everyone's so stressed!!!! breathe in, breathe out!

poor jingxiu fell sick ytd nite!!! i hope she's fully recovered by now.. booo pre-exams reli sucks. ppl are falling sick, reading spiders' expressions, ranting much more often... but at least we girls haf a readily outlet.. CRYY!!! :'(

dun belittle that okay! it helps lohhh. just letting the tears flow can relieve some psychlogical stress~~ niahas.

anyhoo, we finally managed to consult ringo on hp200 proj. hopefully we'll get started and finish up de stats part tmr! i reli reli hope to clear my projs by this week. NO TIME FOR REVISION ARHHS!!!!!


stress levels were sky high ytd. well it was kinda high for ahgold too. :( we're both the same. stress = vulgarities anyhow fly. lol but half de time i din reli noe wad i was talking abt. its lke, u wake up in de morning and u kinda forgot wad u were cursing abt and scolding de whole nite. ohwells. tt period's over alr. at least for now. bahhhh i reli just feel lke heck-care-ing abt everything.. de only thing im desperate for now is just SLEEP. i reli just want to haf a good nite's slp. lke from 10pm all de way til 9am in de morning or sth..

have been slping near 3am for de whole week. totally sucks!! doesnt help tt my mom keeps being cynical abt the amt of "truth" there is in my reason for slping so late. i was reli doing sch stuff loh!!! u think i dowan to slp early de meh >=( 'snot lke i haf a choice rite! !@#$%^&*

was supposed to go bai my late-grandparens this morning.. garrr dun talk abt it. flammable topic. anw, was just so freaking stressed up last nite tt i turned mutinous and became neverbefore so determined that im NOT gonna wake up early enuff to go with them cos i REALLY nid to slp and i haf to analyse de stupid last article!! and my determination pulled thru :D im proud of myslf. and it felt good to "rebel" once in a while :P

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gritted my teeth and went ahead with tuition. lols was so glad i did. my tutee's damn cute lah.. and she shared with me her fruit tea (poured into another cup)! AND AND her mom cooked today so they treated me to lunch!! and it was kinda sumptuous. theres curry and curry fried rice and 2 nuggets and xiang chang and 1 chicken wing and 1 drumlet.. most impt of all, it was GODLY!!! xD de thai curry (think its green curry. duno lah just curry) was lke damn damn nice!! well she's thai lah so yup. haha i feel so well-fed =P

and when i came home my mom told me she bought bak kut teh from ang mo kio!!! *slurps* i am SUPER well-fed :))) its also de biggest reason why im happier today! :D sudd it din feel so stressful.. lke i can manage all de shits. wahaha i hope tts not some illusion of mine..

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1st try-out for jam was... well ohhkayy lahh. lols lotsa room for improvement but im sure it'll be great in de end :D haven tried out "friends" yet! haha another anime song. i promise i'll try out asap ok!! and der's another 3 songs i'll nid to try out too.. bahhh hope they'll all be ok!!

*crosses fingers*

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just rmbred wad my lecturer mentioned last lect. quite lol. de lect was on err i think adulthood. and she was sharing with us wad her guy frens said abt the diff qualities they wan in a gf and in a wife. which was "rather intriguing". haha she was lke "why so diff one!" and the guys just "OF COS diff lah!!" loll

what they look for in a gf: must be sexy, attractive... and the likes.

what they look for in a wife: must be frugal, sensitive... can cook.

LOLLL the way she phrased de whole thing made it so funny during lect lah. hahah wonder if its true.. guys, is it true???? *eyebrow smiley*

lols. psychology is sooo interesting~


cldnt find 2 more mbrs for hp200 proj grp so we're stuck with 4. :| which means MORE workload for each of us. grrrr. great encouragement to keep us moving on.. doesnt help tt we're not vry sure where to start cos all the anova and multivariate shits are jumbled up in our heads. ARGH. hope we'll get back on track after meeting up with a potential "mentor"... lols.

came home after proj discussion and its great tt mom cooked today!! its been 89365822058492 years since i ate LUNCH at home after coming back from sch. ohohoho just lke the olden pri sch days huh. lols. nostalgica!!!!!

and it was straight down to doing ppt slides for hw111 and my part for our final report for hp202. lasted all de way and kinda just ended. =x its been a really looooong day and i sense an approximate 10point increment in my myopia from staring at the computer screen since 2pm.

wld've been an okay-day had my dad not ruin it COMPLETELY for me. arghhhh sometimes i really REALLY just wanna SNAP him into 2 u noe??? and he cldnt have picked a better time to completely piss me off. just when de stress level was at its peak! !@#$%^&* BAHHH!!!

okok. i must try to slp early. lols. it better help loh!!


someone make me smile please :((

one thing i disliked the most was being wronged. and this feeling has nv failed to bring my mood down from a thousand to zero. just like NOW.

bahh dun talk abt it. makes me feel !@#$%^&* all over again. ARGH.

and my arm is still hurting lke !@#$%. arghhh pain pain go away!!!!

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went to watch step up 2 today.. de dances were so cool lah!! makes me and peiwen feel lke clubbing after de movie LOL. and tt main lead looks lke a younger version of keanu reeves.. but tts not de main pt. main pt is, one of de actors look damn lke andrew!!!!!!!! haahahahah reli damn funny. everytime tt guy appears in a scene and de cam zooms in on him i'll feel de urge to burst out laughing. its lke a fleshier and angmoh version of andrew! lols. he shld switch to dancing mann =P

went for dinner at ps manhattan with mom and christina (my late-grandma's maid). she's going back to indo so tt was sth lke a last meet up.. anw, met mich bei and vye rern at ps!!!! lke OMG i din even register their faces at first lah. took a while for me to recognise tt they're actually ppl i noe... lols. mich's still as pretty! haha hopefully we'll all meet up soon :D

gotta get back to doing my proj and rev after 9pm show.. ughh. cant wait for all of these to be over. cant wait for hols and the bali trip!!! xD haha was talking to jingxiu on de bus tt day and we're thinking it'll be reli nice to go bali for all de spas and wadever after exams just to relax.. even if its just 3days! :D i reli wanna go. cant wait for a short getaway trip! jingxiu's in. anyone else??? :D


:((((

i hate uni for all the stress it has "bestowed" upon me :(

ARGHHHHH mustnt start hating things. its a vicious cycle!!

*breathes in, breathes out*

okay. i DISLIKE the current state of anxiety im drowning in now. NOWWWWW. *pulls face into huge sulk*

sux tt we gotta manage 3 projs at de same time. especially when exams are a mere 4weeks away. but i din get the worst. heard from sweedee she has 5 projs ongoing. god bless her.

doesnt help tt my tutees are gonna have their mid-year exams smack in the middle of MY exams which dictates NO break from tuition for me cos firstly the parents are gonna hack me off for "taking a break" 1week before their child's exams and secondly cos i cant really just throw them on their own few days before tt big day and just wish them good luck and say "byebye cya 2weeks later" rite??? no matter wad they're still (adorable) pri4 kids!! how can i throw them on their own :(

arghhh. talk abt cognitive dissonance.

as such, i will be continuing tuition and GODBLESSME hopefully i'll still be able to cram all my rev in amidst all tt hoo-ha.

someone pls remind me how exciting my life is.


its been a great great day! :))

hadnt enjoyed jamming so much for quite some time.. not tt we're terrific all of a sudden but maybe de mood was just der lah :) but stupid lcube lah. i hate it when de settings are always so inconsistent.. it was so hard for me to adjust de mic settings at de start cos de mics had some problems (yet again).. gd thing it was ok after a while if not it'll totally ruin my mood. and ht's amp sounded weird and maybe de bass amp too cos bass sounded quite soft! garr. and after listening to recording, it felt vry un-stereo.. grrrrrr. but nevertheless, enjoyed jamming a lot. one of the better ones in recent weeks i'd say :))

wanted to go holland v after tt but cldnt find carpark lot! so infuriating. heh =P headed to clementi (:D:D:D) instead and sat down drink tea talk cock. lols. not bad lah laughed a lot today.. maybe everyone's in a good mood! :D and it was quite exciting to see tt stock fella "driving" de wadeverucallthat (ok im very sure this sentence rates 0 on the readability scale. think only skyler will understand.. lol) plus playing back all de songs in our phones and "rocking" to them. and ht and tim trying to video each other.... haha well generally i'd say it was a vry de-stressing evening for me :)))

looking forward to better jammings ahead!

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omg how can i forget to blog abt ytd. lols. went airport with simina and woeilin to pick yihui up! welcome home!!! :D haha wanted to eat at popeye's but it was kinda far so settled for bk instead.. omggg imagine eating bk at 1am!!!! SUPER sinful can!! and der goes my throat... was ABOUT to heal de lohhhh. haix. but i was reli hungry so nvm lah =P

and her trip to cambodia reli seemd quite fulfilling and nice! with the exception of the robbery case and food poisoning of cos.. and that call from her mother was SERIOUSLY funny lah. hahaha =P

talked quite a lot and simin drove us back after tt.. reached home at 3am! totally ko-ed. lols. but it was nice meeting up with them! and being at de airport makes me miss japan trip :((( i wanna go overseas!! i wanna sit aeroplane!!!! x(

ok i reckon i shld go to bed first. :)


i realised im 3 lectures behind for stats, 3 chapters behind for social psy, and 2 chapters behind for dev psy. which is equivalent to approximately 200pages of readings. and which is also on top of the 2 projs, 1 presentation and 1 last report i nid to finish.

i. am. SO. dead.

no more online-ing when i get home. from TODAY onwards!! xinyi pls wake up from ur honeymoon period!! EXAMS ARE COMING!!!!!!!


speaking of macs, this is the reason why im so =S and =x and =/ abt macs now. totally.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IGtDPG4UfI

enjoy :]


i am freaking addicted to yui songs again. all. over. again.

was listening to jam's instrumental parts on de bus home.. and when i got off i was listening to the bassline so intently (cos i can FINALLY hear detect it) tt i din even hear my mom calling me from behind (she just came home too). ohwells. im in love with tt song :]

and how crazy!!! (chorus chorus!!) listening to ipod today wld've been perfect had it not been for the SUPER lousy version of "how crazy" i realised i got. arghh. if i get caught for getting tt im SO gonna slap esnips. (at least gimme a nice version rite!!)

well but tim just sent me de REAL (lol) one so yeah its gd :]

watched spiderwick just now! nice movie with cute twins and fantasy characters. de part where de brownie said "he die, you die, we all die, byebye" was damn funny lah!! lols. some creepy parts at de front though.. wad with starting it off by showing all those specimens of creepy-crawlies! x( so eeeewwwwwww. haha but its still nice lah :) waterhorse next!!

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hurrs i seriously sense a BIG sore throat finding its way towards me. have been taking super-heaty and bad-for-throat food these 2 days! (2 only cos i cant rmbr wad i ate before tt) had chicken ramyeon (spicy korean food. with kimchi) and my mom's choc cake (oni ate half first cos its REEEEAALLY chocolatey) and chilli crab ytd. and chicken ramyeon and black sesame dessert (aka zhi ma hu. is it heaty too???) and mos burger today. ALL THE UNHEALTHY STUFF!!! omgomgomg. build a gym right outside my door please.

i am going to eat bread tmr.


LIFE SUCKS!!!!

dont tell me im enjoying life becos sch totally s-u-c-k sucks! did i mention that all and i mean ALL projects have to come at de same time??? how de hell am i ever gonna squeeze in revision for exams lah.. x( to think i was still harbouring the thought of catching those upcoming movies asap and going for a kbox session and having more chilling nites out and and... haiyahhhhh.. OH and my hibernation~~!!!!! x((((((

im feeling reli depressed right now.

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mom just called to tell me she's buying chilli crab home for dinner!!! (cos i KNEW she loves "zhen1 zi4s" from me so i gave her my grade5 application number and she freaking tio 4D!! well only consolation though.. but still!!!) hohoho merry xmas!! who ever said im not enjoying life???

....errhhh ok i think it was me who said tt. anyhoo, have been getting quite a lot of sumptuous treats all around.. is this gonna be a prosperous year for me??? (pun intended) oh god i hope i dun get too much of it =x

and im glad to say my first..ok second payroll has came in! and i so enjoy participating in psy expts becos we get paid for it wahahahahaha. sit down do survey.. 5bucks! :D and de next session it'll be 15. hee not bad huh ;) lols.

registered for special sem just now.. din consider it before cos der was some unsound rumour tt we gotta pay 500bucks for tt but now de air's cleared! hopefully i'll get a slot for my japanese language :] *pray pray pray*

im back to my report. *poof!*


theory's finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its sucha great relief to know its over. 1 down, 5 more to go. =x ok not a big consolation but, at least one's down! :D

so past 2 days has been kinda crazily theory-fied. went to andrew's place to chiong theory on fri.. until 1+am! x( and gotta wake up early on sat for de exam.. well i hope we'll all do ok. a merit at least?? *prays* and aftr tt went for lunch celebration at waraku! haha it was lke SO hard to decide on a place to eat.. but anw, we kinda wasted a lot of our life stoning and crapping at waraku =P

went home napped a bit, and went out again in evening to meet monster and joyce for dinner and drinks! :D joyce recommended timbre and woots its quite a nice place! shall go der again next time :) heard it got a rating of 8.5/10 for food too! well oni tried one of its pizzas but it was nice enuff alr! maybe cos we're damn hungry lah but, its reli nice! :D

went quite early at 830pm and it was still happy hour.. so we just "exploited" tt and ordered a bit more drinks while they're cheaper =P lol. tried mojito and tuttu! quite nice quite nice. although monster totally hated de mint in mojito but its ok im fine with it. hahaha =P

and it was great cos there was this guest band ytd! cldnt reli heard wad de vox was intro-ing but according to joyce, they're an aussie band who came here to perform for mosaic festival.. cool huh!!! and after they left a local band (resident band of timbre i suppose) took over.. they're quite gd too! generally quite an enjoyable nite with gd company, gd f&b, and gd music :))) listening to de bands just made me feel lke jamming right on de spot lah! lols. they're gd they're gd ;)

photos!


timbre's hawaiian! :)) yums~


and our drinks! majority of them are pink. coincidentally. lols


wahahhaha mine mine all mine!!!! >=D (lolll)

and the aussie band!!:D the songs played were more to the calm and tranquil side but nvtheless, they're great. de one who impressed me de most was de drummer. listening to him was just wooo! xD it was my first time seeing percussion instruments being played by de drummer alongside de drumset and it was way cool to hear those beats other den those on drumset alone. nice nice!! xD





oh did i mention? it was someone's bday and the vox sang bday song for tt person AND gave him one of their cds as a bday gift!!!! OMG ehh ytd my bday also leh.... lols =P

and our local band, the goodfellas! :) gd vox, nice harmonising, gd guitars, strong bass, and er i din reli go notice de drums. haha =P




de rhythm guitarist has this charm when he performs :) and he can sing well too! (he took over vox for one song)



tts all from timbre! :) looking forward to my next visit der. although de structure of de place is totally not heels-friendly cos of the long kangs (drain coverings) and high steps and virtually non-existent paths for walking. but still, its worth being der and enjoying de music played. :)

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celebrated my mom's bday on thurs too! went to marina sq for dinner.. ate at ministry of food @ my izayaka (sth lidat)! not bad not bad. de hot stone rice's quite special :) and dear ol' mom was so happy tt day! her colleagues bought her this bday cake from chocz!! lke OMGGG so yummy and xing fu lah!! she kept one slice for me though :D i'll eat it tmr! haha and she was so super surprised when i gave her de cd she wanted.. lols. hope she had a reli great day! :D

so its been abt a week since i caught up with sch work.. god a week. i dun even wanna count how many chapters of readings im behind and how de hell im gonna churn out de reports.. oh. and band's resuming this week le. hohos. i haven been touching my flute at all ever since concert ended.. =x bad bad. well ok one thing i can do now is to quickly clear my workload i guess.. back to full gear for sch!!

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drawn by jingxiu, taken from de bday card we gave karen :) i wanna scold jingxiu loh!! WHY do i only had 3 strands of hair???? my hair just cut short but doesnt mean i oni haf 3 strands rite! now de difference btwn kenneth and me is just those 3 strands of hair >=( (ok and maybe de dress) but still!!! hmpf. >=(

anw, happy bday karen!!! hope u had a great 21st! :D


grade 5 in 2days. its super scary seeing tt we just "finished" the syllabus just ytd when we went over to andrew's place. im still ?? abt composing melody. this is VERY bad. ppl, i nid some luck pls!! x(

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darren: "eh i think ur red hair dying off alr. come in i cannot find u den tot u all nv come" :(( sobs. maybe i'll go back to black soon.. hahaa see how =P

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dinner ytd was.. omg so diu lian. i cant believe i said sucha stupid thing!

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i cant wait for this phase to pass... really.


ARGH i am SO pissed. first it was abt proj discussion, den it was cos of jamming dates, and that, plus many other stuff tt contribute to de huge headache i had just now.

was finally "appeased" after having a vry funny conversation (and enlightening one too ;)) with my darling ahgold BUT it was just spoilt by.... argh. GUYS!!! so irritating, so insensitive, so un-initiative, so arghh!!!!! wont go into de details cos i've alr ranted in one long breath to ahgold and finally concluded the issue with

xinyii- music is my life ][ *reminiscence ][ says:
guys are total kukus loh
`xinyii- music is my life ][ *reminiscence ][ says:
no wonder oni they haf girls dun haf

say say say. its very much agreed by many girls out der loh. those who agree, breathe!!!


:((((

i sudd miss talking to my ahgold.. A LOT!!! :(( ahgold where are u???


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4C_oHwLcivY

love this song :)


what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.

thnx to a new fren (sc) who reminded me of tt :)
yes. music theory is definitely in the process of making me stronger. (it doesnt sound very logical but just let me use tt to console myslf for now becos its ALMOST killing me)

its been a great day cos other den going for tuition, i spent the whole day at home!!!!!! :D woohooo im damn happy!! slacking and nwahing totally rawks my life at this pt of time! haha and i slept a whole 4hrs this noon.. wake up just nice watched pirates on ch5 and eat dinner and NWAH. wahahahah life's good =P

oh. was browsing thru seventeen mag with pw during lunch ytd and i saw this vry familiar face den we're lke "!!! isnt tt tim (gina's)?? omg its reli him!" lols wad a surprise to see his face in de mag! hahahaha damn funny lah.. his response to de interview qn was so intellectual tt pw was lke "he got so intellectual one meh!!" LOL. so fun to familiar faces in mags =P

okok enuff of crap. back to theory.




another happy day spent with goldie and ahwen! :)) although they kinda took shifts... haa well my dear ms lai sent at an sms at a totally unearthly time of 5.18am asking if she cld meet us in town at noon instead.. obvly she hasnt slept at 5.18am -_- yup so just me and ahgold meeting at clementi and off to orchard we go! :D

reli suuuper long nv go town loh!! im feeling like a cavewoman alr :( shopped at far east and went to taka for lunch.. omu rice!!! yum yummm ^^ den peiwen came and goldie gtg.. :(( den we went back to far east cos peiwen's itching to shop der too. lols.

oh oh. gold was looking at this bag den der was this 100% bimbotic pink-colored heart-shaped handbag with lace linings just beside. one look and de only immediate comment i cld give was tt "wah peiwen CONFIRM like this. its totally her" and when i went to far east with peiwen and we walked -not even NEAR. just TOWARDS only- the shop, the bimbo beside me was alr euphorically going "omg so cute!!!!!!" and she advanced towards tt spot super quickly. that was it. i knew she was referring to that bag. HA peiwen i noe u too well. u cant hide anything from me muahahha!!!! so u better treat me well OR ELSE!!! lols :P

ok so i roamed far east twice today but i STILL cldnt find any nice clothes!!! im super super sad! so in de end oni bought those little bits here and der and belts.. hurrr. so much for wanting to get boyfriend shirt.. which reminds me of wad funny peiwen said.

me: i wan to find boyfriend shirt!
peiwen: ohh!!!!! i wan to buy boyfriend also!!! :D:D:D
me: =| *buy bf??* .. =O!!! i also wan to buy boyfriend!!!! lets go!! i still got 20bucks!! lets see wad kinda bf we can buy!

-__-"

hahaha poor chan. dun feel too sad when u see this ok. lols. anyhoo we both din manage to find any nice ones.. and i reckoned those few tt look reli great on mannequins will prolly look horrid on me so i just passed them. ha i shall take to spreeing for this case =P

speaking of spreeing, monster's cousin just opened a new online store! the dresses are rather sweet so girls, no harm taking a look yah? might just find sth u like! :)) click
here! and
here for her other site :)

personally, think de dresses are reli quite nice.. but they're too char bo. LOL. oh noooooo must be i "hun" with skyler ppl too long.. hahaha according to peiwen lols :P but seriously, they're reli too char bo for me! brrrrrr!!


shagged.

i cldnt stand my hair today so i just pulled them back with a hairband.. FIRST TIME wear hairband to sch loh -.-" think i'll be staying with tt look for quite some time... :((
[cantabile] until my hair grows back~~~~

spent quite a while at de florist's thinking of wad flowers to get for my mom's bday.. got white lilies in de end. they BETTER be nice loh!! if they're not........ O_O i kill you!!!!

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doodled this sometime ago in dev psy lect.. no prize for guessing correctly which's the one i drew =P


went to cafe iguana with my 2 darlings.. aka:



and our old fren frankie happens to be working der.. hahaha thnx for de free chips! =P alright shall let the pics do de talking..


my drink and peiwen's. hers is the tiny choc one. totally kena cheated can. lols


:))

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then we started taking retarded photos..


which made us realise peiwen cant do cross eye at all LOL


just for laughs~


she bully me!! x(


... but we still love each other! <3 must be the power of my PRINGLES!!!


:))

din go home too late cos nth much to do.. gina had to leave early so it was just me and peiwen (sians.. !@#$% *LOL jk :P*). as can tell, gina's reli quite chui-ed. stupid nie!!!!! >=( hahaha okok. tts de life of us students lah huh.. was nice to meet up with them though! makes me miss pj days all over again :( and makes me wonder where de hell did tcm take my dear michelle to.. she's been mia-ing for nearly a year!!! x(

ohwells. cheers to better days ahead~! :)


love u girls! meet up soon again ok? ^^ *huggs!*


totally ... on msn. very very tired, but i sorta just drank de he ji tang [black chicken soup] my mom specially bought so yah.. haf a feeling i shldnt slp so soon after downing tt =x

hp200 test today totally sucked!! was still happy-bompipi abt it when we're outside de lt waiting to go in cos seemed to be quite sure of de stuff.. den go in 1st surprise -or rather, SHOCK- came when ringo said sth abt shading the OMR for mcq.. everyone was lke "huh!!! MCQ?!?!!" well ok we shldnt haf assumed der werent gonna be any cos he din tell us abt de format.. but having mcq in a stats test was totally !!! its gonna be so concept-based which spells B-A-D cos i oni noe how to calculate =x

ended up i was so dizzy-fied by de 22mcqs tt i forgot how to calculate stupid SS for de str qns!! GRRRRR. sai sai sai!! and its not lke de rest of my answers looked damn convincing.... :((

ok i shall pray to whichever-god-tt's-still-awake before i slp later.

haircut was ... omg. i did rmbr i said trim. -_- its reli. SUPER. short. hurr. so much for wanting to keep long hair :(

went bugis street after tt with the thought of buying white shorts. to sum it up, i just went back to de 1st store i stepped into after walking arnd de whole place and finally deciding tt de 1st one was best. -_- waste my ATPs..

but i met ahgold der!!!!! i was lke anyhow stumbling arnd liao den i bumped into her outside this shop!! hohohooooo we're such FATED-AHGOLDS *eyebrow smiley* haha anw, hope ahgold's not sad anymore!! must rmbr to look at de positive side of things ok!! its not all that bad :)) show me ur so-bright-so-bright smile ahgold!!! xD

went to watch L after tt.. finally. haha anyhoo, L's still as entertaining as ever. wad with the way he types (esp with tt SUPER LOL and retarded mask on) and how he TRIED to stand straight... he's much better off crouched than unnaturally straight. seriously. lols.

im so gonna slack this weekend off cos my tests are FINALLY over!!! time for short break before we start on hp202 and hp200 projs. hurrr think of it also sian =/ bah heck. gonna take this weekend off first =P

tut tmr.. hope my tutor doesnt address me as "deborah" again. its alr past half the sem!!! x( do i look so much lke a deborah??

gd thing i'll be hanging out with 2 of my darlings tmr nite. i miss them :)


stats suck STATS SUCK stats suck!

TOTALLY! ABSOLUTELY!! >=(

doesnt help tt i nid to noe how to read the stupid spss output which is totally greek to me.. urghhh cant wait for this sem to be over xS

'snot lke today's test was great either. hur why do i always nid to feel lke i reli nid to rely on moderation :( lousy lousy!!

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in the mood of catching back my long-lost taiwan dramas again lols. sudd miss poring over my fav celebrities!! wahahahaha *fa hua chi* but i think tt's gotta wait again.. sais. i so dun lke this sem loh :(

..but at least i'll settle many things and get them done and over with. so HOPEFULLY next sem it'll be more or less just studies and band..

my my. this sem better be over fast enuff. i wanna taste my hols again xD

oh did i mention i nid some retail therapy again? i dun wanna get myslf started on spreeing online. i noe how addictive AND destructive tt is. lols

right. haircut tmr. pleeeease let it be good! x(

gone.


taken on concert day! :)


the pretty pretty french horn player - my ahgold! :))


and my erm.. oh. BROTHERS who came to lend their support! :D


:]

still waiting for section and band photos!

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its been freezing cold these few days!! and the rain doesnt seem to be subsiding.. :(( stop tempting me to cont slping can!! makes me just wanna remain curled up in the fuzzy warmth under my blanket covers.. so niceeee~~~~~~~~

and for a short while, i seem to be re-entering the fantasy world again. thinking back to younger times where the young sagittarian cld just clamour for the attention she wans without looking lke an attention-seeking idiot, to more-or-less do things tt she like becos der's reli lotsa time, and eating all her fav unhealthy foods without even thinking they're unhealthy and fattening becos she nv seemed to be able to gain even a gram from downing roti prata..

no im not exhibiting body nostalgia. i just duno why im sudd reminiscing the very carefree childhood days. and in the middle of test preparation somemore. hur wad great timing..

but den again, with respect to the last 2 points, its not like a lot has changed. im still doing things that i like, just tt this time round time's not reli on my side. and its not lke im actively refraining from my fav foods now. der's just abt 5secs more of the de thinking part tt its unhealthy and im subconsciously willing to pile up on the flab. most of the time, the effects of thought do show and i manage to resist opening tt damned fridge. but sometimes i just shake tt thought out and eat becos (back to the 2nd point) i like it :D

ok VERY bad. sometimes its not that good to be so much of a heart-over-mind person in this context huh?

yes so for now i'll just switch to the mind-over-heart mode for a while; to get back to my studies and do wad im supposed to do, instead of satisfying my blogging thirst and unwittingly wasting precious time away. the test is tmr my dear!!!!


feeling tired and just wanna space out.. heh but as always, will blog the stuff down before they're wiped clean from my mind. haf very short-term memory ya see. not an active thinker. lols

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ntusb sojourn 2008!!!

my first local concert with ntusb :))) (come to think of it, my first ever concert with them was in JAPAN!! omg. wooohoooo~~) reported at 10am to help shift de instruments to vch.. but kinda skived off a bit cos we fluties went down to buy waffles halfway thru =P well anw, quite a lot of labour ytd! *flexes muscles* i feel so gymed. lols

well rehearsal was okAy lah. as usual, lotsa tuning problems on my side and to make things worse, mr oura arranged for some trumpters to sit just behind me so i cldnt myslf at all for some pieces =/ ohwell.

and we totally missed lunch!! >=( duno why but somehow we just missed it.. :( yup so my stomach was contributing a bit to de tuning problems all de way til 5+pm. took section photos, lamed arnd with fluties and the nicenice daisies weiseng gave, den it was concert proper. problems here and der but still, hope it wasnt too bad for de audience! :)) main thing was to enjoy and i guess we all did lah huh? yup cheers to sojourn'08 and an even better one in '09!! :D

and thanks to skyler and golds for coming down to support! :D and of cos for the flowers! one's reli gd cos it can be kept until de end of time and de other.. well, not tt nice-smelling but its not ur fault i noe and i reli appreciate the gesture :)) thanks to all!!!

super long day, super chui... but as usual, still got abt 15% energy left for supper. haha yup went to lau pat sat for de reli-not-vry-nice supper and went to tcc meet skyler ppl so i can also share cab home =P got home at 130am and totally collapsed lahhh. let me emphasise again tt i was reli SUUUUUUUUUUPER tired.. -.-

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oh. this concert was also one of the more special ones i've played in. mainly cos of monastery garden! :D the pipe organ was used and there were vocals.. well piano was included in some other pieces as well. ok lah i vry swa ku nv play in band with piano accompaniment before.. so it was quite "new" to me! :D and also some other pieces which brought lotsa new stuffs to my ears and generally new experiences for me. like, flutter tonguing. lol. yup sojourn`08 is definitely gonna be very memorable for me. hope i'll cont to learn more from this band in the years ahead! :))

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tuition early morning at 9am. imagine the zombie tutor who went to teach... she was totally chui can. but luckily tt also meant she was automatically numb to any level of nonsense and irritation from the tutee so it was still ok. she survived! :]

well anw, din feel de best when i woke up this morning =S haha alright kinda duh lah cos have been quite tired out both physically and mentally recently.. well anyhoo, wanted to postpone music theory to tmr but cldnt find a nice timing for everyone so just arghhhh stick with today lah. had some difficulty getting out of my nap though =x

jamming was as waste-time as recent previous ones.. but i like the guitar solos and harmonizing for weekend :) esp half-tempoed weekend! :D hahha well but i guess we reli nid a goal sometime soon huh...

went to suntec for "dinner" and had pastamania again. well talked abt some rather "touchy" stuff and maybe tts wads accounting for my stoic-ness now..

BUT im reli not in the thinking mode now (yah i noe i haven been accessing tt mode for a gazillion years but when i wan to think i can reli think one ok. lol) so yup gonna push tt matter to de back of my head first and concentrate on my prioritised-priorities: grade5, hp202 test, hp200 test, and hp203 report. thank god der's no band prac these 2 weeks (not tt i dun like band prac) so at least i haf 2 more free evenings for rev and hopefully more me-time. and that, is my only probable consolation for now as well.

ok so its been 2 very long days and another loooong week gone by very quickly so recess week is just gone like that *snaps fingers*. cheers to happier times ahead~~

i... am so KO-ed.


the only way to love anything is to realise it might be lost.

i like this sentence. simple, yet meaningful. kudos to tim's blogskin creator for adding that phrase in :)

was reading his very "patriotic" post abt tt terrorist and der's this sentence "dun think it wont happen to u". god its so psychology-ish it just reminded me i shld seriously drill those theories into my head before i become a goner. and with regards to tt sentence, its this thing called "belief in a just world", where ppl have this impression/mindset tt bad things only happen to bad ppl, and since they themselves are not that stupid or careless, bad stuff wont happen to them. ohwells. i guess everyone's guilty of this mindset bit here and der huh? just dun drown urslf in tt kinda fantasy world too much. not healthy. and obviously not too wise. lols.

annnnnd the big day's tmr! i hope i wont screw up too much.. right. just do ur best! most impt thing is to enjoy it huh? :))

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took the first step to being more appreciative of wad ppl did for me. started saying "thank you".. i guess it wasnt tt difficult afterall :) well ok fine i din say it. oni wrote it out.. but beats doing nth right? hehs. ok im off.