haix todae's consultation was so horribly demoralising.. havent reli felt this demoralised before =(( usually its just "ok nvm its just a stupid mistake tt i probably wont make in As" but now its lke, it just hit me with a big bang. is my knowledge of chem reli so little?? also duno why i cant ans simple basic ans.. was it cos i was ill whn i was doing de paper? haix must stop giving myslf excuses. although der's not much i can do now, shall just make sure i dun make those mistakes again.. esp for those basic qns! haix why did i land myslf in this kinda situation...

nonono tts not de me i noe. mustnt give up!! not at this pt of time.. gotta believe i can do it! ;) even though its just blind optimism..

anw, met tengjie at cck station! haha 1st time in the whole year sia.. lol and after i graduate somemore. chat a bit before he alighted.. so nice to meet an old fren! and someone who's free from A-level-stress somemore. lol. dun worrie xinyi, u'll be in tt situation just 24 days from now. yes persevere!! =D

and the wait is gonna be over cos my favourite time of the dae - 7pm - has arrived!! haha alright going to. =P guess tt'll be one thing tt'll lift my mood up a bit for now.. hee yeah goong just rox. oh and in de library just now lijein and i were so excited and engrossed in our topic of goong tt we just forgot we're supposed to study =X haha we're both crazy. but if tt'll de-stress us a bit, why not rite? hehehe yah i am full of excuses =P


omg im so crazy over goong now! alright i noe im not supposed to at this crucial time but, i cant help it! haha think de show is just so nice and the couple's so sweet!! hmm and de prince also super charming can =P lol i guess i get into these moods once in a while ar.. der was jjlin, and now this. wad's next? heh alright anw, just wanna share these. they're so cute!!










*omg so shuai!!


xD


she's so preetty!!


the royal bears. so cute!


sweet~

haha ok shall siao until here for this entry =P back to work!


argh i just wasted 2 days of studying being sick.. =(( haix and didnt reli enjoy my cousin's wedding ytd.. de place and food're nice though =] but, didnt eat a lot cos not much appetite.. so wasted! lke whn will i ever step inside fullerton to eat again?? *sigh*

reli wonder if i'll be fine by tmr cos stomach's still a little cramped, head's still a little "heavy" and a bit gong-gong also =S ahh pls let me recover ASAP!! i cant afford to lose any more time..

anw, my cousin looked so supergorgeous ytd!! haha yeah i noe tts typical of brides but, she's just so pretty! lol i myslf cldnt keep my eyes off her =P *eh i AM normal* oh and the free gift was reli special too.. its a small test tube filled with [i think] rose buds to make rose tea.. its reli vry pretty! haha here's a pic



hee chio rite? =D and its de 1st time i attended a dinner where the food was served on a one-to-one basis.. lke usually de food comes in one big plate den u all take urslf rite? ytd one was they put into small plates den give individually.. heh but i didnt eat alot cos wasnt feeling vry well =( haix wasted!!

took taxi home after tt.. wah lau waited for superlong loh! and wasnt feeling well at all by de end of de dinner.. argh felt lke dying. called cab in de end.. and i slpt all de wae home =| heh reli tired..

yup so tts ytd. gonna study in sch tmr.. must make up for de time lost! okie todae must get well.. hopefully. =]


went to this "study in aus" thingy at orchard hotel today! =D wow saw lotsa prospectives students [prospective schoolmates??] der! hmm just wanna comment tt most of de reps from murdoch, queensland, melbourne and sydney are reli nice and friendly =) but der was this rep from usyd who was so... argh. ask her things den she just point to the brochure and sae "oh u can find tt in here". yah so wads de pt of her sitting der rite? ohwell fine i'll just take it as she's new or sth. but de whole trip was reli nice lah =)) found out quite a lot.. hmm dnt reli change my mind abt de matter so, tts gd! haha just tt i realised how supercompetitive it is.. ok confidence confidence confidence! shant lose it ;)

and of all de ppl in de world, my mom's gotta be de one "demoralizing" and "discouraging" me. maybe she's too pessimistic. maybe im too optimistic. but if being optimistic gives me de confidence and motivation i nid, why dun u just let me be. stop pouring cold water over my dreams and stop asking me to think abt my backup plan and how much nicer it will be. NO IT IS NOT. i noe wad i want. all i nid now is ur support and not all these. dun ask me to do business or research or anything to tt effect. i am not interested and i will rather "die" den stick to a job i haf zero interest in for de rest of my life. making money is impt but tts not de keypoint in my life. let me do wad i want and im sure i'll make de best out of it.

went to marina after tt to buy my necklace! haha finally found it after soooo long.. and tt finally marked de end of de "hunt" for my dressing for my cousin's wedding! argh wad good timing eh, just before my As i gotta busy myslf with this kinda thing. well nvm gotta do it sooner or later anw. but yup, de necklace's reli nice! love it so much... at 1st sight somemore! lol so luo man di ke eh =P

was waiting for 106 at esplanade bus stop whn michtanpj called me... lol!! super funny lah... she said she saw fluffy at ginza mac den ask me wan go find her anot. hahahah damn funny. kinda surprised and excited but too bad my mom's beside me so i cant reli sae much. lol den i just sms-ed her after tt lah. but so funny rite, of all places.. ginza?? haha ok i shall not and will not complain =P

alright so tts one whole dae gone. duno why recently kept feelin tired easily.. ! not enuff iron! lol seeeeee i got study my food chem one ok =P ok back to de topic. yup maybe a break will do me well? but i kinda seem to be break-ing for quite some time liao.. ahhh must get my momentum back! but can i start tmr? =X ha k lah enuff of de crap. maybe i'll do a bit more work before i end off my dae.. or maybe i'll just end it off now? =X hmm.

argh migraine's back all of a sudd. guess tt gives me an ans.. tmr wake up bright and early to do work!! haha yeah as quoted from monster, xiu xi shi wei le zou gen chang yuan de lu! lol


haha i seem to be blogging everyday recently. was exploring my comp [haven explore finish yet =(] and found this program tts so fun and cool! haha its lke got so mani functions... ok after As im gonna explore tt progam further =P

tmr's de last official dae of my jc life! =( kinda sad lah acheli although i cant wait for the hols to arrive. another chapter of my life is closing.. im sure i'll miss this chapter alot alot alot cos its just 2 vry special years of my life. lots of changes which i dnt expect, disappointments, fun, excitement, dilemmas, friendships, laughters... it just encompasses almost all kinds of emotions a person can have. changes both big and small, i've experienced both in these 2 years..

1st 3 mths was absolutely memorable. maybe becos it was so short-lived tt it became reli precious.. orientation was great! =D enjoyed sajc to the max. the transfer to pjc wasnt sth desirable to me initially, but now i love the place cos of de frens and trs inside who made my jc life great =) jc1 was reli fun, although the stress level was higher than those we experienced during sec sch. well everyone pulled thru in de end! =D yup and jc2 was started off with being an ogl. one of de best times of my jc life cos tts when i got to noe more funny crappy lame ppl who just brought laughters to me whenever im arnd dem. love walla a lot! =D

and not forgetting my dear class 05s06! =)) de 1st group of ppl i got to noe.. reli glad to be part of sucha fun class! heard not many classes are so fun and enjoyable.. so im reli glad i haf these classmates! =D and my dear cca, pjcsb!! haha yeah. brought me lotsa pleasant memories too.. and tts where i knew my gold mbr! =D *hugs* yup and it was thru band tt i got my 1st overseas trip [other den malaysia], and the 1st time of achieving a gold in our syf! =D haha thinking of all these just makes jc life so nostalgic and memorable.. im definiely gonna miss these 2yrs of my life a lot =)

and before i get slapped by this special grp.... reli glad i got to noe gina peiwen and mich! =D haha they've been with me thru everyday of jc, crapping with me, putting up with my "jokes", shopping, singing, "than"-ing me(=P).. and going thru all my rubbish! hahaha i noe im full of rubbish and according to pw, full of shit as well. but nvm! i'll just take all these as another form of expression for ur love for me. yes i noe u all love me!! [haha yah this was de kinda rubbish they're exposed to everyday i believe] hee i love all of u!!! =D

ok i vry tired liao wan go slp.


just finished watching liao zhai. ohmann de xiaoqian story is so touching! haha alright. to me lah. dnt reli do much todae.. studied in library again, but dnt reli accomplish much.. =( anw, chem test todae was kinda bad. haix my D fly away liao..

alright tts sch for todae. came home arnd evening and rested in my room, listened to my ipod and sang along happily, thinking im de only person in de world who heard all de crap =X ohwell. done resting, went out to put my ipod back into my bag and ..... saw de tenant in her room =| omg i just wanted to die immediately.

ahhh so diu lian!! i cant believe this acheli happened to me... omg omg so superduper paiseh can!! i was so diulian-ed i just wanted to leave singapore and nv come back or just pack off and leave for planet pluto right away. x(

argh wad a dae it has been.


having migraine again! argh so irritating. anw, sch was kinda alright todae.. 4got to bring tie! and i probably wldnt think abt it at all if mich hadnt asked me if i brought =X well she lent me hers in the end so er, i had one ^-^

pulled thru 3 gruelling hrs of chem and maths lect todae and had chem consultation after sch. ahh tio suan-ed again =(( ohwell nvm. to stop de suaning i must work hard!! yup i'll do just tt. =P

studied food chem in sch with lijein den went to town meet my mom.. finally bought de dress!! =D haha it all went back to de starting pt; de 1st dress i saw -.- alright wad a detour it has been but, yup im happy so tts all tt matters =)

dnt fare vry well for my prev chem test.. oni just passed =(( ahhh i desperately wan to get out of tt stupid E range!! its so irritable. must get D in nxt test! which is.. tmr. =| omg shit.


ahhh starting to fall sick.. pls dun let this prevail! i haf no time to bother with such illnesses =(( haze level plummeted to unhealthy range again.. everywhere's smoky lke dunowad! feels abit lke im in genting but the smell and high temps are just not right. argh stupid indo.. why are they still burning so many forests??

as i came home from breakfast this morning, used the bridge from ginza which is kinda "enclosed" and there's this stupid guy smoking right in front of me! wah lau damn smelly lah. singapore is not tt small such tt it doesnt haf any other place for u to smoke. and its not as if the air now is so gd tt we nid more of such ppl polluting our lungs further. argh inconsideration.

feeling kinda tired after sneezing for a whole day again. hopefully it'll stop tmr! and cos of de heavy haze wont be going out to study with pw tmr lest it worsens my alr-bad situation. so sorrie pw! =((

alright back to work. jiayou!


celebrated ms xiao's bday during ct just now! =D haha quite a fun hr for all of us.. der were performances by some classmates and peiwen even stole some of de "limelight" with her beatbox!! hahahah peiwen is so talented =PpP

invited ahpiang over for de celebration too.. but he so not-sporting sia! haiyer. chance for u to showcase ur skills besides teaching ya noe! =P we requested for his huo yuan jia but he refused, so no show loh.. =P but de whole hr was still vry full of laughters lah =))

oh another funny event todae. *once again peiwen's the lead* she asked us "eh how do u pronounce light and night" yah den we just told her. haha as expected, she got caught in de "tongue-twister" of "nightlight-nightlight-nightlight". lol reli super funny! it became "lightlight-lightlight-lightlight" for her in de end. haha it was recorded down by me, and video-ed down by lijein. contact us if u wan those materials. we'll give it to u, no prob =P

assembly todae was reli nice! another motivational talk by dennis yeo and de impact on me is stil tt great. he showed us some videos too. one was on "focus" and abt this basketball test.. so lol! de other was a video of his daughter and m&ms.. his daughter reli vry cute!! hahah esp whn she tries to distract herself from de m&ms by looking at everywhere else except dem.. so kawaii! =P ok im kinda high today.

supposed to haf chem consultation todae but piang not free so dun haf.. =(( went to orchard with gina and tim to shop for tt peiwen's present. went to daniel yam on de wae to try my dress! in de end still nv buy cos dnt reli like it.. =( argh why is it so difficult for me to choose a dress?? it just sorta gets on my nerves after tt so i dnt bother abt dresses anymore.

met my mom at outram after tt cos she said der're some stores in chinatown tt sell nice dresses.. kinda true! although not exactly those "prom dress-material" but still quite suitable for prom. but sadly, de one tt i think is reli nice [de hem is so pretty!!] was too plain.. its just a black cloth lah aceheli with no nth on it =| oh and seriously, tt place is just lke a replica of bugis street. haha duno lah its just de feeling tt it gives me. de clothes der quite nice too! targeted a lot liao =P yup so if u lke bugis street, u'll prolly lke tt place too =)

thought abt de stupidirrtating dress on my wae home.. finally came to a decision: i'l get de daniel yam one! =] hopefully de overall style in reality will click with the style i haf in mind lah.. haiyer so ma fan leh! haix women. =P


ahh so mani ppl feeling demoralised now! although i feel abit too but, ppl pls dun feel tt wae! just cos u dnt do well for prelims [or before tt] doesnt mean u wont do well in future aka 'A's! so dun give up ok.. must jiayou³! we'll make it de! rmbr.. you can do it! give it ur best shot this month yah? can leave everything to after-this-impt-month... yeah chiong all de way! =D hope we'll all make it where we want to k! =D all the best! =))