heh hEh indulging in cadbury's drinking chocolate while im blogging.. yummm so nice!! =)) haha havent been eating choc for quite long cos scared get sorethroat and all tt.. so think this can of choc powder came at de right time eh? ;) alright its food again. think i gotta start banning them cos im getting fatter by the min. and no i dnt sae im fat. im getting fat. yeah get it right =]

anw, supposed to meet up with ntss frens todae but dnt.. seems lke our timings sudd all clash =X supposed to go swimming arnd evening too but also dnt cos of de weather.. bahhh sad sia everything cancelled =( ohwell. at least i got 4hrs of slp. hehe shld be studying since dismissed early rite.. ehhh time for a break lah. i nid more slp!! =P okie tonight study more.

speaking of study, went to study at teck whye mac with punjabi, muthu and hidayat. lol they're peiwen matthew and huidong respectively lah. "x" lke got no __ name start with it so i dun haf any nick =P ok getting a bit cold here. anw, we seriously cant study tgt!! kept laughing and suaning pw and hd.. xP lol vry unproductive ytd lah. only did a tiny bit of wad im supposed to do.. and i guess it applies to the other few too =( bleahs tonight must reli study more!

had teachers' day celebration todae.. yups so wanna wish all my teachers a very happy teachers' day!! =D hope u all enjoy ur small little break cos its so hard to come by nowadays isnt it? *nods in agreement* =P anw, dnt get to meet all my trs todae to wish dem.. too many ppl crowding arnd! can find a few vry gd liao..

anw, gina dnt come todae! =( hope she gets well soon real soon cos exams coming! must take care k! =D

ok lah shall blog until here for todae. haf been slping til 6+ and now im still not studying. gotta work hard! =D


ohhhwooowwwwweee sashimi again!! hohohoho little did i noe my mom'll bring me to sakuraya: sashimi house for dinner again! =D hehehe she won lottery last night.. not a lot but, sufficient for a feast! =D lols how fortunate am i~~ xD

arghhh so angry i cant put de pics up! took some pics of de amazing food while i was eating.. they look so yummy i bet ppl'll salivate! =P lol joking lah. obvly not as gd as de real stuff rite?? *lol as u can tell, im reli high now*

wanted to save money again lah so just wanted to order my favourite sashimi and chawanmushi and some other side orders and tt'll make a meal.. but my mom was generous again! haha i wonder if i'll ever get to enjoy this kinda dunworryjustEAT! feelings again =P

warning! some context may cause salivation, trigger off hunger or other impulsive acts (eg. buying sushi immediately)
...annnddd... my mom looked at de menu, asked de waitress to explain some jap terms, and went on and on with her order tt im amazed too. heh only 2 of us eating anw rite? okie okie back to main pt. she ordered salmon maki, soft-shell crab maki, tamago sushi, 2 chawanmushi, 1 huge bowl of wafu salad, [mydarling] salmon sashimi and 2 sticks of some roasted chicken meat. =| de list may not seem lke its a lot but, trust me, when the dishes come its lke 0_0 heh but we managed to clear off everything in the end!! yaayyy no wastage =P

1st dish was our chawanmushi... omg its lke suuuuperrrr nice!!! x) the top layer is sliced mushrooms, after tt is one big chunk of chicken meat, den 2 halves of prawn, and one HUGE slice of tt white-fishmeat-thingy-with-pink-whirls. omigosh its the huge-st slice i've ever seen! its lke they just cut de thing in half and dumped it in my chawanmushi =X ohwell de pic's not here lah. so guess its not as shocking. ok move on..

next was wafu salad! wasnt reli interested lah.. lke bring me to jap restaurant ask me eat vegetables??? L-O-L haha but it was alright. quite nice acheli! =) sth lke appetiser bah.. yups had fun squeezing de lemon =P

next up's MY salmon sashimi!! weehehe finally. yup so i prepared my huge scoop of wasabe, poured soy sauce, dipped salmon into it and put it into my mouth! wahaha imagine the satisfaction of eating ur all-time fav food.. all i can sae is yum yummm!! lol omg im salivating while blogging =X oops sorrie sorrie. hehe yeah every bite of sashimi made me smile lke some siao.. but i dun care! it just gives me tt feeling of paradise~ wahaha ok enuff of sashimi.

*drum roll*... and then we have de salmon maki, tamago sushi and soft-shell crab maki!! wahaha all up le. although salmon maki has salmon in it, i still prefer sashimi! tts the only dish where i can feel the salmon taste dominating my entire mouth~ xD salmon maki not bad lah but, sashimi still best!! lols ok enuff is enuff.

the tamago sushi was vry wow cos the tamago reli super thick!! unlike those we buy from edo sushi.. oni one slice rite? here lke 2-3 slices combined tgt to give u one tamago! heeee vry worth de money hor? =P

initially found de soft-shell crab maki a bit weird cos used to eating soft-shell crab on its own.. but its nice even with sesame-rice wrapped arnd it! =D my stomach was filled to the top after all de prev dishes but i just crammed the last dish in! 1stly dun wanna waste food 2ndly dowan waste money and 3rdly why reject such delicacy?? wahaha so im sucha "full and happy" soul now i think i'll even dream of tt meal later =P

oh and wads jap food w/o a few servings of authentic green tea and the alsogreen wasabe?? hehe had so much of both my mom tot i addicted to wasabe or sth =X im not! think it just goes super well with most jap food.. esp salmon sashimi!!! haha alright i better not start.

alright its been a super long entry abt food. made myslf swear i'll blog all these dwn before anything else =P haha also duno why. maybe "raking" up de subj again will make me recall the satisfaction i got from de meal? hehe alright im still kinda high. omg sashimi sashimi sashimi!! =P


sometimes i just find it so hard to interpret what others are thinking. u think u're right, i think im right, and the disagreement starts. i wish u cld've understood why i said/did tt and u wish i cld understand u too. why is it so diff to trash things out sometimes? why is it tt we want to, but did not in de end? troublesome? "she wldnt understand anw"? im not sure too.. i want things to work out fine in de end but i noe it wont if we cont this. things may seem fine after a few moments of silence but u and i both noe, they're not. the perception we have of each other, tt she wont understand u even if u said it, tt she'll stand by her perception and not accept urs, tt she wont listen, tt i'll just save my breath instead of telling her abt sth she "wont know anw", will cont to exist. tts wad i feel anw. i reli want things to work out fine... but they're not. who doesnt want perfect relationships where both parties understand each other and compromise, listen to each other and can speak their minds w/o wondering if u'll be understood at all? i want tt too.. but i duno why it cant be built. maybe im just the bad guy who's stubborn, have attitude problems, wont listen to others and expect everything to go my wae. maybe im a spoilt brat in ur eyes. but i just want u to noe tt i do respect ur opinions and i do listen. i want to help but u said i wldnt be able to do a gd job. how will i noe how if u dun even give me de chance to try it out? i duno.. im just sick of this happening every now and then. and stress is just taking its toll on me. its not tt i dun wan to respond to u or give one-word ans. i hope u understand tt im reli tired and almost on de verge of breaking. sometimes ppl just dun feel lke talking. and it just so happened tt whn u come home, im lke tt. i assure u its purely coincidental. i dun mean it.


sch todae was quite alright.. heh rmbred abt todae's test just last night =X lucky study almost-finish alr if not sure zero-knowledge.. anw, ms toh told us quite a lot abt uni and all tt! hee so nice. budden also made known to me tt local unis reli vry unpredictable.. reli hard to tell whether u can get in anot cos they dun reli state de criteria. so sad lah.. now i dun even noe if i can get in even if i get superb grades =( and from wad she said, i dun even noe if i want tt course cos career prospects arent reli... "attractive"? hmms duno leh.. now i feel more lost than ever. used to think tt as long as i get de grades, i'll get my ass in and tt'll at least settle one problem. but now? i dun even noe if i'll even get the interview/wadever with triple A.. haix why singapore lidat one???? ohwell wad can i do. just study hard loh...

assembly was quite meaningful todae.. hee like dennis yeo's talks a lot. so motivating! haha at least to me lah.. =) also duno why leh. just think tt wad he said're logical and all tt.. at least makes sense mah rite? =) anw, maths rem cancelled todae! hee yups so went home early and had more time to prepare before going out.. ehh i not going out to play k. xP

finally got wad i wanted todae! xD oh mann i dnt noe they're so impt to me tt life's reli hard w/o them. =] anw, they're mine now! hehe so tts gd. met mom after tt and went to eat at crystal jade kitchen.. heh unexpected also hor? just lke ytd.. anw, i was seriously at a lost as to wad to order cos the menu was so super-wordy from top to bottom and from left to right. see liao will o_0 heh so de waitress waited quite a while lah. in de end i see until pek cek den just "aiyah anything lah" so my mom ordered for me -.- wad a waste of time eh.

anw, she wanted to order abalone noodle for me. 0_0 super shocking. and for de 1st time, i dnt concede to de idea. *haha wow~~* thought it was reli ex and not worth de money.. and i think they'll just give a few slices of abalone rite? yeah so dnt reli sae anything... but since i said "anything", she ordered it. =| ok fine. but turns out there're no more abalone so, phew. i just saved 14bucks for her~~ lol.

super full after dinner.. walked arnd de mall and wanted to buy some clothes but not reli tt "in" to them.. shall wait for bugis street! kekes. right so tts for todae.. so slpy lah! also duno why.. slpt on wae back from sch, slpt on wae from home, nearly fell down whn i was stand-slping to raffles, and bumped my head on window as i slpt on de seat from raffles. -.- heh think tt bump was quite loud.. a few ppl acheli looked at me =X i duno. was listening to ipod. ahhh wadever lah. u all wont see me again anw rite =P hee ok tts all. shall slp early and wake up early tmr and start pia-ing! 2 days of slacking is enuff..... i hope =P nono. they ARE enuff. *nods determinedly* lols..


spent an absolutely-wonderful 8.5hrs with ntss frens todae!! =D heee ate at sakae sushi for lunch.. so unexpected!! heh heh and so i finally got my fav dose of salmon~ =))) lols and also lotsa other good food lke chawanmushi, soft-shell crab and of cos, wasabe!! haha had sucha satisfying meal todae.. yummmmmss~~~ =P

heh almost forgot abt de birthday cake after our meal =X guess we ate too much. der're lke abt 15 plates stacked at de side? not a lot but, if u haf a 30cm cake to stuff in after tt, its acheli a lot alr =S heh but we rmbr-ed at the critical moment lah, and made a great deal of noise singing de birthday songs =P *we're quite noisy since we stepped in lah so it dnt reli make a big diff =X* hehe aiyah ppl birthday must happy right?? lol..

took neoprints after tt!! =)) haha our fav pastime sia.. it was reli super funny and energizing! laughed so much betwn de shots and during decorating.. and we took 2 times at 2 diff machines =X heh a bit "fanatic" eh.. anw, de pics were gd! =D hehe love going out with this bunch. took some shots using bel's cam and px's new phone~~ some samsung business phone.. super cool! got touch screen.. ok im digressing. pics were nice too. and she sent some to me via boo-tooth lol. ps. the wae she speak can go fight with peiwen liao =P

went to cine kbox after tt!! hehehe. but neh-neh dnt join us cos she sick and dowan go air-con place... must take care k!! =D yup so left jacq bel px zt and me. haha sang lke siao just now.. lol think we kinda pro lah. sing no nid mic one esp for the super-high songs lke steph's first day, she's tong kuai, superstar, xing guang.. haha so fun to sing with them. heh but one paiseh part is tt we were standing on de sofa whn tt person walk past n ask us to sit dwn =X oops hehe too high liao sorrie =P

arnd de end also sang a few oldies lke guo huo and guan huai fang shi etc. lol they're lke songs whn we're arnd kindergarten or pri4?? super long ago le.. but still nice! =] haha yups had a reli enjoyable time todae! hee thnx gals~~ yeah so im reli de-stressed after todae. and also vry energetic! =D lol but one "sao3 xing4" thing is tt no money to buy clothes lah.. saw this reli nice top and pants at cine!! but no money buy... booooo. nvm lah go bugis village search better... hehehe =P

okie getting late and still got bio tys qns to do! logging off now.. =]


had quite a happy dae! were telling lotsa stupid stuff and lame jokes during pe with gina peiwen mich and keefe loke.. and maths test was quite alright. sports day after de test.. haha darwin got 2nd!! lols. cheered and screamed alot just now. hopefully tmr still got voice cos going kbox~~ =P

went to lot1 eat prata with pw just now.. and met gina and tim! lol tim tried to scare me from behind while i was waiting for prata but i dnt feel the shock =X heh try harder next time k =P anw, laughed a lot during dinner! hee just so happy whenever these girls are arnd me.. =D!

ok tmr NO SCHOOL! keke shall be kbox-ing while others are at sch.. wahaha feels great =P okok gtg le.. cyaa~


im dying! headaches, pimples, bad moods. they're all coming at one go. hw piling up, lagging behind my rev schedule, and tests every now and then. all these are just drilling me so hard i cant take it much longer. whn bad luck comes ur wae, everything goes bad. its true. my ipod got some stupid error with godknowswad reason, i cant reformat it now cos i hafta use my fren's comp, and schedule's packed so tightly its hard to find time for slp. this is just so irritating. dennis yeo is right. whn will this be OVER???

i want to slp. i want to slp. i want to slp. a slpy person is an angry person. just getting irritable abt everything arnd me, even things lke why is the water so far awae from me?? still hafta walk to get it. argh irritating! why cant everything be within one-arm's stretch???

ok it'll be reli packed then. really packed.

alright i shld just stop complaining again and get back to my work. i noe im noisy [xP to gina michelle and peiwen] but tts only sometimes ok =P lol ok. study~~

maths test tmr. wish me the best of luck. on many issues, i think i noe but acheli i duno. think its the same case this time round. it was for chem test. score sth near "egg" which is just so shitty. so pls wish me luck. i think i'll nid it. a lot. thank you.


another day at home but im not feeling entirely bored. went down for breakfast with my mom and had a satiating meal! =)) hehe ate my fav roti prata kosong and with egg and also one puttu mayam.. yum yum. lke a lot hor? but acheli not super-full after tt lah.. just nice~ =D haha i love the feeling of having my stomach filled up to the right level =P

accompanied mom to market florist to buy soil for our plants.. duno why dying! must be some evil soul who added some chemical to the 2 new pots.. *eyes evil person* canot be today green tmr wilted rite! overnight somemore.. argh irritating! xO ok back to topic. saw this cute-cute plant at the side of de stall.. and realised its acheli a chilli plant!! haha the chillis reli super cute.. aiyah cant upload the pics here. but still, they're lke abt the length of 3/4 (or 1/2 if u have long fingers *ok fine my finger short can*) of ur little finger.. think is chilli padi bah. hee reli cute! most of them still unripe and green but abt 5 red alr.. and the red is reli red! vry bright color.. so nice! =D haha alright and so i asked the stallholder how much it costs den he sae 7, but can give me discount: 5bucks -.- waahh uncle ur chilli a bit ex ar.. (my mom sae can buy at arnd 3bucks.. i duno =X) was still considering whn he just put the plant inside a plastic bag for me =X ok so i guess he tot i wanted to buy it. ohwell. fated. its miNe! =D

heh heh still kinda excited abt my chilli plant. studied a bit, den break tt time watched this food show on ch8.. lol super funny lah the ppl der! they're featuring taiwan's spicy steamboat and jap's guan1 dong1 zhu3. duno whether u've heard of de jap one before but, omg the spicy steamboat reli add a lot of chilli eh! lke no nid money lidat.. they put in lke one huge POT of belachan-like chilli den add in one big scoop of chilli powder AND most-spicy-on-earth chilli-capsicums!! o-m-g how can ppl acheli tahan all these =S budden de end-product looked reli yummy lah hehehe =P oh den de jap one also vry nice!! duno how to sae lah but de chef quite funny.. lol. bleah tt stupid show made me hungry even though it's just after my lunch.. =( de food looks reli tasty! im gonna try them one dae.. heh heh heh.

ok its dinner time and i ordered the new cheesy bites pizza!! =DD hehehe and it just arrived.. omg cant wait! shall go eat now.. after tt den study lah ok =P


another quick week has passed yet again.. hmm had 2 tests consecutively on wed and thurs =X not reli well-done but hopefully can pass loh.. haix another stressful week! and we're constantly updated on the countdowns to prelims and As... urgh irritating but, tts sadly reality.

studied in sch til 8 todae.. lol many funny things happened lah. tiring dae cos slpt arnd 3 last night =X ehh but i slpt in de noon ytd lah so still quite alright.. but morning wake up lke -.- hehs.

ok sudd haf nth to sae. fir songs still top in my list for now; listening to them over and over again. nid lotsa slp, rest, gd nutritious food. looking vry vry forward to next thurs: polling day hol fiNaLLy came, celebrating jacq's and px's bdae, and KBOX-ING!! wahaha all the fun and enjoyment comes on tt dae. supposed to be stay-home-study dae but, its been reli long since everyone gathered tgt and its been super long since we went kbox. hehe just take it as a break for us lah.. poly exams will also be over too!! =D hehe yeah time for celebration~ =P

ok the -.- has reli set in.. wonder if i shld do my work tonight. reli tired.. hmm shall see how after my shower lah =]


long time no blog! hmm now kinda happy. lol also duno why =P just took back my ipod and fir cd from yuhui.. hee now listening to songs from my fav grp! =D yeah f.i.r's cd absolutely ROCKS!! =P hehehe think their flight tribe album vry gd.. some songs maybe 1st time hear not so nice but listen to it again and i think u'll find them good =))

was watching superband finals repeat just now.. last sat i got some dinner so missed it! heh but watch now also same lah, just a bit lag oni =P hee lke j3's jazz version of xiao wei a lot.. think its superb! =D but i still support milubing! =D hehe rAwk on guys~ ;) and after tt was ndp`06 repeat.. heh just wanted to watch de marching band part. miss marching band so much!! miss all those daes in ntMb so much.. especially static! oooh those gd old daes~~ *nostalgic* =P

anw, celebrated mich's birthday ytd! well not much of a celebration.. but hope she lkes the present and all those anw! =D happy 18th birthday miCh!!! =)

hmm well tts all i can rmbr abt ytd for now.. hmm this week abit sian but nvm! tmr will be a better day! =D lol so "sunshine" eh =P anw, ytd dnt go for night study cos vry tired and wanted to slp.. so came home early. but i dnt slp =| listened to fir cd instead.. hee think i'll prefer music to rest for awhile =] yup so i was indulging in their music for abt 1-2hrs.. den after tt went to yuhui's hse to charge and upload ipod.. heh so tts abt 4hrs of no study in all =X and so i pia-ed at night till almost fainted.... heh i dnt lah. but obvly mood will get worse and worse as ur brain gets more n more saturated rite... so i went to bed feeling all grumpy and sick of life and everything. -.- ha and i duno why im talking abt this. nvm! feeling nice and happy whn i woke up cos got superband~~ =P okok enuff of me and my indulgences. time to start work!

sth i read on a forum just now made me feel.... hmm anxious? although i said tt i've given up hope, maybe i havent given up all hope? maybe there's still a small part of me still clinging on to de hope tt i'll get thru somehow, by miracle or pure luck. maybe.... i shld stop thinking so much. lke i said, it is over..


bahh feeling so.. hmm. groggy now? *ha is there even such a word? =S* sorta disappointed and upset even though its sorta expected. trying to look on the bright side but the realistic side just takes over.. well guess if its not meant to be, its not meant to be. shall not dwell too much on it... hopefully. bahh i noe i'll get over it soon once the fact tt its over sets in. shall just let myslf stone and stay mum for now. just feel lke being alone and not talking to anyone and just keeping quiet, sitting dwn and doing nth. so sorrie yuhui, for not talking much just now. just dun feel lke it..

anw, woke up early in the morning [at 5.15AM =O] to go sch to prepare for band performance. zzzz it was so dark whn i arrived at cck tt i cldnt even see lot1 and even stopped at the train door for a sec to see if im at the correct stop -.- ohwell. guess its quite rare tt i'll ever get up so "bright" and early to go sch, so i'll just take it as a gd opportunity lah k =] *wah sooo optimistic -.-*

haha during the performance christine's class was standing so freaking near tt she cld just chat with her classmates freely.. lol funny lah. anw, de celebration was kinda sian until the end where everyone sang the songs.. haha abit more high during the songs part lah so felt a bit "singapore" =P but it sorta wore off quite quickly.. heh ok tts all crap.

yup so tts todae.. abit more on the sad side lah but, life goes on! wadever sad events are alr a thing of the past, so they're not worth wasting my time over. yup at least one "distraction"'s out of my head! now can concentrate more on my studies.. chiong chiong chiong! =D

anw, thnx to all those ppl with the encouraging words! esp my ahbond, monster, peiwen and gina! =D thnx for having so much belief in me and helping me find the "raw materials".. hee reli thnx lots! =D even though cant make it but still feel very glad tt u're all on my side =) love u girls to the max!! *huggs~!*


another week has passed! oh no... reli slacking too much! and so mani events just popped up sudd =S ok gonna go all the wae after this "big" event is over.. national day hols? bleah hw daes lah~

my 3 big worries now are probably bio essays, bio opt and chem opt =X omigod if i screw up these 3 i might as well dun do my As. hopefully i'll clear all of dem asap! its just so scary to be weak in these 3 major aspects.. xinyi, pls work hard!!

going to sa band concert later.. im so sure its gonna be terrific! =D but think it'll end quite late and by the time i get home, it'll be reli late. and tmr's sch dae =| ok so maybe i shld get some slp now? hmm.