i feel the kind of impulse again! haha just lke wad got me to learn drums in de 1st place.. was talking abt getting keyboard and learning piano with simin just 2 days ago. and now i TOTALLY feel lke doing tt immediately and just heck all de exams. HAA no lah i cant and i wont do tt. but im reli feeling de kind of impulse.. the "if u dun learn it now when do u wanna learn??" and "u will never have enough time so might as well just learn it now" feelings are just overwhelming and yeah, im supermotivated now for keyboard =D

im sudd flooded by younha and she's a pianist!!!! tt reli adds on to the motivation yah? haha and maybe we can try covering her songs.. rahhhh so mani songs i hope to cover =x

i wanna learn guitar too.. yes im a greedy pig; i wan learn all of them!!!!! so fun lohhh... bah. i'll learn one by one =P and sw asked me how're my drum lessons going.. told him i stopped de lessons le.. haaaa come to think of it acheli i kinda miss drums and wanna get back to it although it wont lead me anywhere. just lke keyboard and guitar. hmm but.. aiyahh i just wanna learn!! maybe one day i'll get back to drums =]

but for now... keyboard keyboard keyboard!!! yamaha dgx220. i think i'll get tt =]

oh and payment for japan trip will be made real soon.. this means im going for sure! omg im so excited for the trip!! im finally going to japan =))))


MUSIC DAY.

woke up bright and early for sectionals.. hmm it feels quite gd today. able to get some parts which i cldnt a few days ago =] yeah gd. if it keeps this way i think i'll be able to get my sight-reading skills back soon =D kekes. went for lunch den back for band in de noon.. haha it'll be all quite gd had it not been for my stupid nose which is still stubbornly plugged up with all de goo. x_x bahhh pls vanish asap for de sake of everything..

yeah breathing was reli diff while i was playing and during jamming. cant take deep breaths cos of my cough. rahhhh all just go away lah can!!! !@#$%^

jamming today.. hmm =] raymond and phoebe came down.. yeah but i think today's quite alright given the current circumstances =x ke-siao-ed maria's keyboard opening part. haha so dumb but fun =P and i think today's tooku made was de best (out of de worst) we've had so far. ok we all gotta improve =))

and tt peiwen and channie supposed to come down to siao with me during jamming today but they never!! x( went to lcube and saw frog instead.. a very sleepy frog, in fact. haha ohwells. peiwen im waiting for ur everlasting and byul ok!!! although de everlasting oni half song but better den nth and de byul i think oni 1 sentence but also.. haaa i'll improve on it. go learn ok!!!! hahaha =P

dinner at cine.. and missed de blardy last train so took cab home. !!! kena chided by my dad for wasting this kinda unnecessary money.. tt i cld've "played" 30mins lesser and go home earlier so i still haf trpt home blah blah blah... okay fine im sorry. my bad. x( yirun lent me 30bucks (tts reli too much but anw..) so i just took cab home. heh THANKS A LOT!! if not i can slowly walk home liao =x

hmm forgot to mentioned. we crapped thru sounan today. HAHA it was kinda rubbish-y but fun. hope to jam this song =D *huge huge hint*

anw... i reli hope jarvis's dad gets well very soon!! speedy recovery kays =))

hahha ok i go slp le.


HAHA im currently very entertained by virtual pets. isabelle's "teh bing" is lke damn cute!! haahah. anw, they are damn lol. so i adopted a tiger and turtle!!! hahaha ok im nuts.

hmm apparently i got carried away and adopted another hamster and hedgehog =x

k i adopt enuff liao. hahahaa =P ehh peiwen. u can consider adopting a hamster and call it ur SNUFFLEPUFF lah. im sure it wont object. or tiger also can. rmbr wad i commented tt time? *eyebrow smiley* LOL.

Saturday, September 22, 2007 ♥ 4:05 PM

feeling horrible!! grrr. stomach feels damn queasy and i feel lke puking X_X crap.. pls let me get well soon!! i still wanna enjoy my hols although its not much of a holiday..

sch ended at 130 ytd! =D went to meet up with ahgold and ken to go pj tgt to collect sgc.. woohoooo finally getting tt b-e-a-utiful book back! wahahaas. holding it just makes me feel proud. i duno why. its lke i graduated again!

haa ok =x

went to city hall for theory and dinner with bandmates den had jamming after tt.. we're finally using the big room! =D haha aiyahh but once again i didnt do well. improved the tiniest bit for maria i think. rahhhh pls let me cont improving!! haha i think i'll feel god-ly if i can do de whole song well =x lols.

cont'd with theory after jamming (so hardworking hor. LOL) and had a bit of "the squad" again. hahah and yirun and tim have decided to "where do we go" for sweet child and to harmonise for mgr.. hahaha JIAYOU OKAY. im looking forward to it. lols.

home after tt and felt sick after reaching home =S so i didnt go for band todae.. x( slept quite a lot today too. in fact, i sorta just woke up =x hehs hope i just nid to replenish some very-deprived-slp den will be ok le.. i wan t get well soon!!

Friday, September 21, 2007 ♥ 12:24 AM

i wonder why i kept thinking jamming's on sat whn in actual fact its T M R. =S lucky i checked. rahhh i just haf a bad feeling abt jamming tmr lah. i didnt prac at all!!! *slaps forehead* crap. im so screwed..

im just done with econs but im not done with it yet. (haa sounds super contradicting but.. u do get wad i mean, right? =x) bahhh it never fails to reward me with a splitting headache. and apparently im still stuck where i was stuck previously but at least i understood de prev-prev-lect now =] ok still lagging behind but, not as behind =] *ughh wads with me and contradicting sentences*

anyhoos, had a interesting conv with pw ytd. super retarded, super spastic, super funny. *i cant believe i came up with a sentence pattern LIKE THAT. to think it took me so hard to get one out for my hw101 asg..* it just entertained me so much i didnt even feel lke slping. lol. think we're gonna cont chilli tomato curry barbecue sauce for some time... *retarded smiley*

Wednesday, September 19, 2007 ♥ 11:56 PM

oh its been the best week ever. test on mon handed in asg on tues and immediately received news tt asg 2 will be up in a day or two and wed is de horriblest (i dun care if sucha word exist. u get the drift) and longest day and ha hAhh band on sat will be from morning til noon. so im gonna stone from lke 2pm all de way to 7pm for jamming. zzz. ah wells another big day gone. and de happiest thing is tt i still know nuts abt econs so im gonna spend de whole of tmr trying to digest de whole 5chapters and guess wad. before i can even do tt de next 2 chapters came in today but thankfully the lecturer's gd. she's de tutor whose tut i've been crashing since tut 3 so yeah u can sae i quite lke her teaching style. alright back to de pt. thurs's gone but i'll squeeze in time for running cos im kinda determined to lose those flabs. fri's sch day and ending early cos we're done for ch4213 this half of de sem. but im going back to pj to collect de collector's book of de year aka my sgc (sch grad cert) folder which apparently took 3mths to correct de grammatical error of addressing me as a "him" instead of a her. but tt gives me a chance to meet up with goldie =] den its sat. oh i've mentioned alr rite. yeah ok. on to sunday which is yet another 9hrs gone cos. oh i got thru my interview for orientation grp leader and we're gonna start some cac activities soon. so soon tt it falls on this coming sunday, from 830 to 5. yep another day gone. and den... oh tts de end of de week alr. so fast =]




YES EVERY WEEK STH LIKE THIS HAPPENS AND NO WONDER ITS ALR WEEK 7 COMING WEEK 8. freak. hols next week but no hols. wed and sat got band and wed ALSO got maincom-subcom interaction so its 2 days gone. and tests are dropping-by-to-say-hi immediately after recess. hohohooooo merry xmas.

but i did feel happy slacking off de whole of ytd at grandma's hse enjoying dinner, conversing in cantonese, watching tv, den going home and refusing to do my econs tut cos i dun understand my fav subj at all and hence a tiny bit of rebellion set in. thnx to don also for de tutor's copy =] wahhaha. >=)

okie. happy weekends everyone! (i noe its oni wed but I SWEAR it always happens very very quickly after wednesdays. always.)

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 ♥ 12:12 PM

im SO ANGRY with econs!!

stupid subject. stop monopoly-ing me!!! freaking freaking irritating!! grrrrrr. im peeved. is it just me who's taking 5 light years to understand de concepts one by one or does it reli take ppl so long to get it into their heads?? rahhhh i'll definitely roar and bring down my hse if i can.

>=( !!!!!!

Sunday, September 16, 2007 ♥ 12:38 AM

the happiest two days of my life ever since uni started!!

haha im glad things are picking up =] had jamming today and i think i did ok. yeapieee!!! hahahaah think de kbox remedy works huh *eyebrow smiley* yup now i noe wad to do whenever i feel down/think im losing my voice.. get a dose of kbox!! woooooo~~

went to ps ljs for dinner.. kaos tt person damn attitude can!! wan serve dowan serve.. !@#$%^&* u just offended every single member of our band!!! =@ well, except jarvis who was fortunately not with us.. zzz wad a spoiler dinner was. and had music theory after tt.... wahaha. i noe 2 more scales =D

getting more musical recently. BUT still nid to study!! grr. gd thing im interested in psy if not it'll be sucha dread. test on mon.... think i'll slp early and study tmr. oni touched a bit just now =x yup tmr is PIA-ING DAY!!!

but im still gonna prac my flute =] yeah i hope i stay this happy and motivated for a real loooooong time ^^

Saturday, September 15, 2007 ♥ 3:35 AM

im happy as a lark =]

sch todae was BAD. had 2 consecutive super long days (this's de 3rd =x) and its reli bth. fell aslp during hp102 lect and ch4213 presentations. haaa anw i didnt understand de ppts so i just left 1 hr early.. =X ok vry bad but, i seriously wldnt understand anything lah..

went for cherry boom's campus concert supposedly with aemi and sergia but in de end, oni shiyun don and kh.. bahhh anw, de drummer is so motivating!! haha i see her play i feel lke playing also =P anw, think they're quite ok lah.. de guitarist's reli kinda quiet though. with only the vox and drummer being more high and interactive.. but generally they're ok =]

was late for kbox.. haaa anw everyone was late so i wasnt that late =P yep yep met up with peiwen simin weijie chengwai and kent! woohooooo so damn long nv go kbox with this gang grp. de last time we did the guys were still botaks and wearing beanies. lol. had a great session today!!! one of de best times of my voice nowadays i guess.. now after kbox im seriously beginning to wonder. i can sing for 6hrs in kbox, but in jamming i cldnt last thru 3 or 4 songs. =X funny huh. haaa anw shall not let this bring my mood down. was reli high just now!!! (i haf many eyewitnesses =P) yeah partly cos i was reli reli enjoying the company and FINALLY singing chi songs again.. and partly cos i havent been able to destress this much for vry long. an entire month i think =x yeah kinda bad huh.. bahhh. im happy now. yep kbox rulez~~~~ lol

my voice is kinda o_O now but its ok. at least i enjoyed listening to it for 6hrs today =] de singing was ok, everything was fun, and on top of all, company was real gd. YES all of it made me happy. plus im motivated for drums today.. AND FLUTE YTD! woohoooo. so peak-y. ^^

alright its 3.43am now. gonna slp a lot a lot den tmr gotta pia my psy test.. havent been studying for 3 days!! shiet. and my prof just told me tt some of de grp ppts will be included in exam... =O!!!!!! crap. i dun even wanna think abt how mani tests and shits i gotta take on after recess break. im subconsciously pushing everything to tt week.. yeah its bad but, if i dun haf fun now, i prob wont get anymore chances cos de workload's getting crazier. =(( grrrrr. stress, begone!!

Thursday, September 13, 2007 ♥ 11:57 PM

[this is gonna sound damn "literature"-y but anw..] its amazing how despair can swallow ppl within minutes and how motivation can inspire ppl within de same span of time.. i was experiencing hell lot of emotions this noon (as can tell from my entry before this) but now, im feeling so motivated i feel lke i can even encourage my emo-ing frens =]

went for flute tutoring in de evening.. wow im definitely looking forward to another session 101%!! haha it was de best mann.. i just love de tutor a lot. i was kinda upset abt my flute tone and skills weeks ago but today, she just made me feel lke i got my tone back =] maybe its just entirely psychological and not real at all but, i felt gd abt my flute tone for de 1st time in ONE ENTIRE YEAR! =D woohoo cheers cheers~~

and (this sounds dreadful but its sth i want. for now) she gaf me a whole stack of scores for me to prac on.. and i reli hope this will get my sight reading and skills back real soon =] im super motivated to play now. YEAH.

another happy thing. hmm sometimes i reli think i contradict my own feelings a lot (think oni those close to me will truly understand..) im happy cos.. my dad picked me up from sch just now and brought me to eat supper =]

dun ask why im happy. i duno. instinctive emotion? =x *haaa xinyi ur english sux too. on top of everything else*

today was de last day of my rp on positive psychology.. hmm i gotta say i'll miss these sessions a lot =] its just nice to see how we can warm up to ppl we only just knew thru such little-but-reli-meaningful sharing sessions =]

ok im tired. tmr got sch. and tmr is my proj presentation day. pls wish my grp lots of luck cos de blardy presentation's weightage is 30%. =x yeah yeah all de best to us!

♥ 5:06 PM

emo-ing.. no its not of studies now. its another thing.. my "instrument." =((( it feels damn horrible to know u're losing the only thing u're better at among every other tt u can do.. i duno why but it just feels strained after only 2 or 3 songs. its damn depressing to hear my own standard now. maybe its also becoming to be a hazaard to de band.. i haf a sudd urge to see a doc. read some online articles on vocal problems... maybe its reli overuse or wadever? i reli duno! but its damn exp to consult this kinda doc rite.. =( de thing is i dun even noe where de root of de problem lies.. de food i eat? not enuff water? shld take more pi pa gao? shldnt keep singing? try not jamming for 1 mth? go back to listening and singing more chi songs instead of jap? question mark question mark question mark! crap. i dun even noe where de problem lies.. how to solve it?? i wish someone'll give me an answer. =(

sad things reli always come tgt huh... i realised im reli not as happy as before. maybe this is de start of depression! =| ok choy. tt vocal problem is big enuff... crap. i just suck lah..

Sunday, September 09, 2007 ♥ 2:24 AM

jamming totally sucked today. insensitive mics, crappy cables, tiny amps, feedback, and most imptly, the worse voice ever. its just bad. if i can make a wish tt'll definitely come true now, i'll definitely wish for all these stress to go away. i dun even wan money. i just wish they'll all go away..

feeling a little seh... but at least i dun feel de stress i felt last nite. went to indochine with peiwen just now after jamming.. it was nice to meet up with her =] it always seems lke we can talk abt anything under de sun. i love this fren =]

had a bad dream last nite of my mom meddling with my comp and causing all my docs to vanish. kicked arnd a lot. ok looks lke im even stressed in dreams. but gd thing is tt i woke up to a happier mood. its lke wad i felt de prev nite happened a long time ago... hmm. a gd trait i guess.. wells anw, even if i was still stressed and sian and sad, just hanging out and talking with my dearest fren just makes all de stress go away. =))

Saturday, September 08, 2007 ♥ 1:10 AM

i dun wanna say this but... fuck im reli cracking!!! maybe i was ok few hrs ago but now i've seriously reached breaking point!!!!! this is de worst period of my life...

ch4213 report is not even half-done! gotta do it by sunday if not NO TIME!! vry unfortunately im not taking only ch4213 so i cant spend so much time on it and neglect de rest! and i haf no fking idea where im gonna get de information from! its just so freaking diff to find sth tt specific enuff. ahhhhhh this whole thing is just damn fked up can?!?!!!

hp101 research draft by wed!

hp101 test is ALSO ON WED!! and i haf 5 more chapters to go and tts lke 150 pages of de tb and EFF IT my brain dun haf space liao lah ok!!! i oni haf de weekend to do it cos mon's packed with sch and interview and tues sch ends late den its wed alr!! AND I HAF JAMMING TMR. this means i gotta cram everything in de morning and EARLY noon. my proj, my draft, MY REVISION. fkkkkk.

hw101 assignment! nid to include sentence patterns (how de hell am i gonna include dem?!?) and gotta keep everything SHORT. blardy shit. i can write hell lot but its diff to keep it short can?!!

ECONS!!! damn blardy shit ECONS!!! i dun haf time to read up on de stuff i dun understand!!!

AND!!!! I HAF NO IDEA WAD HP102 LECT IS ABT TODAY. its lke damn shity shity shit and der's gonna be ANOTHER RESEARCH PROJ SOON.

can ppl die fro stress lke how rabbits die from stress??!?!! i think if tts possible, i wld've died RIGHT NOW.

f. im giving up!!!!!!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007 ♥ 10:30 PM

stupid uni u irritating piece of shit. look at wad u've done to my frens and i!!! stressing, emo-ing, depressing, wanna cry, wanna drop out go poly, dun wanna study anymore... grrrrr u are definitely annoying every single neuron in everybardi!! I. DO. NOT. LIKE. Y O U.

whoever said "A levels are gonna be de hardest exam u'll ever take in ur life.. after tt, uni is gonna be a breeze~~~" BREEZE MY FOOT. we're experiencing tremors and tsunamis can. yeah im definitely enjoying all tt breeze. *rolls eyes*

i feel so cheated.

Saturday, September 01, 2007 ♥ 11:43 AM

wahhaha i love my monster for blogging sucha happy and high entry!!! its strange how it works but it just made me feel happy and high after reading it =D lol.

and yeah im gonna watch ratatouille later!!!! its gonna be sucha cute and lol show. haa i dun care if its exp or waste of time. i just feel lke i nid as much laughs as i can get. feeling sian and down and stressed and every-other-thing.. yeah i noe most of my peers are probably feeling this way too (referencing from gina, pw, woeilin, uni frens..) ohwells. lets just hang on!! we went thru TWELVE YEARS of educational stress!! wads another ONE SEM mann. yeah we'll make it ;)

ok im currently trying to self-motivate myslf. felt myslf being "low"-er den last time. haha i think only my ntss and pj close frens will noe how "high" i usually am (or rather, was).. but now is lke, seldom high and even if high also not as high.. HAIX. wads wrong mann. i nid laughters =(

OK I SHALL NOT EMO. *reads monster's entry again*

lols. had 3 consecutive super-long days from wed til today.. so i guess im kinda burned out =x and this is W/O ntusb! haix i wonder how it'll be lke after it resumes... RAHHH i dun even wanna think abt it.

anw, ytd was de longest day ever and went for rush hour3 and jamming after sch.. HAAA ok im a superslowpoke but rushhour3's reli funny!!!! hahaaha i simply love de "im yuu. i just told you. im yuu. .. yuu is not blind. yuu is deaf etc etc". SUPER LOL CAN!!!!! hahaha yeah i nid those kinda laughs i guess =D

yup de 7.50's worth it =))

didnt haf much energy left during jamming.. and im so sorry to everyone for singing so badly recently =((( i'll try to improve ok? and CRAP i nearly fell aslp while resting on de sofa ytd.. it was yirun's crash tt woke me up -.- rahhhhh i nid 3 days' break to get my slp and studies back on track!! and my songs too =(

OKAYY i WILL not emo. i must go on =( yes. S T U D Y.