i dont know if ppl can fall deeper than deep but yeah thats exactly wads happening now :))))

we didnt manage to get a whole day to ourselves because time wasnt on our side, but it was one of the best weekday evenings ever and with one of my favouritest and most important ppl in the world :))

thanks for being a major de-stressor for me, and for making the evening wonderful even with simplicity alone. i love the way u always make me feel, and i love how u never fail to bring a smile back to my face when life was more of black-and-white than rainbow :) thank you for being you, cos u're truly a blessing to have! XD

heee so, cheers to many good days ahead!! :D:D

*hearts*



and yeah.
reality is better than dreams ;)




:))


suddenly feel like doing a colorful post! inspired by the Up photo weijie posted :D i miss that show!! one of the more meaningful (aka less spastic) animations i've watched :)


love the super-colorful balloons!!! so prettyyyyy~


chubby! XD





the effects from stained glass reminds me of aurorae so...












*i am so jealous of this guy can*






ahhh astonishing beauty!!!!

one of my biggest dreams to watch these wonderful aurorae myself!!

i dont rmbr most of the stuff astronomy class taught me about how aurorae comes about (sth abt magnetic field and electrons dispersion i think) but they're really one of nature's most beautiful creations to me! :) i wanna go sweden finland alaskaaaa!!


王心凌 - 當你



its all in the lyrics~ :))


yayyy nodame cantabile outing with euflomba!!! :D:D:D



after so longggggg. finally we're having our nodame movie session :))

only been a week and i miss this bunch so much already!! its been real long since we suppered tgt and even longer since i last caught a midnight show *yeah we're the crazy band ppl who watch nodame at 1.15am*~ was quite tired from the whole day and whole week of report-chionging, project-discussions, ppt-preps, and general lack of slp. but all tt tiredness just seemed to have vanished from e moment i met yiting at the bus stop to highing over satoshi concert in youwei's car to pre-movie and post-movie! XD lol. I MISS BAND!!!!

its actually the first time i met the grp again after concert. and yeah we're still very high and very proud of our very successful satoshi concert!!! wahahahaha. i guess all of us are feeling the pride from being able to play with emotions (this doesnt happen at every concert) and actually loving our recordings and getting addicted to them, setting them as ringtones... haha! :P yayness ntusb REALLY rocks kay!! to us at least :P:P

anyhoo, guess the nodame movie is really for band ppl to watch. i guess if u're not in band, u wont be able to fully feel and understand the emotions behind the story, the passion the players have, the essence of playing in a whole orchestra, the harmony everyone builds tgt, the applause everyone shares tgt.. just so many things that are hard to explain to ppl but are at the very hearts of orchestral musicians :)

wouldnt say its the best movie ever, but it does qualify as inspirational to us all! its always been motivating for me to see "old ppl" still playing their instruments, still being in an orchestra, not giving up their lifelong passions despite further commitments such as worklife, family, kids etc taking up more and more of their time. it really takes a lot to keep a musician going and pursuing their interest, not giving up on what they love and what they believe in. for me, it started out with the simple wish of learning how to play the flute. a wish that got fulfilled at age 13, and has now evolved into a bigger wish of playing in band for life. i wonder if i'll be still performing at the age of 40 or 50 too. :)

not meaning to say i've ever considered stopping. yeah i do want breaks sometimes becos of pressures from other aspects of life, but stopping for good has nv really crossed my mind. was asking yiting marie and youwei during the ride home whether we are allowed to continue playing in ntusb even after we grad, and it was so reassuring to hear that they nv thought of leaving it and will just "dont care" and continuing playing lol. i once thought of joining an outside band so that i can continue band-ing after graduation, when i "cant" continue in ntusb anymore. but hearing such words from them really mean a lot, becos its actually the same ppl whom i wanna continue playing with, and not just being in a band alone.

wahaha inspirational movie indeed. shall await the 2nd part to screen :)
meanwhile, may our passions for music continue burning! XD

p/s: am in the flute-mood today. feel like playing back all the satoshi concert pieces! wahahah. sorry neighbours! :P

p/p/s: oh. the movie was filmed in paris and vienna so it brought back a WHOLE LOT of memories about our europe trip tgt!!! made us all wanna hop into the screen and get back to exploring the beauuuutiful streets of paris again. the lovely bridges, amazing architectures of the louvre museum, notre dame, eiffel tower, shopper's haven champs elysees *yes woeilin. ur LV!!!*...... ahh. im SO going back to paris next time :))


heard this on the ellen degeneres show early in e morning and now im addicted to it and in love with adam lambert again!!!

p/s: it aint as good as what i heard on tv cos it didnt really give me goosebumps when i watched it on youtube :( nvtheless, his live is AWESOME!! \m/

Adam Lambert - Whataya Want from Me




so whataya want from me~ whataya want from me~~~


and i saw this from an email!



HAHA really look alike! i bet its the uniform too lols.

ok enough of distractions. BACK TO WORK T~T


i dont care if i just took a 4-hour break of not doing anything related to sch work and leaving my mountainous pile of reports undone. the entire world of stresses just seems to dissipate into nothing in the 4hrs i spend with u. such an elixir~ XD

ahh damn im so in love.



OK XINYI SNAP BACK TO REALITY.
u have millions of things to do.




i was nv a fan of the post-rainy high-humidity type of weather. but today, post-rain west coast park just seemed ten times more beautiful than usual, simply because there was also u in the picture :))

well, and a few cute squirrels too haha :P


i miss the afternoon already.
quality time spent indeed :))


Satoshi Yagisawa 'Live' in Singapore Concert was a huge success!!!! :D

wouldnt have said this so confidently ytd but now, after listening to the recordings, i really feel the concert had been good! :D

its really a very very big honour for ntusb to be performing under the batons of 3 super-awesome conductors!! composer-conductors Mr Satoshi Yagisawa and Mr Kazuyasu Kaminaga, and our dear resident conductor Mr Takehiro Oura :)) an honour to be playing the pieces under the baton of the composer himself, and have our music guided by the person himself. only had 2 rehearsals with them so the time spent under their guidance were really short, and there was also the communication barrier as both conductors werent fluent in english so mr oura had to translate everything for us lol. thank god for non-verbal cues (like mr satoshi giving us the "gambatte!" hand sign just before we went on stage lols. cute!) and the universal langauge of music~! sometimes singing out how they want the music to sound and feel like is enough to make all of us understand :)

i dont care if this is considered stereotyping. japanese conductors are all damn cute!!! lol. mr satoshi actually gave us sticker souvenirs of him and his composed pieces! lol. damn long nv receive stickers laa XD



went into super-fangirl mode ytd after getting mr satoshi's autograph on the program card! XD silver against black seriously looks damn chio! hahaha.




artistic shot! inspired by miki! :P

and section polaroids!! many thanks to kang zhuang!
:)






and more of my dearest flutiessss! :D:D


almost-complete section photo! >.<


jinyan, miki, cindy, and me! :D


with miki-san!


cindyyyy!


and ting ma!
hahaha cindy says we have the 夫妻相 when we take pic tgt LOL. got meh!!


fluties on stage before rehearsal! :) camwhorers jinyan, cindy, me, and anneson~


and fluties with satoshi!!! **screams**
XD

at this point i think he's already tired from taking so many photos, signing so many cards, and smiling so many times. hahaha but satoshi's still so cute!


didnt get to take photo with mr kaminaga (oh! where's the photo ar??) and mr oura at dinner so went backstage to look for them after the concert and guess what? we got to take pics with all of them at one go!! XD credits to mr oura for saying "isshou ni!" to the other 2 :P


YAYYYY!!! XD
well actually hor, the 2nd guy from the left is not mr kaminaga. i duno who he is also hahah!! looks like quite a 有名有利 person though. but anyway, YAYYY photo with mr satoshi and mr ouraaaa!! XD XD XD

the lucky few who went to the backstage after the concert had another bonus. free cd from satoshi!!!! XD omg omg omg. and i tot it was just the recording of one song... its a cd of 10!! woohoooo! super lucky we are :D


so here's presenting the concert's (and probably the entire semester's and entire band life's) bestest keep :)))


*goes wild again* XD!!



very tiring day -well, very tiring month, in fact. but when u see the fruits of ur labour, especially in such rewarding forms, its really worth it :)) definitely one of my best concerts thus far! and with the bestest bandmates and bestest conductors too!! what more can i ask for~~~ hahaha. if this is really our last concert at vch, it definitely was a good legacy to leave behind and one of my best memories of vch performances! :D


so how else do u reward urself after a looooong, rainy, tiring day??

EAT LAH! XD
euflomba never fails to fill me up with good foood~~


tired but happy faces on the bus back to ntu!


woots the orh jian near youwei's place is one of the best i've ever had!! yummy sambal stingray toooo~


not many photos of food cos they're all swept up too quickly and we were too hungry to take photos anyway. but here's one gd picture of the cleared dishes! yum yum. gd food gd company gd post-concert celebration!! XD



truly another great day to remember :D

although it wasnt easy coping with 3 practices a week on top of crazy school, and although sometimes i really feel like giving up altogether, im so glad i didnt :)) band rocks my ENTIRE life!!!! woohoo!!



p/s:
!!! just heard fron anney that mr oura's asking mr satoshi to write a piece for ntusb!!! woahhhhhhhh hahahaha. it'll be a greater honour if he really does! XD but i wonder if ntu will be so generous as to pay for that huh... lols. i'll keep my hopes up! XD


rahhh really feel like surrendering to school now!! >.<
like, raise the white flag and wash my hands off everything.

its really just an endlist list of things that u need to do.
im so tired :( physically, mentally, wadever-ly.

*sulks*
:(



(this picture is so cute!)


in 7 days, the battle was over.
and in 7 days, she fell deeper.
:)

those honey-coated conversations are definitely something to look back on in future :]

what's next?




ok fine i know. lotssssss more projects to finish up and deadlines to meet and reports to write and readings to read :(
oh. and the "exam bells" are ringing too :(((

DARN. seriously mood spoilers.... hahaha.

but im really glad that among this whole pile of work that sometimes bring life down, there was u to bring everything up again :)
thank you!! XD


何維健 - 变化



this song is so nice! XD

theme song of channel u's the illusionist. and reminds me of jc days where we all went quite gaga over this 绝对superstar guy lol. still love his voice! :D

and posted here so i can listen to it more conveniently cos i dont have the mp3 yet :P
wahaha. enjoy!

p/s i promise i'll upload xjt videos sooon!


a show on channel U was posing the question of, what do u do with ur pet when it passes away?

that question "struck" me kinda hard, and reminded me of the times when i was still working as a vet assistant and the number of people i've seen crying over the death of their beloved pets at the clinic. maybe becos i've been in this line before, i know the "correct" answer to this was to arrange for a cremation for the pet.

it shocked me to know that the law in singapore for properly settling this matter was actually, to put the deceased pet in a plastic bag and dispose of it as normal rubbish.

HELLO?!?!?!? WTH???

how can ppl even treat the pets they have as normal rubbish and just dispose of them in rubbish bins when they die??? would you treat ur family mbrs like this when they pass away too??

was seriously fuming at what i heard from the show.

yes my view is obviously biased because i really cant stand how ppl can have the heart to "dispose" of their pets in this way, as rubbish. what happened to the affection they gave to u and the times they spent with u and the unconditional love they gave u back despite u being caught up in ur busy schedules and neglecting them once in a while? u wldnt treat a loved one this way so pls dont treat ur pet in this way too.

but yeah i know there are ppl *cough*someuncles&aunties*cough* who really treat their pets as just "another animal", and will think throwing them away is fine, cos they're not littering, they're not breaking the law, and "its just a dog oni waad why must i spend so much money and effort to give it proper burial. its just a freakin dead dog".

i would love to slap anybody who tells me this but fine its ur own pet and ur own view of things anyway. im not gonna attempt converting u into a less heartless person if ur thinking really makes a whole lot of sense to u. its just my opinion. the law is just setting a minimum standard for (such) ppl to settle this, which would really be better than them just throwing them anywhere.

anyway, the short clip they showed at the end of this family sending off their beloved dog at the crematory center was tear-jerking, and i find it really heartwarming to know that at the other extremity, there are also people who really love their pets as deeply as they do for another human being, and who really treat their pets like a part of their family, not just an animal.

god bless these people :)

***

xiao jing teng concert ytd was awesome!!!! XD

am in love with him all over again hahahaha.

his voice is just damn power!!!! and the way he talks is really damn cute XD lol. took more videos than photos cos we're sitting too far up to get any proper shots anyway so its best to have mementos of the music quality instead ;) his band was superb too. super-like the drummer and bassist lah! XD live string orchestra rocks too. woohooo! XD

great music, great singer, wonderful company, and an unhealthy supper of bak kut teh post-concert! hahah. enjoyed myself lots ytd, even though i was really -.- by the time i got home lols. but its all worth it! XD

i love xiao jing teng :D

(shall upload photos/videos nxt time! its time to start mugging! no time!!!)


anneson's facebook status was quite lol.

'my love is like a red red rose' rewritten in singlish is 'my love machiam red rose'

HAHA. truly singapolean~~


anyhoo, i'd like to declare that i kinda love my neuropsy project mates! hahaha they're sucha funny-lol bunch to be with that it doesnt even feel like we're doing project! XD thats not meaning to say we're not productive. we are ok~~~ hahaha. really gd tt we can CRAP so much tgt!! hogging the last row of computers in class, watching "no laughing hospital" tgt, and fb-ing each other when we're just beside... lol. they're one of the very very few reasons why i still attend neuropsy class every thurs~~ hahah. aiyah i just love psych ppl! all siao siao one! LOL :P

finally surrendered to my mom's naggings and frens' advices so went down to see the doc for my eyelid problem. yeah its been a little itchy, flaky, wee bit swollen, for the past 3 days. have no idea whether its cos i rubbed my eye a lil too much, accidentally scratched it, an allergic reaction to my nail polish, sunburned, mutation, or wad. turns out the doc couldnt confirm the cause of it too but since there didnt seem to be any internal "localized swelling", it shld be just the skin so some cream should do the job. ohwell. $19 to put my mom's worries at ease~

then my mom mentioned about my weight problem (about how i've been eating so much and not gaining any kilos) to the doc which ended up in the doc taking my height and weight to check if my BMI's normal..... -.- feels like primary school health screening laa! >.< but anyway thats not the point. the point is........

my height is only 161cm!!! DDD:

*terribly downcast*

so for the past 5 years i've been living in a lie of being a 163cm girl..... :(
sobs i feel shorttt.
sigh. what to do.
161 lorr.

hahaha. but anyway its been confirmed that im not severely underweight, in case u're wondering. its a healthy BMI of 17! :D *ok fine the norm is 18 but its just a littleee below* few more kilos to go and i'll be in the normal range le so yay~ eat more!! cmon ppl time to feast!! :D


random:

fb-ing in neuropsy class and li ting intro-ed me to hipstamatic photography. omg the shots are so nice!!!! if i have iphone i sure get this app!! hahaha but i dont have one so i'll just envy ppl for now... and continue "liking" those photos on the fanpage and flooding up my own wall with the updates! lol. here're a few anyway!


this photo reminds me nostalgically of the rainy roads we trudged through in vienna. MANY MISSES.






beagle!!! *think snoopy*


so fat so cuteee!


this also reminds me of vienna. like outside the bakery that we bought breakfast from for our roomies! :D
*oh mannn someone time-capsule me back to last august please :(*




*adoresssssss*
and seriously, this is the climate siberian huskies should be in. not singapore!!

haha ok lah quite a lot of photos again. shall stop here and get back to researching on my ADHD project =x ciaos!


xinyi whats wrong with u.
what happened to that sagittarian spirit and that "follow ur heart" motto?
what happened to being born a feel-er rather than a think-er?
dont let ur mind and all that over-thinking and over-analysation screw things up for what ur heart wants.

follow ur heart.
and dont be afraid.
because at the crux of all these, u are already insanely in love.



(help! >.<)






why does it feel exceptionally dull when u're not online? :(


its really been quite a moody day anyways.. thanks to "TTOTM".
-____-

thankfully, someone created this thing called 'chocolate'.
wish they came with hugs, though.

ha ok im getting greedier by the day. maybe its cos i've been in too-close proximity to mr greedy [hanging on phone] =/ no good!!

and i swear its superrrr sian to hafta remind urself that u still nid to do research for project A and project B and project C and u have ur tutorial unfinished and u need to do up ur presentation slides and tmr is already tuesday so u betterrrrr get cracking!!! >.<

bahhh. what happened to "u also need to sleep" ??
-____-


it somehow seems really really long since i last had a chat with weijie, and although ytd's msn chat wouldnt really be counted as htht considering the previous loooong chats we had, it was still enjoyable. and in a sense, illuminating.

those few lines u said may just be literal sentences of words to some ppl, but to me, they're significant. thanks for making the pieces of my own puzzle fall into place again, and for helping me see the reason why i've even let myself walk so far into this. i guess now, there're only a few more pieces to go before the jigsaw's complete :)

thank you weijie :) u're like a guidebook of my life. what would i do without u! XD

***

some meaningful and cute quotes on love and marriage that i came across on RD :]


"we love because it's the only true adventure." - Nikki Giovanni

"you will find as you look back on your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love." - Henry Drummond

"keep your eyes wide open before marriage, half shut afterwards." - Benjamin Franklin

"laugh and the whole world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone." - Anthony Burgess
(lol)

"there is no reciprocity. men love women, women love children, children love hamsters." - Alice Thomas Ellis
(hahaha i like this one!)

and one more.

"love is metaphysical gravity." - R. Buckminster Fuller


:)
RD nv fails to be a good read everytime!


very, very, tired.
but still happy :)

caught alice in wonderland after hearing positive comments from euflomba! (couldnt join them for movie and steamboat on thurs cos i had project meeting :()
didnt think it was very very superb though, just quite ok bah. doesnt really matter anyway. the company was awesome :))

***

breaking news: i jogged ytd!!!

after an approximate "resting period" of 9 months, xinyi-the-lazy was finally motivated to exercise on 5th march 2010 after having consumed sumptuous dinners for about 3 consecutive days.

she is currently suffering from aches on both legs. obvious sign of age.

but i feel soooo healthy now!! :D
lets see when my next jog will be. haha.



alrights really tired. been a long day, and kinda long week too. too many events seemed to have happened within sucha short period of 6 days. interviews, project meetings, readings, more readings, band.... *faints*

sleep is much needed.


random:
hp inbox full again :( why must we have to delete our sms-es?? :(( can someone quickly invent programs tt allow us to keep msgs for eternity pls??
rawr.


finally done with attachment interviews, now just mb106 interviews left to go :]

surprisingly, i didnt get much of that "heart-broken" feeling upon knowing my chances of getting the first organisation (ovspring) was near non-existent. they're only choosing 4 out of 20, and i had utmost passion but negligible experience with children so, what are the chances, right?

things turned out to be more successful with care corner :] apparently they were gonna choose 4 out of the 5 shortlisted but one guy pulled out in the end so we're all in haha. the person who interviewed me seems nice and friendly too, so working under such ppl's guidance should be quite enjoyable. looking forward to working with the other 3 girls! :))


on the other hand, its gonna be quite crazy working 5-day 9-6 plus some sats on top of my external internship, and maybe band..

=/

even desmond commented im gonna become superwoman.
ha.
well thats if i survive, right?

***

recess week is flying by at lightning speed!!!
SINCE WHEN DID HALF OF IT GO BY???

cant believe i'll be waking up to a FRIDAY soon -.-
and the worse part is, although i've kinda been spending time trying to study these few days, it still seems like its not enough and there're still tonnes more to finish. tell me how im gonna maintain my sanity when the new workload comes in nxt week. hurr.

"in primary school, the word "recess" means u got 30-minute break... same here in uni."

one very-very-true comment made by annie during project discussion haha. its amazing how such things hadnt changed after more than a decade~


and yet, some things could change so much within a month.
:]
shhhhh.

hahaha. time to slp! gdnite :)


beautiful.


i feel like a piece of chocolate placed under the hot sun....
melted.

by u :))




hahahaha okayy i know this really doesnt sound like what xinyi will sayyyyyy but,
yeah. :]


p/s: updates on the battle between the heart and the mind?
the heart is winning.
reeeal fast.

maybe i shouldnt curb it any longer..





its been very long since i felt like i wanted something so badly, where u feel that the motivation building up inside u is so overwhelming and strong, it seems like the abstract concept itself can be held in ur hands like a concrete object and presented to someone else, in the hope that they too can understand just how much u want it.

the last time this happened, i was looking around for animal-related jobs during the post-A-levels period.
this time, its about developmental psychology.

words dont seem to be able to justify exactly how badly i want this attachment.

looking at the programs they have for children, their vision and philosophy towards therapy, the type of support they offer to children and their families, imagining the meaningful type of work i'll be able to help out with in the 2 months under them, the experience and perspective i can walk away with, a more defined career path i'll be able to see for myself in psychology after i graduate.... the list goes on.
maybe its my lack of vocabulary, but i really cant seem to be able to find enough words to describe the intensity inside.

the interview is tmr.
for now, i can only hope for the best, and pray hard that i'll be given a chance to work alongside these professionals.
wish me luck :)

***

Katherine McPhee - Terrified



You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean it cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life