*i foresee many ranting and stress-related entries coming up in the next few weeks so pls do bear with me =/*




RAHHHHH!!!!

i cant believe personnel project is due in 2 wks' time zomg!!!!

and i cant believe - NO i already believe tt there're still SO MANY readings i have to go thru before i can declare i've done my readings and i can start revision. u know how dead i feel right now?? u know u know????

stressfulness aside,

- bumped into ht at clementi mrt today! SUPER QIAO and super long nv see him. apparently our busy man is still flying all over the world v frequently but still, hopefully can have a gd meet up in may when all the stress is over! :D

- shakuhachi performance for lunchtime concert today! prof ueno looks cute in the traditional jap costume lols. really!! he got the jolly face too hahahaha okok anw, 1st time being exposed to live traditional jap music! they're the fukunone ensemble btw :)) their 1st opening song of "sakura" sounded totally authentic mannn omg. esp love the shinobue sound!! [some flute tt resembles ryuteki] XD reli sounds v solid and nice~~ haha. the shakuhachi class only performed one song (souran bushi) though but its quite fun. hopefully we din distort the sound too much :P in any case, enjoyed the perf by the ensemble a lot! :)))

- i had so much sinful food today i thk i might just restrict my diet for tmr =x curry puff (omg its REALLY NICE) and white chip and double chocolate cookie all in one go during my break today cos i was super hungry =/ its all damn heaty lah!! and i had the irresistible chilly wanton noodles from pontian for dinner.... hur. i haf a feeling i'll get a sore throat tmr x_x

- im going to sleep before midnight today. yes. i will sleep NOW.


im currently drowning in the depths of my biopsy textbook. why the hell is the chapter on drugs SO long?? doesnt help tt the thought of "der's lots more" keeps popping up all over the place and making me feel like i cant finish anything by exam day. really really sucks. and im sure this is only the beginning of the rising stress levels.

have i ever mentioned that females tend to feel 2 times more stressed than males?
when i learned this last sem, it really shone light on our wonderings abt why our guy frens are much more relaxed and why guy frens outside of uni never seem to understand. its becos they dun see it as stressful~ *lightbulb*

in any case, im thankful for ytd's kbox session and late-nite very-guilty-but-happy macdonald's meal. without tt, i wld've been more inclined towards suicidality today.


some random points:

- im very proud of myself for completing the chapter on sleep within two reads. ok maybe tts taking a bit long but, dun care, im proud of tt :D *2 claps to myslf!*

- its Earth Hour tonight at 8.30pm but apparently no one in my estate is practising it =/ *yes, so my lights are still on*

- my computer desktop is SO filled with icons, its really time to de-clutter and reorganise my comp. but aiyah u know ar, exams coming and all tt.. need to study ar....

- and i think my mini pot plant grew taller!! :D



ok lesser crap comin' up ;)

went to queensway sc with jie to collect her new specs! :) haha i feel like some ambassador of tt shop mann.. peiwen mom and jie all bought specs/contacts from der too! my mom even got 2 pairs =S well anw, got my new specs adjusted too so i can wear them properly! :D headed to ikea after tt cos jie was looking for storage boxes. walking thru the showrooms was reli nostalgic mann! when i was v young i used to wanna have the exact same kinda room layout as the showroom, or the "this" and the "that" in my room so i'll keep bugging my parents. lol. it'll be like, my room'll be so nice with _____ right!! hahah. ok fine i still have the same "desire" now but its more realistic; i know they'll cost hell lota money :]

anchorpoint after tt for a nice place to sit and catch up with one of my fav girls on her recent (im very jealous) taiwan trip, and for another huge serving of dessert. oh mann im seriously gonna get fat soon =/



annnddd it was home sweet home to mug. u know, i've been having such frequent stay-home sessions recently tt im starting to feel like im on holiday or sth. its like, no more band prac, tutorial and shakuhachi perf cancelled on wed so my wed is free, thurs' only lesson is like no lesson cos we oni went der to zho bo SEE ppl record and left, and fri no sch. so effectively, im "free" from wed to sunday =x and its not even holidays. hmm weird.

... ok sorry tts random.

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ntmb gathering last nite! :D had dinner at holland v crystal jade and *SLURPS* xiao long baos reli taste good! XD koped so much "zha2 jiang1 mian4" from ahbond tt im starting to have this craving for tt dish now...

>=] i wan zha jiang mian!!!

frankly speaking, the service der wasnt v gd. lihua waited 25mins for her pork ribs la mian! >=( well fine maybe pork ribs are really difficult to fry. but man tous???? cant believe we waited 20mins for 4 pieces of man tou. its so wth. the expression we all unanimously had when the tiny dish of 4 man tous was finally placed on the table was PRICELESS lols. totally -.-..

swensens after tt for dessert! :) i thk my appetite's growing =x tsk. must be the stress. nvm i'll exercise after exams! meanwhile just eat to my heart's content~~~


---> certified stress reliever >=9








p/s she's really tired lols. jiayou future occupational therapist! may we work tgt one day! XD haha.

ok tts enuff blogging for a day. i shall get back to mugging~


warning: im not in a good mood.

had this curry chicken laksa for lunch and de "chicken" i got was 99% skin/fats. in other words, i had a vegetarian laksa which isnt my idea of a filling lunch. not for today, at least. and so i decided to buy fries from the western stall but its a freaking 2bucks for a tiny packet which wouldnt make me any fuller and would completely empty my wallet. ok, i have a $50 note but tts to last me til nxt wed so i really dun wanna touch it as yet, so i effectively have only abt $1.50 worth of coins left. so i din buy the fries, and went back to my seat, and saw this digusting FAT fly sitting happily on the straw of my 90%-full sugarcane drink. i was >=( but nvm i just took out the straw and threw tt aside. went to get 九层糕 and when i came back the same fly was on the rim of the cup and crawling happily down toward the drink which rendered the drink totally contaminated and undrinkable. der goes my $1 sugarcane drink. i barely drank it loh!! tmd. i alr no money liao and im still being bullied by a freaking fly!! >=((((

vegetarian laksa and 九层糕 din add up to make me full. and i have nth to drink, and i only haf 80cents left so i cant buy anything to eat. i am seriously hungry and thirsty and angry AND BROKE. knsssss.

and as always der's the huge pile of readings waiting for me to clear and i still have no idea how the hell im gonna revise asian psy. at least for biopsy and personnel der're still chapters and reliable notes u can follow thru. but asian????

argh wadever. *curse and swear*


thank you weijie for the very beautiful real-but-wont-die flower ornament from taiwan!! :D:D


pretty pretty ^-^

and today.... omg i spent so much :(

new slippers, check.
new makeup, check.
new ipod pouch, check.

=/

cant believe i still wanted to get another eyeliner after getting my majolica majorca one! and tt was on impulse too.. =X ok maybe im reli too stressed and just need a bit of retail therapy (as explained by yiting) :)) speaking of which, i havent been shopping for very too long!! >=( exams u better faster be over so i can go shop peacefully again..

:( my superego's reminding me i need to save up for holland trip.

damn. der're really so many things i wanna get u know??? haix. 要是我有一百万 ...


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i bought a new pencil case!!! :D:D:D:D:D





:D

totally love it! and i love the shop tooo!! haha. all thnx to jingxiu who bought this super cute gingerbread man pencil case from der. tempted me so much to visit tt shop again and get a pencil case too lols. bit exp for a pencil case but ok lah i havent changed mine in 5 years!! gd enough reason? :D yes~~~~~

so happy!!

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gig day! :)

busy, stressful, kisiao week.. but its finally over! :D yeah "it" meaning gig lols. i reli hope it went well. im quite scared to see the videos but i do wan to see how they turn out to be. haha jarvis faster upload!! X(

am kinda looking forward to a next gig though.. somehow, im really getting used to all these stress building up tt it doesnt feel v stressful anymore lol. but still, i'll prefer if gigs dun occur just before exams.. risky feeling v scary one hahaha. ohwells its over. hope its been gd for the audience! :))

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went to make specs today!! XD wooohooo i nv thought my mom'll be so "on" for once. only told her in passing ytd morning and she just "ok loh den we go see tmr morning". so yup went to queensway shopping centre in e morning with mom and peiwen and finally found a nice pair! :D so glad we din get it frm the 1st shop lah.. dun like the pushy salesperson >=( 2nd one much more friendlier! haha. yay and gd tt the price is quite reasonable too :))) yes yes im v happy today!! cant wait for wed to get my NEW SPECS! XD

headed to ikea for lunch (yum yum meatballs!!) but tts not the main goal. main goal is to get my mini pot plant!!!! XD yes i've been eyeing it ever since i saw greenie at wcp waffles cottage.. keke. now i finally have my own!! :D aint it cute???



XD just looking at it makes me happy. maybe i shld get more mini pot plants :D


finally a sunday where i reli slacked~~~ ok fine true for only first half of the day. haha after ikea had to rush home to finish my (damn) ppt stuff and readings... hurr haven touched readings at all =/ after tmr, i'll be 4 chapters behind yet again... grrrr. sucks!!! ok its time to dedicate 70% time to sch work again.. chiong for exams!! >=(

time to slp. long day ahead~~


im hoping and hoping that sat's gig will be a smooth one. very very scared we cant tighten up everything in time! X(

anw, finally watched marley and me today! :) totally love marley, esp the puppy version!!! omgg just SUPER CUTE can! XD hahaha. went to IT fair after tt too and HUR the crowd is reli.... -.- but anyhoo, was actually on a mission to get the acclaimed $8 ink cartridge which cldnt be found.. lol. my dad overheard this brilliant "news" over the radio and it turned out be not-so-true (for today, at least). and after lotsa lengthy phone discussions and all (my dad was in some other corner of the IT fair too), he finally decided on an epson printer so YAY welcome to ur new home my dear printer! :D

still din get my laser printer in the end but aiyah nvm lah. i suppose i wont be printing notes for very long. oni 2 more years! =D

but anw, guess tts not the only 收获 for today. someone got sennheiser earphones and iTouch tooo!!



actually, this is mine :))))

yeah i wish. hahaha. yup so everyone's happy today! :D saw so many ppl pulling trolleys of TVs, printers, LAPTOPS..... well. ONE DAY i will get all these at one go and have a HUGE trolley overflowing with them too~~ *hmpff*

and can u believe it. it actually took us abt 20mins (or so it seems) to squeeze from suntec convention center to suntec mall -.- so wths. a realistic rendition of "so near yet so far".. and it somehow reminds me of clogged arteries =x like the "ppl" cant flow thru from a bigger space to a smaller one, and its so congested with "stuff" tt der's oni a narrow space to move thru.... okokok bio's getting to me. hahah time to slp!! XD

oh. and i reli hope i will haf time to watch dragonball nxt wk with my ahwen too!! its been SO LONG since ai ai and i went out :((( *sobs* haha ok SLEEP.


:))))))))

its finally the "big day" for us to record our omens of love and it was quite a fun thing! :D haha. was rather stressed in the beginning though cos der's lke the rest of the class in the recording area watching us thru the glass pane =S had a few adjustments made abt our various positions and finally got the final track recorded! :D its not bad i guess :)) well ok tts an understatement; im actually quite happy abt our end result!!! XD hahahaha. hope we'll all do well for this! :D

yay so its been a really happy day today :D started out a lil moody though, but like i always said, recording class nv fails to make me laugh :D *many many happy emoticons*! to sidetrack a bit, i guess its cos of this and the recent instrumental jam with WV, tt i realised i enjoy doing instrumental a lot. yeah even though i've only jammed omens of love and nth else, its been reli enjoyable and not v stressful (yet)! :)) really enjoyed it! cant wait for more to come ;)

alright back to topic. come to thk of it, actually quite sad tt the module's over :( reli enjoyed everything abt this class from beginning til end! this kinda class is like so rare can... lols. im definitely gonna miss the grp a lot, and our ever jolly dr tang! :)

now tt one thing's down, i can conc on 21st gig almost fully..

actually, im still quite scared and not reli confident tt i'll pull it off cos der's just so little time and i haven been "out" for very long =S duno. dun lke this feeling! x(

hope everything goes well :]


Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your blog and elaborate on the subjects given.

1. Food

this is a physiological need that must be fulfilled for everyone. somehow it just happens that i haf a stronger need in this area more. i cant help it tt i feel hungry 4hrs after a normal meal [exclude huge buffets] and need to frequently re-fuel myslf. a lot of my money goes to food and im not vry happy abt this either, but i reli feel hungry u noe??? :( besides, 能吃是福! maybe im wired up differently but food really does make me very very happy :))))

2. Music

it's my life, it's now or never, i ain't gonna live forever~~

yes taken from bon jovi's song, and i guess it suits this subject very well! :D
actually, i didnt realise it until abt a year back, when my prof asked how long i've been playing flute. it was then tt i started counting back, and it added up to a rather scary 7+years, which i myslf was shocked at becos i din even realise it had been that long alr. then i also rmbred my chinese orchestra experience in pri sch.. so its actually been with me all the while huh? haha. i dun see when i'll stop dabbing in music for now, becos im not "sick" of it yet, and i dun think i ever will be :) oh. and im really, really inspired and motivated by casiopea and t-square [and the likes]. they're the gods mannn!!

3. Flute

[copy-paste 1st half from above paragraph please]
i only got my own flute recently. but strictly speaking, its not really mine yet cos im still paying my fren instalments. which reminds me, i haven been paying for quite some time.... =/

4. Skinny

i was actually born a very healthy baby albeit a little premature; impressive weight of 4.4kg! :D attributed to the good financial status of my family back then - im speculating my mom prolly had lotsa bird's nest etc when pregnant ;) but unfortunately, i was a very very picky eater when i was young. was almost considered vegetarian cos i didnt like meat at all and didnt eat much of it, except fish, and maybe bits of chicken. but seriously, i totally stayed off pork which is EVERYWHERE >=( still not a big fan of pork now =x so yeah i've been skinny all along. when i was young even my own dad said my legs resembled chopsticks when seen from far! =/ i was always in the "underweight" category which is damn saddening, but when i do get to "normal weight", it was :D:D:D:D but then thk i became considered "underweight" again cos of my height. tsk. but i've really grown much more meat now ok!!

5. Psychology

in this course cos 1stly, i cldnt get into my well-dreamed Vet Science course, which wld be quite ex too cos it'll be overseas and its wad, $35000 per year??? x_x had to stay in sg so might as well make the best out of wad i have. im not interested in engineering (of cos not), business, and the zzz-research-prospects of biological science, and psychology sounds really fun and exciting, so here i am! :) have not regretted the choice yet, becos i totally love its content. well i must say i hate the workload and stressful aspects of it but, this is singapore mann. get used to it! x( haha. psych rules :D


[a rather random post]

horribly long, yet fulfilling day ytd :)

had 1st prac [omg cant believe its only first practice] with my 2nd recording grp ytd from 2+ to 430pm, after which i went back to join my 1st recording grp for a supposedly final rehearsal cos next thurs is our recording alr. another 2 hrs of prac but kinda wasted cos alex wasnt der and it was kinda luan w/o drums. =/ scheduled for another prac on tues and hopefully the room will be available cos we dun haf many other days left! x(

oh god pls bless my recording module.

had a quick dinner with yiting and laoshi and flute tutorship at 8pm! was quite tired alr cos haf been running to and fro in e day and now der's still 2 more hrs of flute prac =/ when i told lao shi i was tired cos haf been playing since 2+pm she told me "wow. if u practise like this everyday, u'll be a professional in no time~" haha. i wish i can devote 7 hrs/day to flute prac too, but my workload is pretty much against tt i guess =x
ahhhhh grade 8 grade 8!!!

had to dicuss asian proj when i came home and finish up my readings and email de prof. hurrr. its really been quite a draining day. cant wait for nxt tues to pass! x(


Personality test: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.




hmm. maybe its accurate.. haha.

had a chat with jie at ginza starbucks just now and we were just talking abt similar topics (as in, the areas this test revealed). so coincidental! lol. yeah so i guess she knows the degree of accuracy for all these huh.. ;) anw, im glad i decided to meet up with her! was quite torn btwn continuing with biopsy readings and meeting a fren but i chose the latter. study also nid break one rite?? :P

still, im really happy i had this break (albeit bit too long :P)! just chatting abt topics outside of academics can be relaxing in its own sense :)) thnx jie! for taking me outta my textbook-and-i world, giving me a short breather, and re-connecting me with the world outside again! wad wld i do without u~~ and my green tea soy milk latte lols xP

im amazed at the amt of energy still left inside me when i returned home at 1130pm. might be the caffeine though. but gd tt im left with abt 15pgs more before im done so i can quickly submit my ppt topic to the prof by fri. hurrrr. pls pls pls lemmi get the topic i wan. reading thru the 40+pgs is reli tiring enuff :(

okok this is supposed to be short entry before i slp! haha gdnite :)


my mom's cooking today and i just love how the aroma fills the entire house! :D and maybe into other ppl's houses too to make them jealous >=]

random? haha not really. my mom really really seldom cooks so u can say im actually quite deprived of homecooked (aka healthy) food. she'll be cooking on weekends now cos she offered to cook for my cousin's pregnant wife so she'll be more tonic-ed and all tt. they live alone and dun reli haf parents or other elders to take care of her u see? :) im really glad my mom made tt offer; i get benefits along the way too! XD

finally, the kitchen is put to gd use, and not just "another space" in the house :]

read ah bei's and jie's blog this morning and their entries did made me think a bit.

this was sth jie told me a while back, and now its (indirectly) coming from mich too.
"we constantly seek and pursue things we do not have, and in the course lose the things we already have".
i'd say i havent lost anything, but im not too sure abt whether im losing anything..




i think i am.

on top of many others, one of the most impt reasons why i'll wish for more time is so i can fit in quality time for the most impt woman in my life. (yes, the one cooking in the kitchen right now.) i so wish for gd communication within the family, but i really dont know how. does pressing F1 help? =x

someone once said, no matter what u've done for urself or for humanity, if u cant look back on having given the love and attention to ur family, wad have u accomplished?

i dun think i've accomplished much then. really.

yeah so its said tt its normal for ppl my age to be more outward-oriented and to focus our time more on external interpersonal relationships. but, am i really still at tt developmental stage? (sorry. psychology again) i really hope i still am, u noe? den at least i noe i'll be "programmed" to shift my focus inwards again after this stage..




=x

i guess this is random afterall.


i cant believe recess wk is ending already!!!
nooooooooo~~!!!! X(

but oh well lets just take it as **TERM BREAK** is drawing closer lah huh? :)
which also means exams are closer EVEN closer.... -.-"

right. sorry for the ambivalence.

anyhoo, guess today's the unofficial last day of enjoyment for me this week. but gd tt its quite well spent! :) wanted to take the free ride on flyer but the free rides are fully redeemed alr!! :(( really 3 cheers to (kiasu) sg-eans mann... heh. so just had popeye instead and went back to marina and caught slumdog millionaire! :) heard many raves abt it from fluties and also the 8-oscar-awards news and not surprisingly, it was brilliant!! :D enjoyed the show a lot and i love its storyline, and the way everything ends! :)) was a lil tired though in the middle of the show but im attributing it to uncomfortable posture cos we sat in the 4th row from the front -.- its been eons since i last heard the music from "who wants to be a millionaire" too so when i heard it at the start, it was lke O.o hahaha :P go catch it guys! its really nice! :D

was in the mood for movie marathon too so actually wanted to catch benjamin button after slumdog :P well anw we were supposed to catch benjamin button but showtimes werent v favourable! :( and its like left 2nd row from front.. hurr. din manage to check out showtimes in other places too so.. maybe next time haha. hopefully i wont miss the entire movie [like how i TOTALLY missed inkheart!! :(((] this time round. but then again, time's gonna be real scarce in the coming wks so i foresee myslf reli missing it :(

random: im sudden quite sure i was a child with ambivalent attachment style; just look at wad im thinking! =S

but of cos, sometimes i just haf no one else to blame but myslf for feeling like i haf no time for everything, or stressed, for the matter. apparently i really "put too much stuff on my plate"... =x

lets see. sch's crazy enuff on its own with nv-ending reports and blardy-last-minute-interviews-to-complete ANNDD upcoming presentations on top of the personnel proj we're lagging very behind in, flute ensemble coming up for lunchtime concert which is a week before exams (omg), shakuhachi = DIE.....

and music-wise (hoho), omens of love and songs for the other grp in recording, instrumental jams? new band?? WV perf in march (v soon and damn near exams)???

i haf also "committed suicide" by telling lao shi i wanna take grade 8 before i grad, and she optimistically suggested SEPTEMBER which i obvly rejected, and replied tt i might go for the one next march instead. i have one year to reach grade 8 standard.. can i really make it?????

=x

xinyi wad haf u gotten urslf into..

but before u thk i hate all my commitments, i dont.

in fact, its becos i enjoy every single one of them so much tt i dun wanna miss any opportunities regarding their progress (or revival, in a sense) so i just "add them onto the plate" even though the plate is already full enuff to satiate me.

i guess its really only myslf to blame. and i still cry out abt all the stress im under huh? =/

time to sleep early. prepare for the battles ahead!!