cny is totally getting less and less festive. comparing the "type" of cny i spent these 2 days and the one i spent 10years back, its really hell lot of a difference.

1stly, the hols were definitely longer [i cant recall completely but i know its definitely a longer break den this pathetic 2 days']. 2ndly, i visited quite a lot of places back then and i swear the angbao collection's WOW. well maybe cos kids get more angbaos lah but still, this year is haix. 3rdly, at least it felt cny-ish last time. i quite rmbr the cny mood clearly.. this year was totally -____- cny...... hurr. ok i make it sound so bad. sorry lah cant help it. this yr's cny reli v sian for me!! x(

went to my mom's fren's place on 1st day and it was DEAD BORING cos my mom was busy with mahjong so its just me and the other children watching tv, which was only 1/10 stars entertaining cos de programs kinda suck? -.- really almost died of boredom der. but gd thing i was able to ask ppl out for movie in e evening! :D cant imagine stoning der whole day mannn. wan waste time also must waste somewhere better rite??

yup so went to watch love matters with xcjjjjjp at lido :D was so happy to step outta de hse and even to wait for the bus for damn long. at least im out!! :D haha but anyhoo, the movie's not bad! quite humourous lols. but nth can beat the jeeyon-look-alike actor lah.. hahahaah seriously, LOOK SUPER ALIKE. :P

wanna catch 大喜事 too. seems retarded and funny haha :P

and it was supper til quite late after tt at youth park kopitiam. 1st time spend cny 1st day lidat.. feel so "rebellious" lols. but haiyah it really beats staying in the place just for e sake of it and wasting the entire day away. got angbao so wad?? its the company tt counts mann.. and yeah i definitely enjoyed cny mostly cos i went out with the group of them :))) woohoo happy new year!

and 2nd day went to jane's place with xcjjjp again to discuss new songs to try out.. quoting emerson, "mission failed" lol. but ok lah stay at home also nth to do. do sch work during cny shld be quite inauspicious hor? *hurhur yah rite* wanted to go back home in e evening for dinner with my mom but she pangsehed me cos she went to mahjong again.. i knew it!! >=( lols. so yeah it was dinner outside again. super unhealthy!! x( alr ate so much cny goodies ytd and today, and still gotta take roti prata [the alternative of western food like fried chicken etc arent v healthy either so yah roti prata loh] for dinner.... arghhh now i really feel a sore throat coming up.

ok shall slp early. time to chiong sch stuff tmr onwards cos it has piled up to bt merah hill size =/ visiting ahbond's place tmr too. hope tt'll make my day! :D


woots happy chinese new year in advance!!! :D

had aemi reunion dinner on fri nite! well ok attendance was below 50% but its ok it was a happy dinner! :)) hadnt seen ppl lke cx don and joce for soooo long... haha. gd to meet up again! and i guess its the last meet-up before cx flies off for his GIP (global immersion program).. ahhhh gip!! i also wanna gooooo... :( but then again, we're still unsure if its even available for psy students. shall KIV tt :)

ntusb flutes reunion on sat! :D once again, not full attendance but its still all laughs meeting up with them, esp when we lao yu sheng! hahah damn funny. they made up 成语s like 永不‘打包’those kinda crap... and der was one pt where we just lao-ed and der was silence cos nobody got anything to say alr lols. well, der's always HUAT AR!!! haha yeahhh hope it'll be a fruitful year for all of us! :D and may kk get married soon so we can get angbao from him... HAHAH :P he reli better act fast loh. if not later apply HDB become more ex... *haha yeah tts de kinda crap we've been producing all day lol*

shopping with weijie after tt! :))) somehow it seems lke we havent met up for v long.. haha anw, went to haji lane for e 1st time! stuff're quite unique but din see anything eye-catching for me.. ohwell. my wallet's cheering :]

bugis street after tt and dinner at some kopitiam der. i finally got my long-awaited part4! :P haha we shall see if der's a part 5 coming up soon huh... ;)

jamming after tt with xcjjj and ktv at chinatown. long time no ktv! XD haha but i still miss kbox. somehow tt envt feels more "homely" :P and i still miss kbox-ing with the usual kakis. u noe who u are!!! lets go after cny k?? while we're still rich! :P

and lastly, family reunion dinner tonite after all the tiring spring cleaning in the day. had our dinner at jp's gourmet chinese buffet and its quite gd! :D finally one buffet restaurant tt serves gd sashimi. well maybe also cos der're lotsa ppl so de chef bobian gotta keep slicing fresh ones so they all taste gd.. anything lah. it was just *thumbs up* and im satisfied! :D

p/s: big bonus during reunion too cos i got to sit just a table away from an eye candy :D hahaha happy new year mannn~~~ lollll.

yup tts all for reunion so far! :) hope it'll be a fruitful *in terms of angbao* cny for everyone! enjoy the gd food while it lasts and the sadly-v-short 2day break! yes yes must reli enjoy to the max before we gear up for the projects again.. yup haf a great cny my dear frens! get lotsa angbaos and lets get fat tgt too!! :P HUAT AR!!!!


u know, i shld really really REALLY go read my biopsy tb now and stop(continue) wasting time?? i just wasted like an entire hour sad-ing away over trivial things... since when did i become so... sensitive? or wadever word tt fills that blank.

or maybe i've been like this all along.

i noe "that" and "that" really dont mean anything but somehow i just cant help feeling affected. and nothing i logically thought or wad other ppl say can help me get past that emotion, so it doesnt help tt im consciously trying to get over that feeling. this sucks u noe? i cant even stop myslf from feeling depressed. so much for studying psychology.

*great, now im feeling angry at myslf too. wth!!

i cant wait for thursday to come, for recording lesson to start proper. it seems to be the only lesson i look forward to. shakuhachi's a lil depressing too cos that pipe sometimes refuses to cooperate and gives me no sound or just air -.- garrr speaking of this just makes me feel down all over again... argh mood swing-ing. must be pms.

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at this point, i really cant see any "happy" in "happy new year" cos der're HELL lot of things to complete over this wk and the next. *yeah so much for HOLIday..* we're just done with one ppt today and de next one is up alr, due a little after cny. and we gotta hand in de report for asg1 tgt too. ARGHHH. HAPPY NEW YEAR.

and not like we (my group) 're so satisfied with our 1st ppt. apparently we're a little out of point cos we din focus on the correct thing. but it was the tutor who said it was freestyle! >=( well der were just quite a lot of grievances toward tt issue after we left tutorial.. but haiyah wadever lah. also nth we can do abt it alr right?? >=(

i really have no idea how bad this sem will be. it reli seems kinda bleak to me now. asian and personnel psy are both so broad and applied tt its scary to even think of how the exam qns are gonna be like. was a little hopeful for biopsy cos at least i haf a background in bio but ytd's lect on brain anatomy was HORRIBLE the friggin brain has SO MANY PARTS TO REMEMBER and i swear its like IMPOSSIBLE to noe all of them well??? my 2 music modules are so "unpredictable" this time round too.. haix really dun think i'll do well this sem :(( this feeling sucks!!!!!

yes i shld still continue with biopsy readings before i TOTALLY die in this module too. crapz.


very long nv practise flute until so xiong le. full day band prac today! sectionals in the morning, combined prac with mr oura in the noon, and sectionals again in the evening. well by evening der were only 3 flautists left so er, yeah we tried our best to clear things up aka running notes. and yeah v long nv play so many dao geis!! was reli quite tiring.. esp my fingers and forearm. can train muscle mannn lols. the tune is still looping in my head now =/ argh. better get all of them right soon. xinyi practise practise!!


to my dearest goldie:

thank you so much for the very very sweet present (although its belated but my present to u is much more belated so yeah i guess we're quits! :P) and for the letter u wrote! :)) u know, this really touched me a lot becos the last time i received any letter was, around pri sch days?? the days where little girls still exchange letters to their friends even though they see each other everyday in sch.. those days are long gone. but receiving ur letter relived those memories in me and made me wonder, what ever happened to the 心思 we all had when we're young? but then again, it probably doesnt apply to everyone else haha. ok sounding a lil emo-ish here but, really thanks a lot for personally writing me a birthday letter! :D it is very different from a card, really. and i do appreciate the effort a lot :) thank you so much ahgold!!! love you! XD

and its from what u said tt made me fully realise how long we havent talked to each other. i guess the last time we really talked was when i was telling u abt "somebody"?? =x yes tts really long ago i guess. haha. its time we htht again! :D and dun be too stressed up by sch yah? im always here if u wanna rant or just grumble abt anything tt irks u! :) since we both haf fridays free this sem, we shld make full use of it! its fated lahh~~ hahha :P lets make it a point to catch up much more regularly this time round, ok? ;)

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been thinking quite a lot recently... ha ok i sound like im in ns =x lols well my tutor did mention sth like how he thought abt his own identity and stuff when he was in the army "cos u noe army ar nth to do mah, so u think". haha he's a funny tutor :P but anw, yeah thought abt a few things recently. somehow, these few weeks just seemed different from before.. bit hard for me to explain why also so, sorry weijie for saying so little things and being so sian ytd =x maybe its just the anti-social mode again haha. well, just kinda dislike the way things are right now. but then again, maybe im just emo-ing recently. ha. ok i think this paragraph doesnt make any sense. shall just recharge for full day band prac tmr.


presenting to u, my FAVOURITE plant of the day!! :D



sucha happy, healthy shade of green right??? and a very cute size too!! ^.^



yes i will definitely go back to waffles place cottage again to visit my fav mini pot plant!! :D :D

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was finding pics depicting kampong life for my asian psy project ytd and found some really beautiful ones! to me, at least :)







and many other lovely ones from http://ferenc.biz/archives/seven-year-old-guest-photographer-from-kampong-cham-cambodia :))

great that the cam's super gd! ;) and the photographer's only a 7-yr-old boy!! got future got future lol.

wow ok sudd quite a lot of photos (compared to past few *i know* very wordy entries) haha but anw, here's a pic taken using kent's v nice DSLR during the jj gang's gathering..


elmo!!! XD
and us behind. hahaha :P

elmo looks damn irresistably happy here XD well of cos lah it has a great handphone to hang on~~ hahaha okok :P

anw, WEIJIE i super long nv see u le lahh!! so near yet so far leh u :(( but its ok im gonna see u within 24hrs hahaha. im looking fwd to updates! ;)

ok im need to churn out my proj stuff now. ciaos.


shakuhachi ytd was fun! XD although it was so damn hard for me to get a sound outta tt pipe... haha. tried again today and practised a little so its a bit better i suppose? hahah hopefully will get a nice (and in-tune) tone soon :]

yesyes im going thru the same torturing phase as someone *cough cough* so u better get ur favourite scale right this week >=( and i shld get my shakuhachi ro-tsu-re-chi-ha right by this wk too.. >=)

p/s: heard tts the pentatonic scale =S lke wth i haven even learn pentatonic for guitar.... hur ok random. i'll get it nicely done by this wk!!

sucks that workload's coming came in so i cant slack anymore X( asian psy presentation is gonna be NEXT MONDAY like hellooo sch just started??? :((( and der's gonna be an individual presentation *FAINTS* in march for biopsy.... AHHHHH someone kill me. i really really abhor individual projects!! they're so scary :(

:( cos i still slept in biopsy and now even personnel psy lects. -.- tsk. alright i shall coffee myslf before lects next time. nescafe here i come!!

but i shall finish up my readings for tmr's discussion first. hurs. =/


quite a gd weekend! :)

sat's as musical as usual with band from 9-5 and jamming at nite..

was totally not on form *:@ !!!* for jamming ytd so now tt i've 闭门思过-ed, i figured i really havent been practising enuff these few weeks.. for both skyler and xcjjj i guess. yes i am going to 发奋图强!! watch out for my COMEBACK muahahahaha~~~! >=)

and i really hope i will make a comeback soon. hurr. wish me luck :]

yup and today's filled with gd shopping and great company! :) got cny shopping allowance from my dad and YAY finally i can shop properly lol. but heh i think i only got one "decent" cny top today? =x de rest are all t-shirts for sch wear... haha ohwells. long-term investment! :P

i hope i find a nice dress - OMG today's shopping made me completely realise my liking for dresses is actually quite... profound. haha. feels gd to be a girl :) ok i sound like i havent been a girl all these while =x but eh, i swear got a FEW arnd me who really dun treat me like a girl lohh! >=(

:) and yeah i hope to find nice shoes too!

was telling karen *i think* few days back abt how bad i felt for feeling like i needed to buy a million more things before i'll feel "materially-satisfied" enuff, and how the meagre amt of money i currently hold will nv help me achieve this. then she reminded me tt, der's prob abt 7 million other girls in this world who feel the same way so actually i dun haf to feel too bad :] haha well tts quite true i suppose. but, i seriously nid to make money!!! X( tuition agency pls contact me soooooonnnnn...

...or shld i just go for waitressing?? :(

ok im not gonna think abt solving this dilemma at this hr. haha. time to slp. 1st shakuhachi lesson tmr [albeit more of a singing one cos he predicted der'll be "no sound" coming from our shakuhachi-s lol] hope it'll be a gd one anw! :) and next wk's gonna be super xiong. full of band, band, and more band.. not too much workload from the academic side i hope!


YAYNESS i got into recording!!!!!!

i was all-smiles when i saw benji's msg abt the news :D woohooooo~!!!! hahaha okayy i noe its just another module. but, come to think of it, i think i'll be really really upset if i cant get in.. hehe. yeah im real glad i passed the audition :)))

cheers to a great sem ahead!!


ROBERT PATTINSON IS DAMN DAMN CHARMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*melts~~*


love this photo! kristen stewart looks damn good here ;) (erm, its her right???)

XD

initially i cldnt understand why but now i TOTALLY know why so many girls're high over him.. COS I AM TOOO!!!! XD hahaha really. halfway thru the show he started getting more and more charming and somehow its just addictive!! *omg i sound super hua chi =x OKAY I AM!!* my personal brand of heroine~~~ lols. and the 2 of them are like super sweet too. i wan a bf tt can fly me up to the treetops tooo!!! LOL ok i sot liao.

*calms down, takes deep breath..*

recording audition today was... SCARY. yes tts the word. i havent felt the anxiety abt auditions/interviews for so long (well mainly cos the prev few auditions i went to were more lke overviews of the course and you decide if u wanna stay in it) that i kinda blanked out when prof tang asked me abt my music background. yeah its not some million-dollar-question but i was just kinda intimidated by all the seemingly-pro ppl arnd me while waiting for my turn and the fact tt only 20 will be chosen out of the, near 40? =x

but anyways i hope my background's sufficient to land me a place in this course. its gonna be really interesting im sure ;)

[random]
im having mr bean cravings again!! esp the cheese pancake!!! XD haven had their soya milk for v long too... OK I'LL BUY TT TMR :D i think its reli a sch thing mann. i dun see myslf craving for the food during hols. must be cos i see mr bean outlet everyday at boon lay and in south spine and hols nv reli see... hurr true huh "out of sight, out of mind"..

doesnt matter. come to think of it, im reli quite hungry now! i wish i haf a cheese pancake to savour~~~ :((

ok mustnt think so much abt food at this hour. i must believe tt looking at my edward cullen will fill my stomach :))


<3 <3 <3 ~~~


oh no i just completely slacked off my wednesday without doing ANYTHING academically-related =/ to think ytd i was still happily planning tt i'll start reading the textbks.... hurrr. reli nid some time to switch back to full-time mugger mode =x

band today was ok! :)) im starting to feel v "pro-band" again hahaha. maybe cos we're progressing quite ok now. hopefully we'll cfm the repertoire for sojourn soon! OH and speaking of tt, shall advertise here a bit hehe.

NTUSB's having a band concert [yes i noe AGAIN but its an annual thing yah..] on Saturday, 21st Feb'09 7.30pm @ Victoria Concert Hall. tickets are at $12 each! contact me if u're interested to attend yah? ;)

haha hopefully ticket sales will still be ok in light of e economic downturn.. lol.

anw, emo nite ytd!!! x( haha ok lah acheli not tt emo. more like, sudd der're so many negative things happening arnd me and its only the start of the year! :(( sometimes i just feel like washing my hands off everything and sit back while others do the stuff den when settle finish le tell me. lol. ok so very selfish. just hope things will settle down soon.. same goes for e similar situations my frens are handling too :))

ok i shld reli slp early and wake up earlier so i can complete more things and stop wasting my waking hrs away. recording audition tmr. i better get in!!! x)


can i complain a bit??

- i am so so SUAYYY can. 1st day of sch and i dropped my phone at e bus interchange after i hung up. ARGH. 2 tiny "cracks" on the corner of my phone now!!!! X( seriously, the no. of times i dropped this SE phone exceeds e no. of times i dropped ALL the nokia phones i had in my life -.- wad the hell.. arghhh can u just STOP dropping??? *glares at w660i* >=(

- psy in asian context seems like a freaking stressful module. can i drop this subject????? :(( RAHHH i cant cos its my core!!! hafta take it sooner or later.. the only gd thing is tt the lecturer's quite ok but other de tt, stress comes from all the "ok this shall be ur assignment"-s and "be prepared for a lot of readings, a lot of $%@&@$^%$ and a lot of @#$#Y^#%^%^" [i cant rmbr exactly. i just noe got a lot of "a lot"s]

DIE. my 1st applied module and its sucha horrible start. i hope im blessed enuff this sem again..

- 1st lect of bio psy and i slept thru a gd half of it cos i sensed the rainy weather outside and i just cldnt help feeling slpy. esp after tt huge bowl of ebi don. =/ ok i will not fall aslp in future bio psy lects.

- shakuhachi audition!!!

ok acheli nth much to complain abt this other than the fact tt i gotta pay 60bucks for the instrument =/ haix my wallet reli getting smaller and smaller.. my atm card's shrinking!!! argh. but yeah other den tt, all's gd. commitment wise, kinda prepared.. and it'll be sth reli special! prob wont get to learn this outside of sch bah.. and prob never in my life if its not for this module :]

e prof said it'll be gd if we noe some jap too cos the scores and all'll be in jap. so glad i took jap1 before [although i kinda forgot a lot of the words and stuff =x] and hopefully a background in flute will help me get a sound outta tt pipe soon? haa hope it goes well! :D


yup and tts 1st day in sch. one audition down and 2 more to go. i hope i can get recording!!! XD


last day of hols!!!

hmm strictly speaking, even the last day is over but since im not aslp yet, its still considered last day lah =D

slacked half the day at home and met up with rhesa and joshua in town. haha supposed to meet up long loooong ago but tt time i was sick. and this time, deb didnt come cos she still in msia i think.. looks lke our attendance always cant be full =x but anw, had kbox and buffet! surprisingly, the food's quite ok. well maybe its cos i was totally starved by the time joshua reached but, i reli din expect de food to be edible? =x haha turns out to be not bad. but air con in kbox room's free so food gets cold reli quick x(

and it was my shortest session so far! 3 hrs oni. hahaha :P went home after tt cos no nice movie to watch and no gd timings and rhesa's got 830am class tmr and i dowan to spend anymore money so yup home we go~~ guess we'll meet up again when we're all richer! :D

i foresee another busy wk ahead. auditions for music modules starting tmr!!! grrr i better get them >=( 老天啊，就帮帮我吧~~~!! if i get all of them den i'll drop jap 2. im so not confident of scoring an A for tt haha. mustnt let my gpa drop further!!!

and band's gonna get more xiong too. ahhh...... i kinda regret not getting more slp. haha alright i dun. least i had enuff fun this hols huh? ;) OH and i tried yar pit just now!!! im so freaking addicted to tt song lahhh. its so interesting to be singing thai HAHA i nv tot i'll ever try this mann. am looking fwd to next jamming ;)

yes yes keep all those happy thoughts at the front of ur mind and negative ones at bay. keep urslf happy and STAY happy during this sem, xinyi!! actually, i haf a feeling this sem'll be as packed as the previous. outside of academics, i mean. and i hope its in a gd way too :]

time to get some slp. wish me luck for my auditions!! XD