haha cao ge's songs made my dae!!! lol think he reli rOcks!!! hehe finally managed to bring his cd home... feel so happy todae!! =DDD all thnx to me mom who sponsored me 10bucks =X well anw, im in crazy mode again, just lke de previous time whn i was crazy abt jjlin.. haha think i still am lah but now got new one... cao ge!!!!

lol alright i better stop before ppl get totally put off. watched xmen3 ytd with ahgold and ken! =)) hehe quite nice... but i dnt reli sense de climax part la =X ok maybe i a bit lag but.. haha quite alright lah overall =)) well at least tts one movie off my list! ;)

had college dae band performance todae... not bad! just tt it was reli reli hot throughout de whole thing from morning til evening. haix but kinda sad lah... last dae in band le!! =(((( todae's our last performance too... wasnt tt gd but doesnt reli matter... gonna miss all de band peeps and performances and de laughters and my flute a lot!! guess all gd things do come to an end huh? =( well nvm. hopefully it wont be de last time i play flute in my life... hehe.

okie so tts 2 happy daes in a row [pls exclude de last-dae-in-band part =X] oh yah. saw junyang's cd todae!!! =D heh heh im gonna bring tt cd back soon.. hopefully lah =P still pondering abt fanyicheng's and tank's... maybe i'll buy? kekex. shall see! =D

ps: cao ge rAwks!!! ;)


ok i realised im in such deep shit cos ive got sooooo much hw.. again. tuts done and finished and i haven even started mine =X oh crap this is bad. gotta mug!!

well anw, ytd's event was sg idol auditions i guess.. haha it was reli superbly entertaining. lol brought so much laughter to my family lah.. and reminiscents of some of de auditions in sch also made us laughed a lot. typically the nong nong ago..., the "careless whisperer" with a barely audible voice, the flyyy-aii-aii-aii.. and many more. lols...

anw, todae quite a gd dae lah. laughed a lot during our last break... hahaha guess lotsa happy funny moments recently.. tts gd! =D lol love my sistas so much for bringing so much laughter to my life =))

alright break time's up. back to my ever-huge-pile-of-hw!


hee all's well todae!! =)) well maybe exclude de maths test lah huh... it was lke total shit. =X anw, lessons're alrite. band was more than alrite. haha yeah had quite a fun dae! had so many laughs during band with my section, with gold mbr, and with other band peeps. sudd love band so much!! *<3!!* think i'll miss band reli-a-lot after i leave.. even though it'll be slightly better for now cos can spend lesser time in sch =X

ok shall not get "emotional" =P xmen3's gonna be out so soon!! cant wait cant wait.. and feel lke watching da vinci too.. who wan watch??? =P hee read 8day's movie junkie guide and realised tt pirates of de caribbean2 will be out in july. i cant wait!!!!! 've been looking forward to this for lke eons.. hee im sure its gonna be great. dun miss it!! =P

alrite tt's de movie junkie me again.

its another friday again! and its 7days to gp paper.... oh mann time just passes so fast. imagine taking and finishing the mid-yrs... prelims.. As... and enter ur [hopefully] dream course in uni in the blink of an eye... haha okay me and my imagination~ but seriously hope i'll do better in midyr... lke who dun want to do better rite?? yeah tt includes me lah of course.

ohwell come to think of it, jc's ending soon... maybe if i look back one dae i'll find tt it forms a vry "memorable" part of my life not just cos of de studies and frens made, but perhaps also changes made to my life permanently.. i've realised so many things can actually happen in sucha short span of time. lke within a min, a supposedly-good rshp just collapses and everything changes.. forever? hmm guess there're just too many "surprises" in life to anticipate.. not tt im anticipating this change but, haha nvm....


my maths test tmr is totally screwed up!! guess i duno how to apply bah... just dun haf de feeling or confidence tt i'll "conquer" de test tmr... gosh i hate this kinda feeling.

hmm recently kinda no mood to study and all tt... wonder why. think vry tired le bah.. and quite a lot of things still happening at home. so many thinking qns.. der's gonna be some major changes i guess. well, i dun reli lke changes.. but guess i'll just haf to comply bah.. oh well. i'll noe whn de time comes.


came back kinda late todae but its alright.. had sucha great time out todae!!! *hAppiEeeeeee* met up with jacq bel and vern after band.. think im late? haha think again! im acheli de 1st to reach der even though i was late for 10mins.. lol as usual lah xP anw, had sucha nice chat with this bunch of old frens! miss dem so much... and laughed a lot [yes even at vry cold jokes] with them. just enjoyed de evening so much! =D haha thnx my dear gals... love ya all!! =)))

anw, sch's alright todae and band's quite ok too. haha crap. =X had college dae rehearsal at hall todae... supposedly nid to rehearse 3 times but in de end oni 1 time. also duno why... but im not complaining lah =P oh no think my section's still vry-not-up-to-standard... !!! =S i shall try to salvage de situation =X and meanwhile there're more things to think abt huh?

well so tts abt all for todae lah. climax reached at the meeting with ntss frens... oh yah. took neoprints!! haha initially kinda stoned cos de backgrounds not vry nice.. budden de designing part quite fun lah =P eeyer but de stooopid machine ar!! we obvly duno how to read jap rite.. den also nv direct us how to select which neoprints we wan.. haiyer! it was at de side loh.. and by de time jacq discovered it, it was lke let 5+secs oni.. den naturally will vry jing zhang den just anyhow choose rite.. ahhh sucha waste!! dnt choose de pic i liked de most.. so sad!! haix.. cant be helped lah. at least it'll stay as a memory lah. haaaaa =|


woke up feeling totally groggy cos of de stupid warm weather. on top of all tt, overheard my parents conv subconsciously [=X].. feeling so utterly unjust for my mom. once again he's used this stupid excuse of me not off-ing de light and den worm his wae out of paying the p.u.b bills. great. now u dun haf to pay for absolutely anything except my allowance. im sure u're opening a champaign and celebrating right now. let me tell u its not de end yet. i'll make sure i squeeze u as dry as i can.

so much for a great tuesday morning. sometimes reli wonder wad i did in my past life tt landed me in this unfortunate family situation. not tt i dislike my family. its just tt... *i cant find another word to describe my feelings better* i reli dislike u so much tt its reli nearing the word hate. i dun wan to. u made me feel this wae. fine. make me apologise for this trivial thing and let urslf get awae with a big prize of not paying de bills. congratulations.

i hate de wae u're speaking to mom right at this moment. i hate de wae u speak to me everytime. trying to make me sae sorry so i'll get my allowance? u may think u've gotten ur wae. im doing this cos i haf another 6mths of jc to go. after tt, once i start work, u're out, get it? i may be doing this but deep dwn, wad u're forcing me to do is just deepening de scar. for now, i can only quote mr tan: believe in retribution.

ok enuff of such gruesome facts. sch sux recently.. so mani tests and so much hw!! reli dying from all de stress.. whn will all this end?? and once again, im getting the same weird feeling... is it confusion? im not sure either =X

life sucks so much at this point of time i just wanna let go of everything...

*addition before i published* u came back specially to tell me u've been feeling bad cos u havent been giving us allowance for 2 daes? ha-ha i believe u 101%. this is such hypocrisy. dun even try tt with me.

i feel myslf being filled with hatred everytime i see u. dun look into my eyes. its not de same old feeling anymore.


had chem spa todae! haha quite smooth sailing lah.. but went to the wrong lt in the morning so rushed lke siao to lt3.. haix kinda jialat but its a quite a blessing in disguise lah huh ;)

went to ps with pw after sch to change my skirt.. yeah bought a pair of pants and a skirt from m-industrie ytd.. last dae of promo! haha i was so in luck =P hey got 30bucks off leh.. sucha good catch mann =P budden went home realised de button came off.. and tts why i went all de wae to ps to change it todae =X

spent 7bucks on lunch todae! ahhhh gotta stop this.. must save up! got so mani things to buy.. and at the top of de list is cao ge's cd!! haha im so gonna get tt once i haf enuff money =P many other cds i wanna buy.. maybe fan yi cheng's and jolin's? hee see 1st loh. but cao ge's confirmed! ;) yup yup. time to save up.

anw, went out to celebrate mothers' day ytd.. brought my mom for spa at paragon! hehe so glad she enjoyed the 45mins++ =P de person vry nice wor extend for her.. budden they dun allow me to stay der so i stoned [and i mean seriously stoning] at some bench at level 3. =X well its not all tt bad. at least i had radio with me yah? =)) i love my hp!

watched poseidon after tt.. its another superb movie!! =DDD haha much more exciting den Mi3.. but still like it a lot lah. =D haha love both!! woooo i love may`06 soooo much.. so many nice movies!! and next up's xmen3... seriously cant wait!! hehe so whn's pirates of de caribbean 2 coming out ar...? =P

ok i've turned into a movie maniac in a split second.

well so tts fantastic ytd and todae. have been having such great food for de past 4daes tt i guess i've gained at least a kg and lost 50bucks. =| oh no tts too big a sacrifice. definite resolution: i must save up!! wahaha cao ge's cd.. here i come!! =PpP

i wonder why im so crappy todae.. =X ok end of story.


oops so sorrie for de sudd violence in my prev entry. was super angry.

had a great time outside both ytd and todae!! =D hee ytd after sch went town with pw.. had sucha full meal at delifrance! waha de beef steak's nice.. was so super full after tt and i tot i wldnt be hungry for de rest of de night but i was so damn wrong. ate so much cos dun wanna feel hungry arnd 11+ but it dnt work! my stomach was grumbling arnd late night... eeyer waste my 20bucks! x(

went out with ntss frens todae to celebrate aipong's bdae! yeah but before tt, watched mission impossible 3 with ahbond, monster and joyce. =)))) the verdict from us: its totally nice!!!! haha enjoyed the movie throughout.. kept me on de edge all de time cos its just so... exciting? well i duno. its lke all tense situations bah i guess.. and its definitely worth de money! ;)

ate at fish&co after tt.. heeeee another full course for me. was as full as i was ytd lah.. yup so tts a lot =X but quite gd also cos im still not hungry now and i ate arnd 2+? hehe yup yup this 15bucks is much more worthy den de 20bucks i spent ytd.. hehe.

alright so tts 2 great daes of enjoyment and food. =P resolution: stop spending so much on food cos i'll go bankrupt due to tt one dae if i cont doing this =X

ok tts reli lame.


i hate you for all tt u've said and done tonight! u're sucha god damn fucker. pls dun think tt u're SUPER needed at home just cos u bring money back. WE CAN DEFINITELY SURVIVE W/O U!! even if it means having bread and water 3 meals a dae, i dont even mind as long u're fucked off from my ENTIRE LIFE.

i dun see why u can make a mountain out of a molehill and start fucking ur ass off in de middle of de night. i dun see why u cant let ME enjoy doing my work in front of de tv. I LIKE TT CAN??? i dun see why u must ramble ON AND ON abt de nobility of urslf in being such a capable father [my ass!] and bringing MEAGRE amounts of allowance home. WAD IS SO GREAT ABT TT!?!?! u dun fucking care abt de family. so why shld I care abt u? fine i left kitchen lights on. BIG DEAL! OFF IT LAH!!! just cos of tt u haf to scold me for being sucha irresponsible daughter, studying past secondary sch AMAZINGLY and ending up in a jc BUT duno basic things lke switching off lights and saving money for p.u.b bills cos U'RE the one paying for tt. HELLOO??? how much can de usage of a LIGHTBULB cost u??

scold me if u want to for not offing the light. fine im in de wrong. u dnt haf to pull out every single little thing tt ever happened in my miserable 17 yrs of life and start kaopei-ing lke some fuck. im not lke mom. i dun just bear with everything and tolerate just cos U'RE de one bringing money home. and pls, de money u bring home is not even enuff for a dae. go ask arnd lah! who de hell gives their WHOLE family 20 bucks a dae and expect them to survive? and still pay for de handphone bills, miscelleaneous fees and every rubbish tt we haf to pay for? 20 BUCKS MISTER!! vry big ar??? if we're living in the 70s era think it'll be more den enuff. THIS IS DE 21ST CENTURY! barely anything costs below 2bucks. even a bowl of noodles or rice can cost 3bucks. u expect us BOTH to use tt 20bucks a dae and still save up to pay this and tt?? cmon mann. who's de stupid one now?? duno how to calculate. MATHS FAIL!

i noe u dowan me to go uni or even enter jc in de 1st place cos its lke gonna cost u a big big bomb and u wanna retire early. who de fuck dun wanna retire early and enjoy??? but excuse me, u havent even fulfill ur duty as a parent completely! im still schooling. wad u wan me to do? u claim tt im dumb and stupid even though im in jc studying. stop trying to dissuade me from entering uni cos i can and i WILL. dun gif me de money if its so hard on u den. i'll find a wae to pay for it myslf somehow.

i seriously hope u wont come home. if coming home is SO DIFFICULT for u tt u have to worry abt us having de lights on den DUN COME BACK. i'll be happy and glad cos my ears wont suffer and i wont be made so angry tt i just wanna stab u with a knife. if having de lights on is sucha burden on de p.u.b bills, we can use candles and just shut everything off. let us live in de dark everydae. let us die of heatstroke. deprive ME of tv. deprive me of my uni education.

if it werent for mom, i'll seriously go buy a new padlock for de door tmr so tt u'll nv be able to enter de place i call home again and disturb its peace. plus, i wont get to suffer any scoldings and hittings from u. do u noe i can sue u for tt?

last but not least, FUCK OFF.


happy dae todae!!!! =DD hehehe woke up to a -well, in my opinion- fantastic breakfast! had timsum den went to ginza der bought salmon sashimi and salmon sushi from sakuraya.. suuuppperr nice!!!! *on cloud nine* initially thought my mom picked a too-big piece of salmon.. but in de end its lke, not enuff! =P haha feel so happy and contented to be able to enjoy such delicious food.. yum yum im definitely gonna haf tt again sometime soon =P luv sashimi!!

randomly switched channels just now and happened to watch japan hour on cna. dnt reli catch de tokyo part but saw de shuzenji one! wow think tt place is super beautiful.. and great food's complimented too! wahaha im seriously gonna go der one dae during midsummer.. ;)

alright im also wondering why im so "pro-jap" all of a sudden. well doesnt matter lah. de food's nice and tts de best part! hehe. oh and i think sakuraya's other food products are nice too.. yum yum dun i just wish im jap so i can enjoy de food everyday?? xP

ok 3 paragraphs on my craze for food is more den enuff.

barely did any work even though i planned everything out ytd.. wanted to do vectors tut but realised i dun understand some parts from dot product.. yep so dnt cont much =X dnt do electrochem tut too cos dun haf de tut =X ha yup so dnt do much todae..

alright im guilty. i'll go study chem now.


weee happy anniversary to my dear gold mbr!!! lol think we 2 most lasting liao.. after one whole year dun think a lot of others rmbred this special dae. haha yep this dae last year was our syf.. and the dae we clinched our 1st gOlD!!! ha alright. and its de dae we started calling each other gold mbr so much so tt it feels weird to be calling each other by de name =X lol yup yup its a happy dae! =D

anw, super tired in sch todae! went for sajc guitar concert ytd night... met up with ntss frens!! haha and my dear ah bond~~ *huggs* lol had a fun time with them! yep and back to todae, it reli seems lke lessons're nv gonna end cos its lke one after another..

anw, had de last assembly session with mel todae! gonna miss her talks a lot.. she demonstrated some interviews todae to let us see wad some situations wld be lke.. poor patricia got de worse interviewer! but think she did ok in tt.. so im sure she'll ace de other interviews! =D hehe

band quite ok todae.. confirmed de 3pieces we're gonna play for college dae! de last one's el "sth" =X not bad lah quite nice. hehe. had section outing after band!!! well sadly not everyone was der.. but majority were! =D yeah good good. had quite a fun time with them too! =D hehe love my section lots.. haix but stepping dwn in abt 2weeks+ le.. duno sad or happy =X but im gonna miss those band times lah surely..

yep so tts todae.. quite an enjoyable dae excluding the lessons part of cos =X and tmr's finally de weekend!! haf been waiting for so long since tues =X [and to think mon was labour dae..] finally can slp late.. no alarm; no noise; no nth! well, maybe except breakfast lah =P yep looking forward to a slacking tmr! =D

oh. der's sth called hw in this world huh? craps.