sth serious happened this morning. felt vry unwell, sorta blacked out and nearly fainted [i didnt faint].. guess it shocked mich a lot =X im so sorry!! hope i dnt gif u too big of a scare.. anw, yep im better now. maybe it was sth i ate for breakfast lah.. well anw, tt resulted in us being late for sch todae. once again, reli sorry to mich!! spoiled ur nice record.. =(((

alright so der goes our record. dnt go for pe todae cos it was reli hiong and i dun wanna black out again =X well but it wasnt reli total boredom this morning lah.. in fact, for the whole dae =P haha think oni sistas understand wad i talking =P its ok. not impt. *hehe* yeah kinda *happy for the rest of de dae too lah.. haha i love thursdays! lols ok i better shut up before i get bashed up by sistas =P

overall quite a tiring dae lah.. timetable's bad but, muahaha. *nudge sistas* cant imagine next week onwards whn prac sets in... ohhh mann both chem and bio spas are for skill a lah. think we'll die from all de writing. haix. anw, the mood for "continual mugging after the common tests" havent set in [for me] yet. hopefully i'll clear up the homework and everything else during the weekends cos er, dun reli intend to do anything this week. =X gotta slack while i still haf de chance yah.. heh yup so its mugging during weekends. ;)

and i wonder if there'll be kbox session this sat... hmm.


*randomisation*

came across this phrase today [from fren's nick =)]: contentment is not the fulfillment of what u want, but the realisation of wad u already have.

well guess tts reli meaningful and true and inspiring huh? =)


got back everything todae... well... not vry happy with my bio. yeah i noe i passed and all tt but, my grades dropped! =(( yeah i noe its vry kp to hear someone who passed complain abt her score but whn its u whose grades dropped, u'll feel disappointed too.

anw, not much todae. yeah and my hair's still short.. but its longer den ytd's!! =D alright shall continue to keep the optimism up =P hmm had band meeting after sch.. well i shall sae its quite fruitful =] settled quite a number of things.. yep so hopefully carrying out the "plan" will be as smooth too ^^

alright time for dinner.

*to my sistas:* hey heys dun feel too doo dejected or disappointed abt any subject(s) k.. continue to work hard and im sure u'll reap the rewards u deserve! =D jiayou jiayou!! love ya all~~ *muacks!*


got back majority of common test papers todae.. i am sooo happy and proud to sae tt i've FINALLY passed my chem!!! *celebrates* lol reli vry vry happy to see de passing mark after 3mths of Fs..wahahaha *shakes own hand* =PpP

got back maths paper too.. heeeee scored quite well for tt. as for bio.... ahhhh why they lidat one!! wan gif back den gif back all mah.. if not dun gif at all! why gif us oni paper1 den refuse to return paper2??? vry "argh" one u noe.. =S haix nvm. guess everything'll be out tmr...

oh and i just failed my gp. =| as alwaes lah. haix whn will i ever improve.... nvm! if i can improve my chem, i can improve my gp!! =D *self motivation*

anw, went out with simin and woeilin after sch! =D keke reli suuuuper long nv see dem le... yep so we took lotsa photos! hehe mostly me and ahbond oni lah =X took them on the bus with swapped ties [me wearing jj tie and her wearing pj tie] well kinda "unstable" on the bus lah.. but the pics're all still nice! =D

went to queensway to shop for a while for shoes den after tt went to holland v to meet up with the rest for dinner =] lol took de wrong bus on the wae thnx to wl~~ xP ended up somewhere near orchard before we knew wad went wrong.=X lols but in the end managed to get back to holland v lah.. haha yup den ate at swensens', den left le.

quite a happy dae! =D finally got to meet up with ntss frens, and results arent tt bad. well hopefully things'll continue to be on the up side! =))


walla outing todae!! =D well we're supposed to meet at 9 but due to unforeseen circumstances, i woke up at 8.50 and met them arnd 10+ instead =X oops hehe dnt hear my alarm go off. anw, i wasnt the latest kAe~ ade was later! =P well yeah, and so went to sentosa after breakfast =]

sad to sae, not many ppl joined us at hbf mrt. well actually not many joined us eventually but guess we all enjoyed ourselves todae =) stoned a lot at siloso.. haha buried john until left the face there oni and also took lotsa photos! =D yep mostly with the girls lah [ade.mich.celeste] lol we kept getting annoyed over the wind direction and strong light.. but overall lotsa laughs taking pics lah yup. =))

went to palawan after tt. ok. we walked there =X bought tidbits and drinks [lke finally! suuuper thirsty..] hmm stoned lesser at palawan lah, though still quite stoned. and tt mj kept kajiao-ing ppl sia. bury slipper until canot find =P and it was reli quite a shock when we cant find john's slipper. haha but it was quite, "eventful" lah =P

and so the guys played captain's ball in the water and the girls sat at the beach and er, tanned their feet. well at least ade was doing tt =P took some pics after de guys came back and then i got dunked =| not good at all. sorta "substituted" ade lah so kinda got dunked cos of her. yah so ade... u noe wad to do next time ar... =PpP

left the beach after tt. lol 1st time guys bathe slower than girls sia.. booo! =P hee den went for dinner after tt at hbf kopitiam and headed home. dnt reli talk much on train lah.. guess everyone's tired tired and drained of energy alr.. yep so it'll be gd to rest early =P kaes shall upload the pics another time. till then~


im glad to announce tt common tests are finally over!!! =D feel so emancipated from all de stress.. and yeah another good thing is tt walla outing is tmr!!=)))) weeeee cant wait cant wait =P

anw, dnt go out aftr sch todae. so sad! =(((( stooopid sistas lah all pangseh me xP! haha jk. yep so i went home to slp loh.. and after tt went to sch [ohhhhh my god]for band. =| so spoiler lah! its lke after common tests den got cca.. argh its so zzZzzzZzzzzzzz =|

well anw, j1s came for band todae. heh de intro and interaction [well by me, at least =((] totally sucked. but things got better during sectionals lah.. hee all thnx to my other section mates who "spiced" things up! =D keke thnx mann~ ;) playing was alright.. but band room was totally stuffy and warm and well, nearly airless. almost suffocated in there lah.. argh. pls get the air-con fixed ASAP!

well alright. generally it's been an ok dae. and im sure tmr'll be totally great! =D looking forward to it~~


chem is officially over!! =D hehehe finally finally finally~ can haf short break from chem for once.. well its just vry temporary but its ok. better den nth =P

anw, supposed to just have breakfast after de paper with peiwen but in de end went kbox with classmates =P keke just whn i was thinking of going kbox on fri.. muahas isnt this just great. the fulfillment of my wish came 24hrs early ;)

had lotsa fun at kbox todae! =)) love being with this bunch of frens hehe. well anw, had lke 5+hrs of singing before we left.. total enjoyment! haha alright it was just a vry nice dae =]

okie tmr's de last paper.. hopefully it'll be good! =D


boooooo chem paper sucked. haha alright it was kinda expected lah. dnt reli finish de paper though i made it to the last qn.. dnt manage to deduce de str from nmr so everything's gone =| bah wadever. its over. and tts a great load off my mind =]

[wad a short entry]


todae's paper was a bummer =X 1stly, didnt manage to complete the paper [i almost did!! but i didnt..]. 2ndly, i was stumped by many questions and guess i lost many marks from that. =| oh great. i better wish and hope and pray hard tt i'll score well for mcq cos tt's the only way to pull my grades up. oh mann im sooo doomed..

i was stuck at the 1st question. what an omen huh? it was on the "principles of limiting factor" and when i saw it i was lke "???". and to think i actually dismissed that as unimportant early this morning and refused to read it. =X ahhhhh im such an idiot!

oh well. its over. guess i cant do much abt it huh?

ok i know im supposed to chiong home right after the paper and start mugging hard for my chem paper. weeelllll..... i went to lot1 and shopped around with peiwen instead =PpP but it didnt reli take long lah u know *excuse "exploitation" in process* just reached home around 3.30 and i slept til 5.45 =||| started some revision after tt but tv routine disrupted it. watched so u think u can dance =D not bad. was reli impressed by a few of them. think they'll make it to the top ;) and after tt was my 9pm show. =X

and so..... i didnt study since 8pm.

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alright i'll be good and continue my chem revision now =]


ok so tmr's the paper. seriously, i hope tt everything'll turn out alright and i'll pass my papers nicely. well, give me a pass at chem and im over the moon. ;)

anw, slacked a lot today. went to visit my grandma at yishun [thats miles away] and caught up with some relatives there. well they're all my seniors but, its nice sitting around with the big family =) and i have to say my grandma's cute. yes, i wrote: cute. hmm not reli sure how to describe it but, she certainly brought lotsa laughters to us sitting at the table =]

wanted to start my final revision for the paper tmr in the evening =X *oops* ok. i ended up revising at night instead cos its just so hard to resist watching tv! and esp whn its the 2nd part of pearl harbour and i watched de 1st ytd =X and after tt was the finale of star idol. =|

ok so i started my final revision at 10pm. and just sorta finished it. sorta just read thru the notes.. hopefully they'll still be in my head tmr =X and im suffering from some severe migraine right now. maybe cos of the "cramming". but, i guess im ready for the exam. well, i hope.

ok better get to slp now before my head splits. argh.


gosh didnt do much todae. thought i'll be good and start practising my work but in the end, i went online, ate junk food, read magazine [im not supposed to do that at this point of time! =(((] and even slept for 3hours. =| oh mann how bad can it get.

and im just 3days away from common test. bahas how great.

anyways, have been thinking for a bit these few days. felt i've neglected ppl who are a big part of my life: my friends. yeah esp the old ones. have been so busy with studies and well, trying to pass my tests that i havent been catching up with my dear sec4 classmates and ntmb besties. =( and i seem to be spending little time with my sistas too..

it feels horrible to acknowledge this fact. =(((

ok so here's a resolution [or whatever u call that]. im gonna meet up with my frens whenever i can and whenever everyone's free and just have little get-togethers every so often. ;) its better to prevent drifting too far apart and losing contact all together than to cure it, right? right. =))

and i dont even know why im blogging this down.

anyhoo, heard there's gonna be another og17 outing comin up soon. =D hopefully it'll be sometime after our common tests so everyone'll have no excuse to miss it ;) heard it's ice skating.
hmm.
to be frank, i've seriously only tried that once =X
and it was kind of a bad experience.

alright but there's no way im gonna miss it if it's after the common tests. just missing my og a little bit more than a little =P

but first, gotta get my long-awaited sleep [alright. i know i slept this noon but still... xP] so i'll get up bright and early tmr and start chiong-ing my work. ;) till then.


slacked a lot todae. duno why but cant help it.. well at least ive completed my revision =) tmr onwards it'll be just practising and more practising.. hopefully i'll be able to pass my chem this common test! =D hehe.

anw, just went to class blog.. heh acheli wanted to blog der but sudd duno wad to write =X still think de skin looks totally awesome! keke love it a lot =D and matt's entry was quite funny and entertaining =P

ok my comp's screwing up again. argh hate it. till then~


myriad of feelings.

feeling superduper grumpy right now. feel so angry with myslf. 've been out both ytd and todae and whn i came home, i dnt cherish de time and still slpt!! why did i even slp... im sucha time-waster; sucha procrastinator!! oh no.. havent been touching bio and chem these five daes cos of maths and my weekend events.. feel so horrible now. have accumulated lotsa revision stuff these few daes and i haf no choice but to cram them in next week, which is de most crucial time for revision.

feel super dead now!! i reli reli wanna study but i just simply get so frustrated at my total lack of knowledge in chem. feel so disappointed with myslf whn i cant even do a simple qn of nmr. duno how start. oni noe how to draw table but duno how to fill in. duno how to interpret de structure of de molecule. all these equates to zero marks given and 5marks thrown awae. tried chemical periodicity tys. cmi it also. ask me which one acidic in aq soln i also duno. seems lke i duno anything abt chem at all. oni know abt org chem but its not "superb/in-depth knowledge" also. now i noe why i fail my chem. just cant make it. chem's not my thing. maybe shld just gif up..

frustration.disappointment.anger.depression.


saw my chem test paper after chem consultation todae.. i failed again!! omg this is so so so bad.. ive been getting straight Fs since january! oh no.... 3 mths of failing!!! =(((((((( wad must i do to pass chem.... haaaixx... xinyi, reflect!


wad a short weekend it has been. stayed home and mugged whole dae ytd.. and todae mugged with mich.t at je. been sucha looooong dae todae. head so crammed up from all de info [hopefully cos they're being processed =X] cant wait for ct to be over and for break to come. no matter how short de break is, im so gonna enjoy every millisecond of it =]

had og mass conv ytd! hee crapped a lot lah we all.. but among all de crap, we discussed abt de next og outing... weeee kbox!!! cant wait cant wait. my voice's seriously itching to sing again xD and best if after ct; i can totally scream out loud tt im free from stress! well, for a short while at least. =))) hee alright so i better do well for my ct so i can enjoy de aftermath w/o thinking too much abt "tt qn which i think i did wrongly.." ;) kekeke ok. study hard! =D


sch ended at 12 todae.. hee nan de so early. acheli wanted to study in sch.. budden mom say go career exhibition todae since she's in de area and im dismissed early. yep so had lunch with mich at lot1, den went home changed and off to de career exhibition i go..

saw lotsa students der. guess cos its a fri bah. anw, took lotsa brochures and walked around many many booths. kinda cool to see all de careers at a glance ;) had a consultation session with one of the exhibitors regarding my top-favourite vet sciences. asked abt de entry requirements, fees blah blah blah. yeah they're all shocking news although kinda expected from this kinda course... ok i seem to be contradicting myslf. nvm. =X

alright tt session made me wanna get into tt course even more... sudd made it seem lke der's acheli a small possibility tt i might get in. felt reli reli motivated to work hard for it and all tt but.... mom told me sth tt totally dampened my spirit and snatched tt glimpse of hope awae. feel kinda sad, disappointed, dejected [wadever u name it].. but think wad mom said's reli realistic. maybe im just dreaming too much. maybe shld just stick to sg uni and do with wadever's available here instead of setting goals tt're unreachable...

ok reli confused right now. duno which path to take. so many qns going thru my head.. im in sucha dilemma! haix wad shld i do... well perhaps i shld just conc on getting gd grades and leave de decision til later. but will it be too late by then? omg. i seriously nid an ans...