im freaking tired and i haf no idea why im online. but since i am, i'll just blog abt eventful today :))

met pw after her paper to shop at jp! haa eh heck ur paper lah. its OVER der's nth u can do abt it just mug vry hard for the remaining papers ok!! dun worry WILL MODERATE ONE!!! :D i've been told this so mani times i actually believed it even though it hasnt reli "provened" itslf to me but *shrugs* wadever :)

had a fattening mos lunch and went to shop for makeup after tt. today is shopping spree day! :))) went to sasa watsons guardian chameleon missha and spent quite a lot. haa but i havent been shopping for 3mths so, ok lah hor? :P

pw went to healthy amore after tt and i went to marina for haircut.. hurrr my mother vry gd loh. told me its oni 70bucks den i asked her again ytd she say, aiyah i duno leh tt time i cut and treatment 70. duno cut and dye 70 anot.

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called up heatwave today and the package is 130-150 :|:|:|:|:| so i thought i'll just cut.

den after 3hrs (i called before going jp and after leaving jp) i realised de package thing included treatment. so in de end, cut and dye ONLY is 81. so i cut and dyed =] but in de end its 111 i forgot why but anw its done alr so i cant possibly say i oni wanna pay 81 rite so yah i just paid de 111 and left.

by the end of 2hrs, i was sporting a new hairdo and a new colour for my crowning glory :)) nicey nicey. but i reli wonder what the colour will fade to. im liking it soooo much now :D

headed to cine for kbox! haha had dinner with tim den jarvis joined us for kbox.. woots today's kbox is lke jamming session where i sang almost 100% of de time -.-" so by de end of de 3hrs my throat was... chui. but it was quite fun lah lotsa funny stuff in btwn. lols.

all in all i spent >12hrs outside and im lke a zombie now. but im happy cos i bought lotsa stuff for myslf so, i can look forward to waking up and "opening the presents" tmr. shall slp now :D


smell it, taste it, FEEL IT.

its freedom :D:D:D:D

wahahahahah EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER and hello holidays!! :D its been very long~ lol paper today was, hmm i reli haf no comments cos i didnt haf much hope for this course so.. hurhur =X well anyhoo its over and ITS OVER so, just enjoy the days ahead lah huh =]

went andrew's place just now to try out new parts for my flute and his guitar.. woots de jazz part is quite nice :D haa lke vry long nv play flute alr! play until vry shuang today. yay yay many more happy days to come!!!

but sudd it feels lke my hols are alr very packed without me knowing cos i've been going "aiyah after exams lah ok" for the past 3 weeks =X turns out i've accumulated so many things for post-exams tt, i think i'll be still busy =X ugh. but hopefully they're all in de name of fun lah huh?

yeah smile smile :))


jamming ytd was fun!! haha as always. our tooku made's finally good-to-hear =] de rest.. okok lah. lol. did this crazy sounan-rap version which is DAMN lol cos all of them surrendered in the end and i was left "rapping" to almost-the-end. damn funny lohh. haha anw hopefully we'll be able to do a really nice marunouchi soon. i'll bring my flute along next jamming :))

went to celebrate andrew and tim's bday after jamming! too bad jarvis cldnt join us :( anw, went to cine pastamania (AGAIN. we're always dining at pasta huh. lol) and had dinner and cake der. de cheesecake (its really black forest but since yirun insisted he bought cheesecake, so be it~ *rolls eyes*) was lke 99.999% FATS can. lol. and its not lke the cherries are damn healthy cos they "happen" to be sugar-coated and apparently with a slick of artificial color as well seeing as they left a pinkish stain on the whipped cream -.-" tsk tsk. i oni ate half of my slice though cos my pasta and soup was quite enuff. andrew oni ate one slice also. so... de rest for the fats were downed by tim and yirun. hurr der seriously isnt much cake in tt pile of cream ppl call "cake" so, happy gyming guys =] 100rounds hor. lol. i shall resume my own jogging after exams :))

**listening to persis again. its so nostalgic and still OH SO NICE. i so wanna play it right now but, ok i shall just ren 2 more days until exams are over!! i reli wish i can play it with a band again :( but first i gotta master the running notes tt killed me years ago.

and im proud to say tt my stats have finally "stabilised" and i survived thru de 4 asgs. hohoooo can i give myslf a clap for accomplishing those. ok *clap* xD ehhhh de situation just 3 days ago was reli MISERABLE UNTIL CANNOT ok. lols. good good. now i feel like i can at least pass my dreaded hp102 provided i dun use the wrong appendix on tt day. woots. wish me luck :)

oh oh. new appliances finally arrived today!!! FINALLY can watch tv in de living room. u guys haf no idea how long the living room has been deprived of the tv buzz mann.. yayyy now i can love the living room more =D and i finally have a cordless phone now so i dun hafta be irritated by phone calls cos i gotta walk all de way into the room to pick it up. =D yay life's good~

**2 more days to freedom. HANG ON!!!!


bad mood. pissed at everything. sian-ed. sick of everything. and most imptly IM SICK OF STUDYING.

i reli feel lke scolding wadever language and wadever words i noe right now. at the comp screen or at some figurine or ANYTHING i can vent all the energy at. i feel lke breaking sth.

but i wont scold. i've scolded enuff to last me a whole year this mth.

(im not a gd mood. everything tt doesnt go my way now is pissing me off so i'll be speaking "irrationally" ok.)

sometimes i wonder if it'll be worth putting in effort and being nice. ppl say humans dun usually reciprocate kindness. but maybe i shld cont believing in the opp and stop only whn i've had enuff experience to prove myslf wrong huh?

im sick and tired of studying every single day (who wouldnt???) and its reli irritating me cos its never ending and i think i'll still fail the module in de end so why de hell am i studying so hard. rahhhh i nid a miracle.

**arghhh my hse no more water!! kns. drink finish duno how to boil is it??? and why are sms-es flooding in at this "very inauspicious" hour whn im in no mood to entertain anyone?? ARHHHHH!!!

went to esplanade study with peiwen and woeilin (they made new frens! =]) and listened to fir's new album on monster's laptop.. NICE!!!! god. i so wanna learn their songs... BUT I CANT COS I NID TO STUDY. knsknsknsknskns.

i desperately wanna slp. why cant my hair just dry faster??? and speaking of tt its getting long and i feel lke cutting it again. shld i cut shorter?? and shld i dye it again???? ARGHHH why am i trying to make my hair chui.

im getting very unproductive recently. im not suited for studying im not suited for studying im not suited for studying!!!! ARGH. sometimes i feel lke i reli nid to scream. why am i not living beside the sea??

AND it does not help tt my family is piling on so many "expectations" on my shoulders.

"eh when u wan go see luggage bag? later no time ar.." HELLO I HAF ONE MORE MONTH CAN.

"eh we very long nv watch movie tgt" HELLO I HAVEN BEEN WATCHING ANY MOVIES SINCE GODKNOWSWHEN.

"eh must faster go hosp visit grandma if not ppl say u not filial" HELLO if i go it'll definitely not be cos i wan to show face to those relatives so they wont say im unfilial or wadever. its a friggin stupid reason tt doesnt exist in my encyclopedia on filial piety ok. so STOP bugging me to go hosp asap. i promise i'll go whn i haf the time ok?

"eh faster calculate see whether u nid concession in dec leh. dun waste my money" ha ha more like u dun wanna cough up tt 97bucks at one go and i've alr told u for de 3rd time my trption fees are gonna be de same cos i gotta go sch at least 3 times a week for band and hols definitely will go out one so no pt "saving" now cos u'll still pay de same or even more whn i nid to top up every now and then, geddit??? my father obvly doesnt. he always has de mindset tt wadever he thinks is correct and der's no better way arnd it (he's a taurus) so fine, i'll just not get concession this mth so u can happily pay all my top up fees ok?

"u go esplanade which library? esplanade got library one meh?? i nv heard of it." hello dear mum i REALLY went to esplanade lib today. and lke wad i always use as an analogy, just cos u dun see it doesnt mean its not der. so u dun see de moon in de day den de moon doesnt exist is it? esplanade HAS a lib so can u pls believe me and STOP trying to convince me tt i went to a nonexistent place??

argh. life is a roller coaster ride.


i still cant get speedmaster out of my head. both of them. grrrr.

went to je to study with pw today and YAY im finally able to cover more topics den wad i had done in de last 3 days. in fact, even more den wad i haf done in de last 3 days added tgt. hurhur yes its very -__-" i noe. ok i shall keep this "spirit" up and cont to mug hard and hopefully i'll be able to pass =]

asked for comments on whether to take classical or pop piano.. and i think, i'd probably take up pop? seems lke its more suitable for me in de long run even though im still not confident of getting my basics (fingerings and stuff) built well thru pop piano lessons but i guess, i'll be wasting money and time investing in classical lah huh? anw, more comments are welcome. i haf a tagboard =]

checked out "play by ear"'s website and the pop piano lessons and the sch's flexibility seem to be quite ok! haha im enquiring if they provide demo sessions so i can try out first.. hopefully haf! =D im so looking forward to the start of lessons although i havent reli prepared the money and the -OH YAH i'll nid a keyboard to practise on. =| garrrr. i feel lke i've hit a stone wall. keyboard, pls drop from heaven!!!

haven been practising my flute for eons cos im still coughing. not fatally but bad enuff to stop me playing continuously xS and as a result i haven been singing much as well. managed to "revise" a bit of sounan ytd but, tts abt it. :(( this is SO dumb. i hope i get better by fri so i can jam properly.

feeling kinda dead. at home and not motivated to study again. dOtz why de hell am i so unable to conc nowadays?? too many things of my mind maybe.. flute, piano, vocals, exams and.. some other stuff. bahhhh. if i can use length to measure how much im looking forward to fabulous december, i'll nid a ten-foot pole. i noe im saying this for the umpteenth time but lets just take it as sth tt'll pull me thru this week. i cant wait for december's music, piano lessons *very very hopefully*, flute improvements *very very hopefully* jammings, shoppings, kbox-ings, clubbings, slacking/stonings, my birthday *hahahaa SO bhb but yeah i do look forward to my birthday :))*, no exams, no hol asgs, and de best of all, japan!!

wootz. life rocks. after exams ;)


feeling very animalist now.

was talking to justus and ahhhh i reli reli hope friskies will be ok!! :(((( why cant we just communicate with the animals and ask wads wrong??? hais it'll be much more easier for us to find out how we can help..

browsing thru wwf (world wildlife fund) stuff and i reli wonder whn i'll be able to do sth. (click here to find out more!) ok im sucha small human in a big big world but, fine ok laugh i've always wanted to do sth for the animals out der!!! (der's a reason why i wanna take vet u noeeee) i dun haf de money to donate and i dun haf de "power" to help out. GARRR cognitive dissonance. this is blardy irritating can?? i'll be able to do much more den sitting here thinking the animals shld be helped in some way if only i haf at least the financial abilities to do so... :( this sucks.

was walking monster to the bus stop just now and we sudd talked abt cats and tt BLARDY SERIAL CAT ABUSER WHO SERIOUSLY NIDS TO BE DECAPITATED AND GIVEN THE SAME TREATMENT HE GAVE TO THOSE POOR CATS BEFORE HE FINALLY STOPS BREATHING. blardy asshole stinko bullshit. TELL ME WHY THESE KINDA PPL SHLDNT DIE!!! >=( yeah i do feel VERY strongly for these kinda things. a few mths behind bars are definitely not enuff to justify his actions ok.

i SO wanna go to the AVA roadshow this weekend but stupid exams lahhh. why is it always tt sth gotta clash with those events i wanna go to!!! grrrr. SO infuriating >=(

alright enuff of stuff tt makes me >=( went to west coast park mac supposedly to study with yuhui and monster but yuhui wasnt feeling well so just me and monster. lang man si le. hahahahaahah anw we got a bit sick of mac so walked back to my hse to slp and study. tried to not slp but in de end i was RELI slpy so i just slpt for 2hrs. hahha ok apparently i wasnt productive today. oni covered a bit of ch4213 and hp102 :( ohwells. tmr's gonna be a better day xinyi. *cheesy grin*

woke up and was kinda seh-ed so we decided to on the laptop (ha u noe whn tt happens its lke "tts it" liao loh. lol) and i entertained myslf with feeding frenzy while monster entertained herslf by watching the game. lol reli damn stupid can. but its fun!!! hahahaahahah ok =x

waited for my mom to finish watching her drama finale den we all went downstairs to eat xo fish head bee hoon!!! OMG yum. hahaha ordered duno wad nai you prawns also. =/ just some fried prawns lah. eeyer i reli wanted oatmeal prawns instead lohhh >=( haha ok lah anything. oni ate one cos i dun wanna haf another sore throat again. hehs anw went back after tt and continued studying a bit more... den woeilin went home liao.

okie so its been kinda unproductive but de company's good! :D haha der are lke sooo mani things to laugh abt whn monster's arnd. too bad ahbond cldnt join us today!! x( nvm. monday kbox ok!!!! hope can go. i dun wanna waste my voucher ok. its lke so super nan de! hahahaa yays its been a very happy day :)))


met up with skyler finally!! :))) (not full strength though. jar jar *HAHAHAH* wasnt der) its been almost 2weeks since we last met!! OMG. sometimes i reli wonder how life'll be lke without them and jamming.. or rather, without jammming with them. some changes may be made soon but... i'll cherish everything now =] anyhoo, had music theory at raffles mac and HA i hope i do rmbr wad andrew taught abt intervals. havent been touching those minors for close to one mth.. argh shit i reli nid to "keep in touch" with it if not i'll just forget :(

im sudd a lot more motivated for flute after seeing the possibility of improving my techniques and stuff in dec :))) yes thank you anneson. hahahah reli hope i'll be able to chiong enuff in dec!!! flute, vocals, theory. and of cos, getting at least half (i hope) of my life back but tt includes music too so its ok. i just nid to get out a bit more and "sai" a bit more tai yang and i'll be good =]

alright so far its all been music. had psy paper today and VERYBIG HUR HUR i can just say bye bye to tt module as well. to think econs and psy were my more confident subjects!!!! BAHHHH. i duno wad to say for hp102 and ch4213 liao. gaf all my luck to karen this noon for her elective. i'll nid them back in 1.5 weeks' time :(( eh must include interest horr. i reli nid a lot!!!

bah heck de exams. i'll worry abt them later. its finally one NIGHT tt i can slack off totally. machiam holidays started. hahhaa yes so im gonna totally slack today and mug again tmr. im kinda sure i'll slack off another day or two in de coming week but... :)

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im reli feeling vry optimistic and der's this very high drive tts motivating me. i feel lke i can accomplish so much all of a sudden. hahha we shall see.. ;)


okok im here cos i reli cant absorb any psy now!!!!

so dun scold me ok >=( tt stupid econs just used up SO MANY of my brain cells tt it even killed those reserved for my darling psy. hmpf. well anyhoo de paper was =/ 1st qn kill me liao loh! went back to it de last half hr and HURRR cldnt finish!!! but at least i got thru wad got me stuck initially... but damn zzzz lah. so stupid. 30MARKS!!! so kns one :( but apparently lotsa ppl are feeling kinda dead so.. yays moderation =D haha and I AM DONE WITH ECONS FOREVER!!! yahooo!

health status: irritating the hell out of me!!!

its bad enuff tt i gotta be sick just before exam >=( de flu's gone but, say hi to a 100%-stuffy nose!! grrr. and it doesnt help tt i've developed cough and phelgm too. ARGHHHH its all freaking irritating. i cant breathe (i reli CANT. gotta breathe thru my mouth. kns..), i cant breathe (the cough! the phlegm!! ahhh!!!!) and i cant swallow things properly. ARGHHHHH can u all just go away?!?!?!?!

>=( im very angry indeed.


i shall slp early today. BY 1130PM. i think de late-nights might be part of de reason for falling sick.. AGAIN. crap lah 2007 is definitely not a gd-health year for me >=(

im done thru econs tuts and im glad to say i dun feel as "depressed" as ytd. hurs. and i managed to finish half my social psy chapter in 2.5hrs =] quite encouraging. but i reli think i shld rest early today so my prob of recovering is a BIT higher lah huh.. *excuses. i just wanna slp lah haha*

received a call from taka HR asking if i'll be going back to work as gift-wrapper this dec.. told him i'll be overseas during the most impt week just b4 xmas so, i cant =( i definitely miss my ex-colleagues though! its been real fun working with them lat year! :) yeah anw, told him i might work der again in year2.. shall see how lah. well anyhoo it was nice of him to wish me a safe trip :) (i'll definitely nid lotsa "safe" wishes seeing as so many arnd me are warning me of de prospects of an earthquake in japan huh... hur hurrr =/)

alright tt was a little random. on a more random note, however, was having dinner with my mom on sat whn she sudd said "i wonder how many bfs u'll have before u get married"

.... im lke hUh???!! *yeah now u can put in the lift-one-eyebrow-and-abit-frowning face* im not even 20 yet (in fact, im not even 19!!) and u're mentioning marriage?? hello, mom?!?!! den she was saying tt i shldnt choose someone born in de year of de pig/chicken/dog and shld find someone born in de year of monkey/sheep or sth.. zzzzzzzzz hello someone born in those 2 years are lke DAMN old can??? at least 9years older den me lohhh. -.- besides, im not gonna go arnd asking ppl wad year they're born in before i see them as potential spouses rite?? dotz. i reli wonder how high my eyebrow can lift.


fuck.

in the name of near absolute unproductivity and failure in an attempt to retrieve wadever i learnt in 1st half of sem.

wonderful. i haf 3 days.

FUCK.


ok i noe i just updated a few mins ago. haha just read my horoscope (for fun) and here's wads for 10/11/07:

"...You need to try to get away from the 'grass is greener' approach toward things. If you are always wishing things were different, how will you ever be satisfied? Your routine will start to get more exciting and interesting once you start appreciating it."

a tad philosophical. but nice :) yeah it'll be gd to start appreciating everything arnd me =]


im happier than a lark :)))

hp102 lect is still ??? but its alr de last lect. hur hurrr pls do a gd deed and wish all students all the best for hp102 =] did de rest of de proj after lect all de way til 5.30 and *prays* i reli hope its at least 95% done. its super damn din tei can!!! >=(

yeah the proj's sucha peeve. but everything was vry much brightened after meeting the old gang! =D hahhaa met aiping at sch (she has no lessons today! she went der just to STUDY whole day. :| hardworking hor?) and updated each other quite a lot on de way to bugis. met up with yihui and joyce at bugis and headed to miss clarity cafe to wait for the rest..

omgg de place was SO packed!! we waited for lke 45mins i think :(( but its ok lah. de food's quite gd! hahaha quite affordable too. reli wanted to try the rib-eye steak but i oni haf 20bucksssss :((((((((

ordered soft shell crab with capellini (or however u spell tt pasta) and YUMMM its damn nice!!! hahaah we were lke barter trading everyone's food arnd de table so got to try other stuff too.. de fish's quite gd! (tt slab of mayonnaise is a bit TOO generous though -.- ugh. say "FATS".) de roast chicken's not bad, woeilin's CHICKEN LEGS (hahahahahahahaah) is quite a big portion and aiping's tom yam seafood is just spicylicious. *slurps* i feel hungry all over again. hahaah

food's gd, company's gd, and we're full of laughter!! yays nv fail to enjoy and "unleash" all tt crazy laughter whn im with this dearest bunch :))) they're de best ppl to siao with, best to eat with, and best ppl to lose my voice with. *lol* yeah duno why but we're always damn high whn we're tgt so we'll laugh a lot and talk a lot and everything else. lols. its ok. I LIKE :D

contemplated abt late-nite movie for daaaaaamn long outside raffles city. lke, wad movie is der to watch? shld simin go back and get her car and come back so later we got trpt home? or shld we go supper? lol just a few simple qns and it took us lke 20mins or so. in de end..... we just went home -____- will meet up and enjoy 24hrs again after all our exams yah? :D

side note: all of sudden, EVERYONE arnd me's driving!!!! omgosh i feel so "public trpt" now. soon it'll be just me in the gang who's still stuck at pedestrian level :( sobs.

yup so tt was a super lengthy 3hrs of dinner and laughter (which i'll NV get tired of) which made one of de best de-stressing days for me. better den jamming. *okokok dun kill me. jamming's still fun :)* hope shiying lkes the zen stone we got for her and de card tt all of us wrote on the spot! hahahaha looks lke we nv fail to "spoil" de surprise or sth. lol nvm lah horr. make it our tradition or sth lah k =P lol

righty. im sufficiently de-stressed. shall be fully armed for chiong-ing again tmr >=)


countdown: 5 days to the big exams.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

im counting on looking forward to the happy things i can do after exams to pull me thru these 2 weeks mann... yes im going to shop, going to kbox, going to the beach, going to club, going to pub... and learn my keyboard!!!!!!!!!!

yayness. they're all great stuff to look forward to =) but omg can u believe i havent done ANY of tt since sem started??!?!?!!?!?! ok lah maybe i shopped once or twice but WHERE GOT ENUFF!!!! der's a reason why retail therapy's a top choice in girls' destress list ;)

supposed to jam today but cancelled cos my this week reli very packed. with wad? BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS. -__- wed was wanting's bday and fri we're celebrating shiying's bday.. okgreat 2 nites gone. so if i dun make full use of today, i can just wave bye-bye to my exams.

and im proud to say i broke my record and finished one psy chapter in 4hrs today :)) it always took me lke 6hrs+ to finish it. which is lke the whole nite after i come home from sch... so i dun haf time for other subjects and hence, im always lagging behind. hur hurr but NOT TODAY! i still haf time for econs later =]

my mom cooked!!! yay happy deepavali. hahahaa okok. its been real long since she cooked lah ok. hmm. i sudd miss my dad's fried rice though =( and i think i got the flu from gladys de other day (hur great timing huh. just 5days before exams). nose was all stuffy and felt the fever and sore throat coming so i took strepsils (my trusty EXTRA STRONG. muahaha) and den my mom's flu med (she swears by it) and redoxon vit c and pi pa gao and some fruit juice for MORE vit c and immunity. lol pray i dun get diarrhoea from all tt. (i didnt take all at once lah of cos)

i think i haf this thing against anti-drowsy med cos they nv fail to make me drowsy. haaa and so i felt drowsy after de flu med and cldnt help it but slpt. but its ok. i feel better now. at least well enuff to cont studying...

*this is starting to become vry boring*

ytd's celebration was fun!!! hahaa met kah hui at jp and helped him saigang all de stuff back to adm.. we ordered 4 large pizzas but they're out so they gave us 1 large and EIGHT regulars. xS heavy. and still got 2 cakes and presents and some misc items. hurrr gd thing he drove ytd. cant imagine taking 179 with all tt =x

de turn-out was very surprising!!! der were lke 20 ppl. lol but we all had fun lah. vry long nv aemi with them!! and de "pond"-ing part was vry funny. gd thing they spared those going home if not we'll ALL be wet -.-

cant wait to meet up with ntmb ppl on fri. its been a thousand years :)))

ps. here are your ENDORPHINS peiwen!!! haahah dun emo le lah. SMILE!! U'LL FEEL BETTER!!!!! *this is in accordance to the facial feedback hypothesis ok. i didnt make it up >=(


anneson's asking if i wanna buy his old flute.. well its not literally "old". its just de flute tt he used before. its from my trusty brand miyazawa and it has all de specifications i wan!!! and he's allowing me to pay by instalments. on top of many of other "buy from me very hua suan one lorrr" stuff. lol. spoke to me mom abt it and *omg* she said i can get it!!!! =D yeah goody. but im still thinking lah.. also duno wad i thinking abt but, arhhhh i duno. =(

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der used to be this yakult door-to-door seller whom my family buys yakult from. but haven bought from her for a looooooong time since vet days cos i always end work late. saw her again in de mkt this morning! hahaa she still recognises us :) bought another 2 sticks from her and she said she'll get her daughter to deliver to our home in de noon... and omg her daughter's my pri sch classmate!!!!! its lke so so so qiao!! haaa ok i acheli had this rubbish thought earlier on tt "sekali her daughter is someone i noe" and she reli turned out to be someone i noe!! HAHAH i haven lost my touch ehh *eyebrow smiley* lols. quite funny lah. i open de door den both of us looked at each other for a while, den said "u vry familiar" tgt. haha chat with her a bit also lah.. heeee so nice to see old frens :)))

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finally done with my econs revision for ytd (yah ok im lagging behind by one day but, at least im done with one part! cmoooon show some encouragement :]) and i prac-ed flute and vocals ytd and today. alright marunouchi indeed distracts me a little from my studies but its just so nice can!!! hahaha =P reli hope jamming later will be fun. for a 1st try of marunouchi! will be bringing my flute down :D

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went to an aunt's hse to borrow winter clothing for my japan trip! hehh dun wanna buy just cos of 1week so just borrow loh =x anw, their hse is still as huge as ever (not tt it'll shrink or anything but..) and they also haf this black labrador!! sooo super cute and adorable!!!!! his name is socks! =D


say meow! (=X ok.)


the aftermath of dinner is indeed universal even across diff species. lol

he's kinda obese but its ok! he's still damn cute. and he happens to be the smallest dog in his family! de person said tt der'll always be a small one outta de 7pups so tts him! haha. yay socks socks.

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gold mbr called me just now and told me sth vry traumatising!!! omggggg thank god kenneth was der... ahgold u're ok rite??? try not to think abt it so much... and u can call me anytime! de hotline's 24/7 okie =D and rmbr to eat chocs. they make u happy!!


woke up to a refreshing morning with karen calling me to ask where i am and causing my eyes to fly open accompanied with the thought of "SHIT im late" :|

so i wasted 12bucks on cab fare and another 10 on my psy shirt (which sadly has kinda poor quality) so im vry broke now. and i still owe yirun 10bucks :(:(:( ahhhhhhhhhh money moeny moneyyyyyyyyyy.

unfortunately it wasnt de last lect for hp102. was as lost as usual. last lect for hw101 but was busy msn-ing and gaping over cute tshirts tt monster showed me online. last lect for ch4213 and it was a full lect on tips for exams. i reli hope wad he emphasised on today will come out. =] proj after tt at fal until 7, den went to batok meet pw :)

it was vry nice to be laughing lke mad again =D didnt manage to talk "heart-to-heart" in de end but laughter's the best medicine so i daresay im almost cured now :))) arigato gozaimas, peiwen!!! (however u spell it lah. lol) ate at coffee bean den went to supermarket to walk walk. machiam housewives lidat. HAHAHAHAHA i cant believe we spent lke 10years inside. it wasnt me. it was ahwen! yes PEIWEN LOVES SUPERMARKETS. lol. anw it was a whole load of laughter in der cos... aiyah it was just damn funny lah. hahhaha

for once i can "look forward" to saturday cos friday nites are usually jamming nites so i didnt reli haf much chance to think "hey tmr's a saturday!!!" its always been my fav day of the week :) its lke, sucha nice day!!!! de day before u can enjoy until late late den sat can slp in, can go out again until late late cos next day no work! =D so nice rite!

LOL ok u must be -.- ing now. k i better faster do my work before my whole sat gets worked away again. i reli wanna rest nicely on sats u noe :(

nahhh why end de post with a sad smiley. gotta smile ok!!! cos tmr's a saturday!!!! =D


*warning: this is gonna be another super random and probably disorganised entry. and i guess lengthy too.

i dun wanna study i dun wanna study i dun wanna study. i cant conc i just wanna slp and quit sch and i want to meet up with every single one of my old frens so very badly.

i miss the life that i had =(

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getting "emo" again. i realise this happens everytime i feel stressed. i shower my dearest frens with vulgarities (not at them, of cos), i while my veryprecious time away by stoning and online-ing and kicking a childish internal tantrum that no i do not want to do ANY work, i emo myslf (and sometimes emo-ing the rest as well) and start on those negative thoughts that are absolutely unreasonable and irrational, sometimes even to the extent of depreciating my self-worth.

hmm. why am i saying this?

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another "focus on the family" column from today. it was abt saying "no" to spending on kids but i think it applies to life in general as well. just some quick quotes from de column..

"... you see, pleasure occurs when an intense need is met. a glass of water is worth more than gold to a man who's dying of thirst. its worthless to the person who doesnt need it. ... if u never allow a child to want sth, he nv enjoys the pleasure of receiving it. if u give him a tricycle before he can walk, a bike before he can ride, a car before he can drive and a diamond ring before he knows the value of money, u may actually haf deprived him of the satisfaction tt possession might haf given him in the later years. how unfortunate it is for a child nv to haf de opportunity to long for sth - to dream abt de prize by day and to plot for it at night. he might even get desperate enuff to work for it. ..."

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i was daydreaming again and all of a sudd, a conv with a fren popped into my waking consciousness *pls pardon any psy terms tt i might use =x* was telling her tt i had wanted to apply for vet studies in aus after As but didnt cos my grades arent at least AAB. den she told me her fren who got ABC applied and got in. =| im starting to hear of more ppl who are scoring lower den de required grades and who got successful applications and i reli wonder, if i went ahead and applied, wld i haf gotten in? maybe not so much by academics but, wad if i had managed to write this superbly touching 500word essay abt why i wanna take vet studies and it moved the prof to tears, made him think tt "yes. ITS HER. this girl is THE FUTURE FOR ANIMALS!!!!!" and thus gave me a pass immediately? wad if i was really lucky enuff tt de cohort was vry small, and they lowered the prerequisite grades and ta-daa, im in. wad if i had been really lucky?

=x i blogged abt this before but, now de qn's just surfaced again. if i had really gotten thru, i wld really be able to set my feet on the path i'll like to take, and a future i noe i'll like and probably be able to stick with for life. i wld be able to experience overseas study, study cheem cheem professional stuff, and come back with a degree i'll be most happy to haf. and i'll make lots of money in future and my family will finally be able to haf financial independence =]

nice eh? but *pops bubble* all of tt didnt happen. i didnt send in my applications becos i tot de probability of me getting in is far too low (hello??? im a million ranks below AAB!! and der are lke, at most only 30 places for international students?? wad are u thinking mann!) and i'll just be wasting abt 300SGD sending the applications over and getting the "sorry u're rejected" letter from them in de end. besides, i dun wanna leave my mom alone. AND it'll be hard to cope with living expenses and tuition fees cos aussie's standard of living is high =(

but if i had gotten in.. i'll be slacking like a stone now and i definitely wont be complaining abt wanting my "life" back =]

=( alright fine no tt wont happen. i'll probably be working my ass off to accumulate more funds for my overseas studies. and.... maybe i wont even think abt joining a band? den i wont get to noe the greatest bandmates and some of the fun-est ppl to hang arnd with! :(:( and i wont haf a lot of other things too. and i wont meet those really nice uni frens nor my super sweet tutor (oh she gaf us kitkats during last tut! saying chocs make ppl happy and whn we're happy we'll study better =] hahaha so cute. she's really sweet ^^) and i wont get to join ntusb and noe all de supersiao band ppl and the verycute mr.oura AND I WONT BE GOING TO JAPAN FOR EXCHANGE AND CONCERT NOR SPEND MY LAST-STARTING-WITH-DIGIT-1-BIRTHDAY IN OSAKA!!!!!!!

OMG wad am i thinking. im SO glad i stayed in singapore =]


vulgarity rules the day.

fked up.

i nid a breather. i nid to vent i nid to rant i nid to scream. YES PEIWEN LETS SPEND THE NITE OUT TGT TMR.




ok sounds a bit wrong. no worries. we're just going to "yum cha" tgt. healthy and nice :)))