tt i wanna say abt the camp i guess. truly a nice experience with the youths and it further opened up my world too :)

ok i suddenly feel super sleepy. shall continue another time. time to slp and prep for work again tmr!

[x] 886

2010-05-28T10:27:00.001+08:00

crap. its like damn hard to recall what happened two days ago can.

wednesday:

two other interns from the other centre joined us at YC today! :D heee so nice to have more ppl going crazy with us :P had a briefing for the GP camp in the morning and that was like an entire 1hr+ of mind-grilling planning out the stuff and laughing our abs out cos, they're all just crazy!! hahahah. love interning with this bunch :) we have crazy nus interns, crazy ntu interns, and even crazy staff lol. makes the tiring planning process much more fun and enjoyable! and keeps ur abs firm too :P

played a few rounds of table soccer and air hockey with the youths when the centre opened and it was hilarious!! i swear its super funny to see the guys playing SO GENTLY when they're against the girls compared to when its all guys. its so gentle i cant take it. "eh 温柔一点" was wad one of the guys said to his friend when playing table soccer against this other girl and i and the game was sooo peaceful its just, un-tablesoccer-ish hahaha. same goes for air hockey. turns out we girls're more "violent" than them cos they were just hitting so softly and we just kept laughing cos we're so not used to that after watching them playing literally AIR hockey (where the puck flies outta the table half of the time) when its all guys lol. but gd tt they know how to adjust their strength accordingly lah huh :P if not, even standing at the side and watching them play can be "life threatening"....

and im so happy i learned how to play new songs on the guitar!! :D just anyhow-strumming but its so fun when everyone just sing-and-play tgt :D yay i love my internship!! hahahaha XD

thursday:

reported in comfy tees and shorts and off we go recce-ing for the camp! :D trying out routes from admiralty to sembawang under the blazing hot sun is no joke mannn. we're all sunburned at the end of the day! t-shirt and shorts tannlines are horribleeeeee >.< but we had lotsa fun! it was like a mini OBS camp.. trying out different stations, walking a lot a lot, resting at kopitiams for short breaks, trying out low-element obstacles that trained our arm muscles ttm, doing lotsa jump shots, laughing ard as usual, taking lol photos at the beach.... hahahaa fun fun! XD really hope it'll all be gd during the camp itself :))

back to YC after tt and celebrated bdays for the jan-may babies! think its quite a gd idea cos some of them had nv celebrated their birthdays before. hope they all liked it! :D

some phone-calling in the office after that which confirmed that this group of us is completely not cut out for office work lols. all super flustered and like "omg what do i say??" whenever the phone rings and "eh who i call ar??" when our list of contacts were kinda messed up lol. but still, had lotsa fun laughing ard the whole day!! love my fellow interns and staff~~~ :D :D

and i cant believe 3rd week just passed!! SO FAST!!! only 7 weeks lefttttt :(

alright so tts just a brief update on the past 2 days before they're erased from my very short-term memory. and happy vesak day everyone!! :D long weekend's finally here~ gonna meet up with my cousin and niece and nephew at the temple later! cant wait to see the two 小瓜s~~~ XD and i cant wait to see my darling later toooo!! XD XD

[x] 885

2010-05-24T23:41:00.004+08:00

its been an interesting morning for some of us interns today. for the free-thinkers (like yours truly), prophecying is probably sth we'll seldom come across.

im really glad that for our attachment, we get exposure to different people, and now, even different "realms of spirituality".

my first experience with prophecying was... emotional. not that i wanted it to be but, knowing that there is someone who knows what u're feeling deep inside beneath all ur smiles and laughters, really meant a lot to me at this point in time. he made verbalizing those feelings seem so easy (although i'd prefer not having them verbalized in a room full of ppl haha :P but its ok). and its even more amazing when u've nv met that person before, and would probably nv meet him again.

thank u for praying for me and for blessing me, Rusty and Mildred :) may god bless u too!

and just in case u're wondering,
no i didnt cry in front of everybody.
nothing bad happened, and i am not traumatized or tragically upset.

in fact, im really fine now.

its just that sometimes, emotions can become overwhelming and feelings can get so complex that u can almost describe them as u dont know what u're feeling. its kind of like 'sad', but its not. its kind of like 'confused', but its not exactly that either. u know what i mean? things happen to us everyday, and especially in this line, many things can make us reflect a lot or even trigger emotional reactions when u link them back to ur own life. and u have other things happening outside of work, and it adds on to the pile, so at the end of the day, u have this whole stack of feelings inside that are un-processed and jumbled up and as the days go by, they accumulate and can start to feel suffocating.

and that, is why emotional regulation is important.

i admit it hadnt been the best week for me, emotionally. ups and downs, but more downs. tried to put down those negative thoughts ytd, and im glad today i managed to get back my cheerful, energetic self again. no more moodiness and dark clouds :) yay kudos to myself! :P

and through all the self-reflections that i made, i hope to really become a better person. cheers to better days ahead :)

[x] 884

2010-05-17T00:35:00.003+08:00

XD
i love my mel :)

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LOL

AWWWW

:))

[x] 883

2010-05-14T22:48:00.003+08:00

did u know? ur phonecall in the morning brightened up my day immensely! by like, a few suns!! XD

indeed :)))

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mornings always seem to pass very quickly with chit-chats, discussions, devotions, etc. yeah kinda slack but i suppose its REALLY just for first week... yup we're cherishing it a lot :P

and a surprise came in the noon when one of the youths came in and just handed me a bag containing 3 ice popsicles and told me its for us! it was really like, wow, thanks! :D only got to know this youth ytd, and was just casually commenting tt "is the 冰棒 that nice?? u all everyday eat wont sian one meh??" and we get this little treat the next day. although they were just inexpensive ice popsicles, the gesture really made our day :) yay!

home visit in the afternoon was another meaningful and enlightening experience. once again, many reflections post-experience, but i think at the end of the day, they are still very meaningful and are the real eye-openers for me. the world that i know has expanded yet again, and im happy to be able to learn more about the case at a deeper level. sometimes, u really need to experience sth directly to feel the learning, and not just read abt it or hear abt it from others. im glad i had this chance today :)

and its definitely nice to be interacting with one of the staff on a more personal level and getting to know a colleague better :) cant wait to know the rest too!

yup first week of work and it seems like a million thoughts generated in my mind already. its been tiring, but rewarding too. and im quite sure that applies for all of us :) may week 2 be awesome too! cheers! XD

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came across this just now, and it helped a very tiny bit.
low self-confidence, stay out!